Dairy of a BOTTer - Tuesday - transfer addictions

Hey Everyone 

My internet was down all day yesterday so I was MIA...  The weekend was interesting and wanted to talk/share with you.  I had a very emotional day Saturday family "stuff" and found myself in tears and just all over the place.  I guess I need Lexapro   My son, trying to be thoughtful went and got a bottle of wine.  I like a glass from time to time.   He made the comment here you need this.  That statement hit me hard.  Is this how we end up with addition transfers?  We use to reach for food when we had a "bad" day and now do we find we reach for wine, pills, sex, shopping?  Are we still trying to use substances to fill that emotional need?  What do you think?

Needless to say, I thanked him and passed on the wine.  Food caused me enough pain

Here is my food and exercise from yesterday

Breakfast

Calories: 229, Fat: 11.2g, Carbs: 20.1g, Sugar: 17.1g, Protein: 14.4g

Egg, whole, cooked, hard boiled (2 large)

Calories: 155, Fat: 11g, Carbs: 1.1g, Sugar: 1.1g, Protein: 13g

Grapefruit, raw, pink and red and white, all areas (1 cup sections, with juice)

Calories: 74, Fat: 0.2g, Carbs: 19g, Sugar: 16g, Protein: 1.4g

Lunch

Calories: 133, Fat: 2.5g, Carbs: 5g, Sugar: 4g, Protein: 21g

Fish, tuna, white, canned in water, drained solids (3 oz)

Calories: 109, Fat: 2.5g, Carbs: 0g, Sugar: 0g, Protein: 20g

Fresh Tomato (1 Med.)

Calories: 24, Fat: 0g, Carbs: 5g, Sugar: 4g, Protein: 1g

Dinner

Calories: 275, Fat: 11.5g, Carbs: 21.9g, Sugar: 5.8, Protein: 20.6g

Fish, salmon, Atlantic, farmed, raw (3 oz)

Calories: 177, Fat: 11g, Carbs: 0g, Sugar: 0, Protein: 17g

Sweet potato, baked in skin, without salt (1 small)

Calories: 54, Fat: 0.1g, Carbs: 12g, Sugar: 3.9g, Protein: 1.2g

Beans, snap, green, boiled, drained, with salt (1 cup)

Calories: 44, Fat: 0.4g, Carbs: 9.9g, Sugar: 1.9g, Protein: 2.4g

Snack

Calories: 480, Fat: 12g, Carbs: 46g, Sugar: 15g, Protein: 49g

Syntha Protein Drink (8 ounces)

Calories: 200, Fat: 6g, Carbs: 15g, Sugar: 2g, Protein: 22g

Syntha Protein Drink (8 ounces)

Calories: 200, Fat: 6g, Carbs: 15g, Sugar: 2g, Protein: 22g

Light and fit yogurt (6 ounces)

Calories: 80, Fat: 0g, Carbs: 16g, Sugar: 11g, Protein: 5g

Summary

Water:	8 glasses consumed
Total Calories:	1127 Calories
Carbohydrate:	372 Calories	33% of total Calories
Fat:	335 Calories	30% of total Calories
Protein:	420 Calories	37% of total Calories

Have a BOTT day 

Take care,
Kathy

I believe we can transfer addictions.  I grew up using food and then went to alcohol and then when I got sober I went back to food and gained soooo much weight.  Now that I am not using food for alcohol I have to watch myself with sex and spending.  It is definitely a vicious cycle.

Never lose sight of the truth that EVERYONE has a growing edge psychologically - no one even comes close to having it 100% together 100% of the time.  And, not being feeble minded, we rarely reinvent the wheel - we will most likely alway go back to our old "sicknesss of choice"  which for most of us is addiction - one of our choices is addiction to compliance.  I have that and it sometimes comes around to bite me in the behind - when I'm not perfect!!!!!!!!!  But I'm growing on being just a tiny bit more flexible without going overboard - the way I see it today is that I sure practiced food addiction which was much more deadly for me than what I'm doing now.  We are human - humans aren't perfect - humans make mistakes - humans can correct their mistakes - humans can learn from their mistakes.  Now, honestly, wouldn't you hate to have to live with someone who was perfect????  LOL

great thread for today...in my work world (I work in alcohol and drug services, ironically) we strive for "progress, not perfection" or I like to think of us a perfect...exactly the way we are with all of our faults and flaws because (not intending to offend those who do not practice a religion or are not spiritual) we are made in  God's image....

At any rate, whichever you choose to believe, we must strive to do the best that we can with what we have each day.  Will you make perfect choices?   maybe not...but will you do better the next time?  absolutely!

I had an opportunity to cover a bariatric support group as a facilitator for a friend of mine last week.  I posted about it on Thursday.  We discussed in great detail transfer addictions.  It is amazing to me just how much the brain will adapt and fool us into thinking that we need something else when our "addiction of choice" is missing.  I myself have not struggled with this but am ever mindful that at some point, I might because absolutely nothing is written in stone.....

Thanks for reminding me of that.

Thank you for your post. It made me realize that sometimes my wine drinking isn't social or "just to relax" and I am addicted to shopping some. I have CC bills that agree. GREAT post!! 

My weight issues really began around 1990 when I quit using drugs. I had an extreamlly bad addiction to any drug I could get a hold of. After I quit using the drugs I switched to food and ballooned from 200lbs to almost 600lbs in a 10 year period.

Now my addictions center around Facebook and ESPN, lol.