Tool Vs. Magic - I FINALLY get it!

Like I say, Better Late the Never.  I never thought of what the surgery meant besides losing weight.

I now understand that I am to use it to comfortably restrict my calories.  DUH!!!!

The tool works when used properly and magic doesn't really exist.  Even things that seem to work like magic have a scientific reason behind them.  

Not used properly, the tool is useless and my actually cause more harm then good.  Mostly in the form of deficencies and self esteem.

I have made it 3 days!  All of them under 2,000 calories.  Between 1,500 and 1,900.  That is a record for me.  I have NEVER done anything hard for 3 days in a row,  Most of the time not even one day.  I HATE to suffer.  It always made me feel hopeless.

I have figured out that head hunger for me is just an escape from doing things I don't want to do.  It led to terrible grazing and I shudder to think what my calorie count was and what would happen if I hadn't realized the error of my ways.

Now if I just say to myself that I am not hungry, it truly goes away.  I've mostly been doing the protein first and having snacks even if I am not hungry.  I feel a little weak and weary, but maybe that's just me adjusting to very little sugar.  I don't have much of an appetite anymore and am happy with my little meals.  

I have adjusted very well to my small portions over the last 2 years, so I know I can make this second nature also.  I feel a little sad about missing out on all the desserts of the world, but I don't even feel like eating them now.  But most of all, I feel scared of failure.  If I fail at this, what is left?  I can't be fat again.  I just can't.

Thanks for listening,
Amy

Congrats on your new discovery!! 

It's funny, a few months ago I made a similar discovery...  If you exercise, eat protein and stay away from carbs, it is possible to lose weight!!  Why does it take so long for us to figure this out?

Keep up the good work!
Deb

 I guess we believe in magic 

Thank you for trusting us enough to share your journey with us.   You've made spectacular progress!!!   There's no doubt in my mind that you will make it - not perfectly every day because you are human - but that the day after a deviation you will get get right back on track.  A fact of life is that some days are simply easier than others.

I'm so very proud of you  

You may be missing out on some of the desserts of the world, but you are also missing out on all of the emotional and physical agony of the world.   Kind of a "no brainer" when you think about it isn't it? 

Have a wonderful week and come here often. 

Hello Amy:

I am new to the back on track board. I recently decided to get back on track and do the right thing. I started over 4 days ago. It is not easy to go back to the way it was before.

I am glad you are challenging yourself. I need all the support I can get from others.

I am here for you when you need me.

Congratulations

Rae