I'm back

Hello everyone. I'm sorry its been along time.My positive goals.Are leading me into depression.Since my daughter went into surgery Feb 3 2009.I've traded my goals into failures.first she went into surgery.I was left with what should I eat.So I went to the cafeteria.and got me a cheese burger.a piece of chocolate cake and pudding,I drooped the pudding.I was so embarrassed. I told the attendant.I was wondering what she thought of me. So I went to my car,and started to eat. The cheese burger was nasty.And I felt guilty when I ate the chocolate cake. Then I went to the motel room. I ordered pizza,I ate 5 pieces,and a coke. We went home.my daughter could only eat pudding or yogurt.The next day i ate ice cream.and so on and so on.I feel I'm out of control again.the diet plan that I would die for.I have no real news of what the doctors will say about my revision.But It don't look promising. I see my daughter losing weight every day. and I know I'm gaining weight or weight in our personal weight in is Thursday. and I'm afraid to get on the scale. I use to love counting my daily intake of calories. Maybe because she had her surgery.and I can't.or won't. I pray something will give.or I might be back to square one.Thanks to all of you I can write down my feelings. Have a wonderful night and a blessed day tomorrow.luv Edna

Hi Edna,

I have more questions than answers these days but please do not give up. Take one day at a time. You can do this, WE know you can.

Hi Edna,
Don' t give up...take one day at a time.  I am an emotional eater also and I came to this site for help and support.  What you did yesterday is the past and its done and gone you can't take it back; pick yourself up, regroup and start all over again.  Plan your meals, write it down and try to stay away from things that make you go weak in the knees.  You know the trigger foods that just seem to draw you in.  You can do this...no we can do this!

Genie

Edna,
I hope that your daughter is feeling better.  Now that she is home you can relax.  The next time that you feel like eating remember what that cheeseburger and pizza tasted like, BLAHHHH.  It was nasty and not worth it  . Take one day at a time.  You can do it!
Deb 

Edna~

Good morning, it is a new day and we can only hold ourselves accountable for now...  when you feel like eating something that you know you shouldn't think of what it felt like when you did, it was not worth it in the end...  We are all human, and all take a slight detour from time to time, that is why we are all here...

If you need to get online to 'vent' you know where to come.  I find if my hands are busy then I can not eat anything.... I am also a big time gum chewer and ice eater / liquid drinker, when I get 'hungry' the first thing I go for is something to drink, water or tea...  You can try that see if it works for you!

Wishing you all the BOTTing Best!!!!
Denise