Feeling hopelessly out of control

Hi, I just joined this group.  I had RNY in January of 2005.  I started at 406 and got down to 285.  I stayed there for a couple years and then have gained back up to 330.   I know I really need to get back on track, but I'm having a hard time getting my head in the right place.   I joined Weigh****chers with a friend, but can't really get myself to do what I need to do.   My knees hurt me to the point that I can barely walk sometimes, so it's very important that I lose this weight.  I just can't understand what's wrong with me that I can't seem to make the changes I know I need to make.
Thanks,
Mary Ann

Mary Ann,

I believe we are both in the right place. We both have a tool that can give us the drive to move forward. I am like you, I got down to a size 10 stayed there for a short time, and then I slowly started packing on the pounds.

I used to tell myself that a little of this and a little of that won't hurt me. Then it went from one ounce of chips to a whole family size bag.

Triggers are big. They are the poison to our minds. What is it we need to do? We need to get down to business. When I think of what I did when I had my surgery, the pain, the criticism, the humilation of being over weight, just to get to the point where I felt normal was a phenominal process.

Then later, the compliments started about how good I looked, the WOW moments and so on, I want those again, but not because anyone else will give me the WOW feeling. I want it for myself. I want my size 10. I am now in a size 20/22 and I have had enough.

I am the same as you, I hurt, the weight went away, but the arthritic knees and ankles are still there. They are the driving force behind this.

You can do this. You can get back to basics: Protien and water. Wake up and tell yourself it is a new day, today is the day for change and when you do you will be glad you did. We are in the right place. You and I had surgery the same year, you Jan me April.

We can encourage and support eachother.

I pulled my old profile from here about 2 years ago from shame. I decided to come back and get what I need from hundreds of thousands of people just like me and you.

We can do it.

Rae

Thanks Rae,  It's good to know I have a friend out there.  Let's keep each other posted on our progress (hopefully it will be progress .
Mary Ann

Hey you always have a friend here.

There is no hopefully, we can do this and there are only CANs in Cant's

Stay focused,

Stay Positive

Stay Motivate

Stay true to yourself

Rae

Hi!
 Just wantd to pop in and say Welcome to Bott!  You can get back on track.  Follow the basics and sign in to Cafe and Cardio daily.  Have a great BOTT day!
Deb

Welcome! You definitely are not alone. As others have said just get back to basics. We all would not have resorted to surgery if this struggle had been easy for us. It is just another in our arsenal of tools. Unfortunately they couldn't operate on our brain and flip the switch to "motivated" 24/7. Keep coming back to the board. How neat that your surgeries are close together... you be buddies:) Lucy