crash - what a bad middle of my day

to try and make a long story short, the company I work for sold my division so as of march 1st I will be working for the new company..   (i will actually get to retire w/30 years of service from old company at age of 48 but that won't be official until september.. when it would be  my service anniversary)   all of this is good and i'm ready for the new adventure  ... this year will also be my 30th high school reunion...

So I got some paperwork in an email today from HR.. I was confused by some of it so I called the 800 # listed in the one part .. they had no idea, called the 800# in another part, sorry wrong number.. i called another 800#..yes after the 3rd or 4th I was not very nice to the person at the other end (which I do feel bad for) but why are you given phone numbers to reach people who don't know and are not willing to take your number and find out the answer...  I was lucky that before I called another number, my friend called me to meet me at the garage to drop my car off for service.. He was my divine intervention.  My hands were shaking and I ended up going to the cafe and getting a dessert.. I got hot apple crips and peach cobbler that I scooped into a takeout cup.. it probably measured 16 oz... I went to my desk and gobbled down about 1/2 and then came to my senses and thru the remainder in the trash.. I was so so soooooo mad at getting that worked up. 

I know that it was the reality of the moment.. I am truely excited about this change but it is also a big change to me.. I've worked for the same company for almost 30 years... that is amost 2/3 of my life..    I know breathe in breathe out.     

My stomach is not feeling the best so I'm going to hang out for a bit but I hope by 8:00 to get on the treadmill for 30 minutes.  at least..

I was like a wild woman (well that is a bit of an exaggeration) but I felt so out of control.. tears were just on the edge of falling.   I'm completey turned around now and ok.. oh and they sent out an update to the original paperwork that corrected what was wrong...

Thanks for letting me unload and for letting me be honest

You can unload, vent and be completely honest here with us.  That's one of the many things that makes this group so special.

I don't know if you read one of my daily accountability posts a couple of days ago but I also got into alien food.  I call it alien food because once you're used to eating healthy and being on track, any of the sugar, fat, junky stuff sits in your pouch feeling just like you describe you're stomach is feeling right now. 

Of course this was an upsetting transition.  Like you said, you've been with them 2/3 of your life.  That is a long time.  You are just changing company names but still have your job which is great.  However, that stress and then getting bounced around to all sorts of numbers just compounded that stress. 

When I indulged in alien food, I felt bummed but I also recognized the difference in now.  You threw out 1/2 of it.  That is a big success.  When I ate alien food....yes, I did it but I ate very little compared to the free for all I have done previously at times. 

This will be an experience you can remember for the next time a stressor comes up. 

Congratulations on your success!!

Cathy

Cathy, thanks.. I felt so over the wall yesterday but I did regroup and get some control back.  I love the term alien food.. I have to remember and use it..   You are so right, when we have times with the alien food we do tend to eat less than we would have in the past.   

I can't believe I'm going to write this.. I can remember (more than once) going to a pizza shop and wanting it not to look like i was eating alone so i'd order a pizza and a sub or two subs and before the day was over i'd have eaten it all.    I wasn't sure what was worse, worried of people thinking I was eating alone or eating for 2..  

Thanks again .. Maria

Sounds to me as though you had a mega attack of being "human"  But WOW to get back to a good place in your head so quickly is mega awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  And look - you didn't even eat all of it - now tell me, in your other life would it even have occurred to you to thow it out?  I DON'T THINK SO (unless you are a whale of a lot different than I was - figure out how to sneak another cupful without anyone know - but NEVER to throw it out! LOL)  And you had a refresher course in how miserable we are physically and emotionally when we eat alien food.  You used it as a motivator!1  I'm proud of you!!

Thanks for trusting us enough to share your day.  All I can say is the new company is going to be mightly lucky to have you!


If you're comfortable, keep us posted on the transition - and for sure, we are here for venting, celebrating, and all things inbetween.

You said it .. it was a huge attack of being human... ha     I still sometimes have issues with the throwing it out .. then it ends up in the fridge only to get thrown out days later because it has mold or something..   you know there are starving children somewhere in the world ... we can't throw anything out.  

Thanks for the kind words.. they help make us all stronger : )  Maria

Molding in the fridge is OK - entering the tummy is not OK 

WE CAN DO THIS TOGETHER, YES WE CAN!