A WEEK FROM THE PITT'S OF HELL

I'm baaaaack!
God, what a week! 
About a month or so ago I went in to see a Dr. that I had seen a few times 3 years ago before we left here...but I felt pretty comfortable with him.  I was getting re-established at the clinic and was just going to use this Dr. for my non-female stuff...you know...just the sinus and allergy stuff that I go round and round with and to get refills on my anti-depressants.  There is a female Dr. there that I use for the woman stuff.  Well...I mentioned to him that I was having some anxious feelings probably from the move and he proceeds to change the anti-depressant meds I have been on for years.  In the past when the anxiety kicks in my other Dr. would just up the dose for a little bit and then I would take it on back down once the anxiety passed.  Well, I think...ok...there's alot of new stuff out there and this might be the time to try it.  Well, turns out this new med makes me really anxious so I call and he puts me on another one.  This one sends me straight into hell.  I start feeling really antsy, anxious, frustrated/angry.  I'm kicking things, throwing things, crying...feeling totally crazy...and totally freaked out!  You have to understand...we have some serious mental illness in our family and I didn't realize until the last few days just how afraid I have been that I would have it too. Well, I finally figured out what I thought might be wrong so I went down to the emergency room last nite and sure enough I was having a major adverse reaction to the new med.  The ER dr. took me off right away...put me on one of those kick butt anti-anxiety drugs and told me to call my dr. first thing Monday morning.  Needless to say...I am watching the clock!!!  
Needless to say my bad eating habits just hopped right back in place so I will be starting again as soon as I get my head screwed back on straight.  
    Any insights would sure be appreciated here cause I feel like a damned fool!
Thanks...Linda  

Hi,

I am so sorry you are going through all this.  I tis a crazy ride when on anti-depressants.  I have depression issues but refuse to get on meds.  I try many other ways to cope and it works for me.  Don't beat yourself up.  It's not your fault the doctor gave you crap!  Doctors love to give meds, their "cure all".  It may be a little rough until you find something you can tolerate and your body getting rid of the bad stuff.  Hang in there and try to understand that it's the meds that are making you this way NOT because of anything you have done.

Hi Linda,
Wow, I know the feeling!  About 3 years ago, I went thought the exact same thing.  My doc used to just up my meds until one day I lost it.   I was at an unbelievable amount of pills, 20 Kolonopin a day, 3 different types of anti-depression meds and 2 ambien at night.  I was in- patient for 2 weeks and out-patient for 3 months trying to detox off the meds.  Get yourself a GOOD psychiatrist and document what happens when you take your pills.  Hang in there! 
Good luck,
Deb

Linda, I know what your going thru... I went thru something similiar a little bit ago and my dr thought lets try something new.. for me the new stuff just wiped me out.. I just wanted to sleep and that was not good since I had to go to work.  After 2 or 3 tries we went back to my original med and upped the dosage.. I take paxil and it works very well for me.    One other thing that is in the back of my mind is some meds you have to clear out of your system before you take another similiar type of med.  Maybe you had to much in your system.  I'm to a dr. its just a thought.   I hope he puts you back on your original med and just ups the dosage.  The old adage .. if its not broke don't fix it comes to mind...   Good luck.. Maria

Thanks guys...I'm glad I'm not the only one in this boat.  I have tried going natural to treat my depression...several times...I wish to goodness it worked for me...but it just hasn't.  I was on one medication to treat it and was doing fine except for occasional bouts of anxiety...and in this crazy world we are living in now that's really not hard to understand!!!  LOL.  Then I let that Dr. get away with switching me.  That's why I feel like an idiot...I knew better but I thought what the hay...he's the Dr. right?  NEVER AGAIN!!!  First of all I am not going to see him again and second of all when I go in for my yearly physical next week I am going to talk turkey with this new Dr.  I am going to make sure she understands that I know my own body and I know what works for me. And your right Maria...If it ain't broke leave it to heck alone!!!
Anyway...I think I am better today...so far...so I am just going to focus on taking care of myself and getting back on track!!!

Know you are not and were not a fool!!!!!  You were right that there a new meds out there and you had no way of knowing they would prove to be very negative for you.  Now you know!

You also know how to take care of yourself too and that's so important - and you're right, getting back on track is one of the ways. 

Wish you a calm BOTT day