Need to vent.....

Hi Everyone~

It has been such a funky couple of days for me...so I came to my "safe place" to vent my weight frustrations.....

I stayed on track all week....good food plan, not too many carbs, kept out the bad things, journeled, checked on my emotions if I wasn't sure I was hungry,drank 96 ozs of water 6 of 7 days and was in the gym every day.  Got on the scale...up 1 pound!!!  Are ya kiddin' me, or what??!!  I tried to figure out why the scale could be up (PMS, extra salt, the extra crystal light I was drinking)  I reviewed my journal and didn't see anything out of the ordinary there either.

That started a bad Friday....I stayed on track all day bu there was this thought at the back of my mind about a powdered jelly doughnut.  I haven't had one in 3.5 years. 

Today, I knowingly went to the doughnut store to buy one and and eat it.  They didn't have one so I got a sugared one.  Can't sugar coat this (no pun intended) it is the plain truth.  I ate half, knowing it was going to make me dump and it did, true to form.  I guess the good thing is that it didn't taste as good as I thought it would and it didn't fix what is wrong with my weight issue either.

I went back to what I know, (my tried and true food plan) and I started talking to people today about that food plan.  It turns out that it might be too high in protein (who knew there was such a thing for WLSers) and not enough other things.  Will be making some adjustments to that.

I played the good tapes in my head about getting back on the horse, it was only 1/2 a doughnut, there is always the next meal etc....But I also played the bad tapes why did you do this, you knew it was going to make you sick, you always do this, why do you do this...blah blah blah.

I think the pity party is over now.  Thanks for letting me vent.  As they said in Gone with the Wind..."tomorrow is another day".  let's hope its better and I can figure out what the heck is going on.

Good night....see everyone tomorrow.

Anjanette

A vent is a vent and I am glad you had a place to write it down.  They say that once you are able to write it down it takes the power away from it!  I find that quite true. Wishing you a great day tomarrow!

You can't change what's done. But I think it's very therapeutic that you actually vented on this board.
Tomorrow is a new day...don't give today a second thought.

PLAN IT...LOG IT...STICK TO IT !!!

Hi,

I need to vent a little too.  A trigger engaged by reading your post.  THIS IS A ME THING.  Please keep that in mind ok?

MY OPINION, I don't think eating a donut is something to brow beat yourself up about!  I think eating something snacky once and awhile is healthy.  "Normal" people eat an occasional snack once and awhile too. 

Don't beat yourself up because you slip up.  Enjoy your donut and move on.  Just my opinion.  Take it for what it's worth.

Wow, I need to do some more "head" work on myself I guess.

Thanks so much for trusting us as a safe place to vent.  I sure is!

First of all, you are on the right track.  Good for you

I suggest you continue with your Gone With The Wind strategy - when you begin to play the bad tapes just tell yourself (as Scarlet did)  "Fiddle de dee, I'll think about that tomorrow." and i believe you will find that you have no need/desire to think about it tomorrow at all because you'll be well on your way to a great BOTT day.

Keep up your healthy ways.  I'm so proud of you   WE CAN DO THIS TOGETHER, YES WE CAN - in truth WE ARE DOING THIS TOGETHER, YES WE ARE

Hi Anjanette,

To add to what others have shared with you - ditto here too. 

Also, rewind the tapes to another time when you would have eaten more than one donut and you ONLY ate 1/2.  I think that is something to celebrate...truly.  You didn't even eat the entire thing.  I did the same thing about a week ago.  Sure, like you, I had the regret and why did I do that thoughts.  Then I reflected back on how different it was than before.  I would have eaten more and probably worse junk choices.

Also, I think it was Shoutforjoy that mentioned what "normal eating" people do.  I agree with that even for us as wls patients.  The road to back on track isn't always a straight shot of always staying on track.  Sometimes you can enjoy a treat.  Like I've said before, to me the important day or meal is the one after the treat.  That is what makes you on track.  If you keep the treats coming, that can turn into a problem.  If you get right back on track, that's BOTTing success.

You and anyone can vent away here.  I sure did last week when I had my little speed bump on my own BOTT track.  It definitely made me feel better to vent and share here.

Have a great day today!

Cathy

thank you all so much for your kind words!  It certainly made me feel better to let it out to a group of people who completely understand!!

Today IS a better day.....started with a plan, reminded myself that I am tired today (been working a lot and tired is a trigger for me to eat) so I need to keep that in mind when I want to put something in my "pie hole"!! 

Have a great day, all!!

Anjanette

So glad today's better - isn't support a remarkable healer?!

I celebrate with you

I am so glad  you feel safe to come here and say hey guys I am pissed and here's what I did

As everyone said the donut is ON THE WAY OUT    So don't beat yourself up...What stood out to me BIG TIME, was you were feeling great about your choices and doing all the right things and then you decided to turn to the scale as your measure of success.  That was the beginning of a WHAT THE HELL moment  

If you can, stay off the scale    I am only weighing once a month. Use how you feel, (the number on the scale is not the only way to measure success, and can lead to scale hell) and go by your measurements, clothes getting loose and the high you are getting with all the wonderful choices and changes you have made

Check one thing for me, make sure you are getting in "all" your protein with your food dairy, that can effect your weight loss.  And you may have some slowing in the loss showing on the scale as you put on muscle mass, but the more muscle mass you add with working out the more calories you will burn long turn.  Muscles mean lean, mean, fat burning machine 

Hugs 
Kathy

thank you for your support, Kathy.  I will check through my journal to be sure it is the right kind of protein also.

I am vowing to stay off the scale for a bit, too.  Just until I settle into a regular exercise routine.

Have a great Sunday!!