what the hell is the matter with me??

My medical insurance finally kicked back in. i went for my first blood test I've had since my Hernia surgery(which was on my 1 year anniversary of my WLS).


My blood test came back clean! Everything 100% on track. How can that be!?! I know i should be happy with a clear blood test, but I'm not. There is something wrong with me. I can tell. i have been working my ass off since Feb....Gym, religiously 4 times  week, eating right, getting my protein, taking 50-friggin-thousand vitamins and anti-oxidants....I have't lost an ounce. On top of that im exhuasted ALL the time. From the moment I wake up to the minute i go to sleep. I'm also starving all the time. I'm constantly hungry which is ridiculous. I'm hungrier then I can possibly fit inside me. And I dont want to fit inside me. I push myself to and I can run an hour and a half to two hours of cardio 4 times a week, but the minute I pick up a weight...even 3 lbs... I'm in so much pain I miss work sometimes! Meanwhile, my emotions are crazy! I cried three times during OPRAH last night....ok giving that it was a weight-loss episode with Kirstie Alley and an story about a 1000lb housebond man (which was always my biggest fear)...but then I also cried during a ctitbank commerical about an hour later. That happens all the time. That's not normal! How can my blood test be clear. How can I be putting in all this work, and feel like **** all the time. It doesnt make sense!

Everyone in my life thinks im depressed "maybe your depressed lauren"..."you seem down all the time"..."lexapro..." yadda yadda.

Im not depressed! I'm exhausted and irritable!  I'm not prone to depression. Granted im not thrilled with my current state but i dont think im depressed.  How can you even tell? I go through like 8 emotions in the span of 20 mintues. I feel like I have constant PMS. My poor bf...he probably thinks im crazy.

I've felt fat my whole life, but I've never felt like this until recently.....I feel alone, and a failure and i have no clue what to....

Gosh what a roller coaster you're on! I can see why you're feeling like you do, a little out of control. That'd make anyone weary. You're the only one who can know if you're depressed. Its not necessarily sad all the time either, I looked it up not long ago. You can easily just wiki depression and it describes the symptoms to you. I'm sorry you're having such a hard time! Feel free to vent on here any time you need to. I don't know if its possible....or if its even a good question but...  could you be pregnant? That would account for fatigue, mood swings and the weight not moving.

nah, I wish that could be an option, I just had my period last week. Thank you tho. I just havent felt like myself for months

research "sub-clinical hypothyroid."  The symptoms you describe remind me of me -- just a few years back...
good luck.

http://www.womentowomen.com/hypothyroidism/hormonalimbalance .aspx

It may also be menopausal...(sorry to even mention that word!!) or some kind of hormonal.  Have you had your levels checked lately?  My doc kept saying I was depressed, but I knew I was 'fed up' with the symptoms, not depression causing the symptoms if that makes sense.  Keep pushing for answers.  Trust your own instincts and don't let 'them' tell you otherwise.

Please don't feel alone - there are plenty of people here, although we are in cyberspace, and not next door or in the phsyical neighbourhood.

Please let us know how you are doing, and you are not a failure just because the medical world can not find an answer - yet.

hugs, Ruth

I immediately thought Thyroid too.  Have they checked those levels?

Yeah I got a hold of my results this weekend. My TSH (the thyroid tests)  was fine. My sodium was a little high and my B-12's were in the low area but both still in normal range (374). Protein, calcium, cholestrol. not only good, but great! I'm 24, so I hope to GOD im not menopausal yet =P...but this is frustrating. i'm gonna ask to have my hormones checked next at my follow up.