Disappointed in myself

I am so disappointed in myself - I have not stopped eating cookies, then because I've 'blown it', I go ahead and eat more of them - pre wls behaviour! 

I can give several 'reasons' for this, like being manically busy, ill so my body has been craving carbs for quick energy, etc. but at the end of the day these are all just excuses.

I know that, but why do I keep reaching for the cookies?  I have been losing slowly but steadily each week recently.  I stopped weighing every day - bad choice, because I then stop monitoring my eating each day.  So this morning it looks like I've gain those pounds that I worked so hard to get off.  Stupid!

There seems to be a few of us going through this at the moment - maybe it's the change in weather....uh oh, another 'reason' (read that to say excuse....)

ok, it stops here and now.  Thanks for listening to me getting it off my chest.  I've done this before, I can do it again.  As of now I am back on track with BOTT power behind me.  Thanks guys, because I know you understand more than anyone.  I'll grit my teeth when I do my weekly weigh in on Friday and no matter what the numbers say, I will not get in to the downward spiral that I'm in right now, and I will build on my successes.

Ruth

First of all, Ruth - YOU ARE NOT STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!  You are simply human - a terrible inconvenience isn't it?  Ugh

Now, be as understanding, caring, accepting and forgiving of yourself as you are/have been to us.  We deseved it (you had no problem with that I'll bet) so if we deserved it and you are one of the BOTT family (and you sure are one of us) then, suprise, suprise you deserve it too.

BOTT POWER is a wonderful, and very real thing.  So glad you are calling for it because it is always here for all of us.

Remember, the scales can ONLY measure weight - they can't even come close to measuring worth - you are worth every bit as much when the scales go us as when they go down or when they stay the same.  We all need a refresher course in that truth from time to time!!!!!!

Don't know how it works best for you, but for me I know I have to write down and plan what I need within my calorie limit.  Then, I KNOW when I have consumed my healthy calories I have had ENOUGH - regardless of what my thinking is telling me and I simply REFUSE to let myself put ANYTHING else (even healthy calories) in my mouth that day.  Do I do that perfectly?  You've got to be kidding   I'm human too!!!!!  But doing this increased to days I do this and that's the best any of us can ask of ourselves.  Accentuate the positive - eliminate the negative thinking is a goal, and it will always be a work in progress.

We are here for you - if it will help you get back/stay on track, post a gazzilion million times a day.

WE CAN DO THIS TOGETHER - YES WE CAN and you are off and runningto a wonderful BOTT day.  YEAH!!!!!!!!!

thanks so much happy.  It's good to be reminded of the true value of worth and it's not a number!!

I'm so glad I posted as it really helped get it all out of my system!  I've been able to say no to the cookies since then and a carrot with hummus was my friend whilst cooking dinner tonight as a better choice snack.

I'm up off the floor, now I need to get running...  YEAH!!!

Isn't it amazing the difference it can make coming to this site!  Glad to know you are doing so well today

It is frustating, isn't it?  My weakness seems to be banana bread...how on earth did I get into that???  So, I can relate.

Like you, I hate that I am doing this - something I swore I would never do -- BUT I am kicking myself back into basics...no more excuses. 

If you'd like, we can tag team -- feel free to keep in touch.  We can help keep each other honest!  :)

Ruth,

I agree with Happy  your worth is not measured by the scale...... WOW what a thought....

Just rememeber you are human and you will make mistakes..... just go at it again.... don't continue to let it keep you down......


YOU CAN DO THIS........................   Eileen

Ruth Ruth Ruth! You're one of BOTT's biggest 'cheerleaders'... You know the rules, no pity parties! No excuses! Just acceptance and a willingness to make corrections. Can you substitute something for those cookies? Keep a healthy crunchy sweet at your desk, for example, some wasa crispbread and PB, or laughing cow cheese or babel cheese.

Why are those cookies even nearby! I understand if they're brought in for work. If you want, and it sounds silly but it works for me and my co-workers think its very clever of me... I put a sticky note beside the cookies that says "(My name) can't have this" Every time I get up to refill my coffee and am tempted to taste... I see the note and agree with it, and just get my coffee. Can you try that?

I know you can do this! Steam roll into it and don't forget my mantra for success, "I just gotta want it"

  gotta, wanna, gonna!!!

Thanks

Ruth...I am by no means "perfect". Do you have a copy of The Beck's Diet Solution? I can't tell you how many times I pick it up and reread a few sections. Think I can actually quote some sections...have read them that many times. I picked up my copy on Amazon for $14.95 whi*****luded S/H