Thursday - BOTT Cardio & Cafe

Morning, BOTT'ers!

We're just 2 days away from the weekend! WOO! I'll be visiting my brother, sister-in-law-to-be and neices this weekend, which is a good cause for celebration. They are 3 years old and 2 months old. I hope it'll be warm enough to slip-n-slide with my older neice, she loves to do that.

So it turns out I've been walking a lot farther with the poochie than originally thought. My father measured out the blocks in our neighborhood, and my mom had them all wrong. I've been going over a mile every night, when I thought i was doing a little over a half. That makes me feel fantastic, and want to add a whole bunch more. And now that I am not sore anymore from my war weekend, and finally caught up on sleep, I'll be heading back to the gym. I think I can finally accomplish something more than maintaining my current weight.

I've also discovered this strange bravery I haven't had before. It sounds wierd. But now I'm not afraid to throw away what's left of my food when I'm finished. Normally, I'd wait a while till I wasn't full anymore, then eat more. Of course it was a horrible habit to have. Now, it seems I can just... let it go, toss it, and move on. I hope that sticks.

Cardio - Hit the track BEAUTIFUL autumn weather today.

Food -
B - 1 slice light wheat bread, french toast style. SF Mrs Butterworths.
S - 1/2 chx parm flat bread
L - Last of the left over corned beef n cabbage. I may just eat the cabbage and beef and skip the taters and carrots.
S - Apple slices
D - Pot roast

Sion - it never ceases to amaze me what we learn we can do if only we believe in ourselves enough to give something new a chance.  (It isn't like we live on a desert island and in the unlikely event we were on the verge of starvation we could not get to food in time to save our lives LOL)

I'm having to call on the bravery angels  for this maintenance thing.  I was .02 of a pound in my over-goal weight cushion zone this morning.  Did I panice - just for an instant and then I plugged into reality - c'mon .02 of a pound, big fat hairy deal.  And why am I calling it a cushion zone - because those who know tell me "normal" people (never have aspired to only being "normal" but that's a battle for another day LOL) do.  So I went merrily on my way getting ready to go to work.  I'm at 1300 calories on my way to 1500 - if - no, that's WHEN I add 50 calories a day I will be at 1500 (actually, it's 1539, but who's counting LOL) Monday.  I keep telling myself if I get out of my cushion zone, Tusday I can consider cutting back a few calories for a day or two - even though my rational self (virtually a stranger to me in the area of food and weight - just beginning to make her acquaintance - she's a bit stuffy, but I think over time I can loosen her up a bit) tells me to give 1500 a month.  Now I know I won't do that if I keep gaining, and I know it's highly unlikely I'll stop weighing every day, but I think a week is doable.

I'm frustrated by my sciatica nerve - everytime I try to add some exercise it complains.  That's partly because my stuffy rational self isn't in control of how much I add. 

So my BOTT pledge is ONLY walking - NO STAIRS - and not to overdo the walking part either.  Then to eat and ENJOY the 1300 calories for today.

And while I'm at it - words really can say how much I appreciate you all being there for me and letting my be who I really am (see, you haven't seen much of my stuffy rational self eaither )

Have a fun BOTT day everyone.  Happy to say my depression from feeling "not good enough" has evaporated for the most part and today I'm at least up to "acceptable' 

Hi BOTTers!

I went on an emotional eating rollercoaster last week -- no protein, lots of snacks -- BUT! I'm so glad report that I'm 2 days back on track. Everyone's discussion posts are so motivating!! I just have to RE-get over this idea of excess when it comes to food. I think about what I used to eat at the begining -- I never felt deprived or miserable. I actually felt the opposite. I felt so strong and empowered for being able to say "No thanks" to a muffin or snack. I'm working on getting back into that mindset because the pouch still works according to the chicken I ate last night. LOL.


Cardio - day off

Food -
B: 1 egg with 1/2 slice of toast. Coffee with cream & sugar
L: 1/2 cup cottage cheese & 1 1/2 carrots
S: 1/2 Kashi go lean protein bar & coke zero
D: 1 cup of bowtie pasta & asparagus with parmesean cheese
because I didn't drink my protein shake and got hungry: 1 kashi go lean bar

Saying goodbye to sugar and hello to splenda. I love how easily it disolves in iced coffee!

Have a good night and happy friday!