What not to do...

Ok.  In my stupid attempt to try to stem the gaining tide, or to start the downward trend, I stopped taking my antianxiety meds.  I figured that my vitamin and mineral supplements I started would work as replacements.  Well, I did fine during the long weekend, but today I lost it. 

My OCD boss was riding my &^# all day today.  My teenage son, who is high functioning autistic, was up in my face asking for help for his school project.  My hormonal pre-teen daughter was whining about being teased at school.  She has a boyfriend, so the boys were teasing her about this.  My husband was bugging me about reviewing his PowerPoint presentation for work. But the final straw was my online instructor gave me a zero for an assignment that I already turned in. 

So..I put my hands to my head and said a few choice words.  This is very out of character for me, so my children walked away from me and my husband slunk away.

Finally, I realized why I was freaking out.  I just went and took my meds, so hopefully I should be back to my old self in a couple of days.

I would rather be a few pounds overweight than not be able to handle my day-to-day stress.

Hoo, what a rollercoaster. I'm glad you figured it out and started setting it aright. I'm sure the kids and DH will understand what happened. Its definately not an easy thing to overtake, when you know how to handle it one way, and are forced to handle it another. Keep up with your Pledge work, and we can help fend off those few extra pounds together.

i feel ya...i'm bipolar and the urge to get off my meds is incredible...unfortunately it's not practical.  i am learning to live with my meds and my limitations on my diet protocol as well.  hang in there, girl...we are here for ya!!!

Janelle - I am so proud of you for resisting the temptation to get off your meds!!!!   It's good that you realize that's the worst thing you could do to yourself.  That's 90% of the battle - and you're winning   YEAH!!!!!!!

My son is bipolar, too.  He is bipolar with autism, so he can be either quite charming or a bear depending on the day.  He takes meds, but it only takes the edge off.  Yesterday, he was having a manic period, so it was all I could do to keep myself in check. 

I love him to death, and he is the sweetest thing in the world, but it is hard somedays.

Thanks for the support.

Alicia - and the great news is you neither have to be overweight (may take you a bit longer to reach your goal, but you can sure get there) nor be swamped by stress.  By all means, do what you need to do to take the very best care of yourself possible   This is for the rest of your life and living with that level of stress, sure isn't something you want to do for the rest of your life.

We're here for you so let us help in any way we can.

no meds = stress = poor eating choices
meds = less stress = better eating choices

Seems to me those two may just balance each other out.  Good for you for making the decision to go back on the meds.  Hang in there for the next few days until they kick in (and warn the family to be careful til then!!!)

hugs, Ruth

Thanks again for the support.  I find myself falling back on you guys a lot this week! 

I am back on my meds, and they should kick in within the next couple of days.  I am trying to keep myself from getting too stressed out (if that is possible****il that happens.

I weighed myself this morning and I was up to 140 lbs!!!  I know I should not weigh daily, but it kills me.  I was good and just told myself to keep with the program.

It is amazing how much our weight ( and fear of gaining it back) affects our lives.

Anyhoo...Thanks for being there.

As a Bi-polar adult, I can honestly say that the few  times I have gone of my meds (usually because of finances) I have wound up in the hospital every time. Please take your meds. Vitamins and supplements are not a replacement for anxiety/stress or phyc. meds.