Wondering!!

2 weeks ago I got to withinh 5 pounds of my goal.....I don't think I have ever been that close to a goal before.  My problem is that after I reached that point I startd to sabotage myself, eating things I know I shouldn't, not getting in all my protein and stacking on junk.  My pouch still works very well because I can not over eat but I can graze on the wrong stuff.  I'm beginning to think I'm afraid to reach my goal.  I have spent most of my life using my weight as a crutch and that will no longer be there......also I'm afraid of reaching my goal and then failing as I have so many times before.  Has anyone else faced this problem when they got close to their goal?  Don't get me wrong, I love the way I feel and look right now (I will feel better after a TT) and I never want to go back to my old self and I will work very hard to keep the weight off, but there is that fear down deep I can't shake...... 

Susan

What a wise woman you are   You/ve hit the nail on the head.  My guess is you're a bit of a perfectionist.  If you don't finish - you can't truly fail. 

Laughingly, go ahead a reach your goal, if it proves too painful you will always remember how to gain LOL

Seriously, you might want to consider a few therapy session (bear in mind this suggestion is coming from a psychologist) to deal with the issues when you no longer have your "crutch"

I wish you well.

Hi Susan
I totally understand how you feel.  I feel like once I reach goal...then what?  I am about 6 lbs lower than my lowest after my RN Y in May 2005.  I went and bought myself a "target" outfit.  Cute denim capri pants and a pretty pale yellow cotton blouse.  Having that in my closet helps me to remember my goal.  I have suffered from so many addictions from food, to alcohol to smoking that i worry what will be next.  But I made a commitment to myself that my 40's would be better than any other age and that really helps me stay on track.  Unfortunetly our weigh issues are rarely just food and we need to look deep and figure out what the real problem is.  The 12 steps of AA have helped me and now I am able to apply them to all aspects of my life.  If you have never read them I suggest you take a look and see how your life may fit in.  Wow that was alot for me to share!!!  Good luck and keep on posting...it is the best medicine as far as I am concerned!!

Wow did a light bulb go off in my head when I read this!!!!!!!  I got within 3 lbs of my goal and just stopped working out and eating healthy.  I have not been able to figure this out!  Of course I was sabotaging myself!!!  OMG, at least now I can do something about it.  I keep putting off going to a NUT or a therapist but this just might be what pushes me over the edge!  Thanks again, Robin

Here is a thought in a totally different direction 

It's interesting we let a number on the scale trigger us throwing out everything we know works and head down that familar road of sabotage....

What would happen if you decide 3 pounds from your goal number is ok?  Would you start eating all the wrong foods and stop working out?  Playing mind games with our selves  ???

Maybe stopping short of that number can be our new goal?

Take care,
Kathy