Head games

I really don't want to be fat.  I like not having my arms touch my 'roll' on my sides when I'm walking. I  like not having a 'roll'!  I like not having my knees touch when I'm walking.  I especially like comfortably wearing a size 12. 
What's wrong with me?!?!?  Why can't I get my act together and eat correctly.  I just want to stuff junk.
I keep telling myself I'll finish out the day and start fresh in the morning or first thing Monday.  I've set so many deadlines and goals etc that I'm sick of it.
I know that no one can do this for me.  Don't I want it bad enough?
*deep sigh*

OMG!!!!  You've been roaming around in my head!!!! I thought only I had those feelings.  It will get better...back to basics!

We've all been there.  Take it 5 minutes at a time, and getting back to basics is the answer.  Write down all the reasons you wanted/needed the surgery in the first place, Forgive yourself for being human.  Start NOW - not tomorrow, next week, next month, next mealtime, but RIGHT NOW.  Don't allow "junk in your trunk"   Don't remember the name of the song (and I'm sure it was way before your time) but it goes, Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again.  Good advice for all of us when we get off track.

Have a fine BOTT day

WE CAN DO THIS TOGETHER - YES WE CAN  

Happy is absoLOOOOOTly right. Don't wait until some other time to get back on track, do it this very second. Even if you're mid-bite with a cursed bagel, you can look at it and decide to make the better choice and toss it strait into the trash can! You must empower yourself and believe the little steps are possible.

I think you need to practice a new exercise in your head to get going right on this... a short list and a long list. A short list is a list of goals you can accomplish just -today-. Little steps that help make the big ones seem possible. The long list can be just this week, or through the month, or longer. I'm just offering examples here, but you know your day and challenges better than I.

Short list -
Say no to a 'bad' food today. Keep saying no even if it pops up again later.
Drink 64 oz fluid today
When that urge to stuff comes, sip some ice water instead.
Find a new "WLS friendly" snack, buy a stock of em for your desk.
Do something extra in movement today until you break a sweat.
Find a proper, non-food related reward for when you do accomplish goals (A small reward for short list, a large reward for long list)

Long list -
Make it all week with out (challenge food, i.e. cookies, chips, soda)
Exercise hard 2 times this week.
Do not get on the scale all week. Instead, do what feels right to satisfy your needs of feeling good about yourself.
Lose 5 lbs.
Lose a pants size


I hope some of these ideas help.

Thanks everyone!  Geeeze!  OK, I'm going for the 15 minutes at a time today.  I'll let you know how it goes.

I have al the faith in the world you are going to do just fine today! 

Thank you for your post.  I can so relate. I'm trying to stay back on track, too.  What's wrong with me is I have a "broken coper."   I want to "use" & stuff junk to cope at times, regardless of how much I like the results of caring properly for my body/mind/spirit.  Also regardless of how much I hate the effects of stuffing.  Sometimes I don't want it bad enough, or I just don't care that I'm hurting myself.  The temporary relief is all I can think about. I also believe & recommend that I can "start fresh" this moment. " I blew it, may as well wait until tomorrow, Monday, whatever", is the old sick me talking.  15 min at a time is OK! then another...another..another.  Whatever it takes.  Don't forget to celebrate victories in a healthy way.  I've been falling off in eves after successful days.  Sound familiar? I'll second your deep sigh.  I pledge to work on real solutions for my issues.

So far so good today.  I bought several samples of Unjury protein powder.  I used the strawberry sorbet this morning mixed with water.  I added ice chips so it was really cold.  Pretty tasty!  I'm pretty sick of the protein powders I've been using.  They are either gritty, icky thick or just plain taste bad.  The Unjury seems pretty good.  Late afternoon and definitely evening are my worst times.  I'm trying to plan a menu to get me through the day today.
I'm going to Arizona over Thanksgiving.  I really don't want them to see me up 20 lbs!  Somehow I think we fool ourselves into thinking if no one sees us eat it that they won't know.  Oh - they know!