Welcome to Back On Track Together

Hello everyone.  I'm new here.  I am 14 months out and have lost 95 pounds since surgery.  I've had around half a dozen departures from plan due to crazy hormones/cravings and emotional eating.  This looked like a good group to come to for information and support. I might fall down, but I get up again and I'm not giving up hope of making goal.  My original goal was 160, but I revised it down to 140 because of the BMI charts.  I still have a way to go and I know this is a life long process, but it's depressing sometimes to lose slowly and watch all the newbies pass right by me.  Our program does not call for counting calories, but I have started keeping track of them several months ago.  I always get all my protein and fluids in, but I struggle with exercise sometimes because of fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue. 

Thanks 4 accepting me to your group, I need to get back on track.

thank you for accepting my request.

I had RNY july 2006. I started at 303 and my lowest was 168. THat is how much i weighed in my avatar picture.
the last time I weighed last year i was at 188. I am sure it is more than that now. I have not been back to my dr this year because I am ashamed and I do not want to know how much I weigh.

I really would like to get back down to around 170. i am disgusted, discouraged and depressed. I cannot believe this has happened so easily. Any suggestions and encouragment is appreciated. My family thinks that I am fine in comparision to how I started but I am not fine. I am afraid I will be obese again.

Only you all can truly understand my pain and fear.

God bless you all.

Marie

Well you have a chance now to stop it before you gain another pound.  Recommit to your goals and WLS program.  Keep up the good work.  2 things I suggest for you and this will help you tremendously, is weigh yourself at least once a week.  the scale is not your enemy Marie.  If you don't have one at home purchase it.  Secondly, think positive and you will have positive results.  You can do it and so can I.  Keep the faith.  I am going to see my surgeon today and I have gained over 80 pounds.  Go check in with your surgeon.  Please don't wait until you have gained a lot of weight.   You are a success!

Marie - Remember your dr is there to serve you, you are not there to serve your dr.  Now is the time you need help the most.  Please don't run and hide    Read and heed the guidelines Cathy has posted at th top of our discussion page,  Post daily on the Cardio & Cafe thread for planning and accountability.

remember it is a choice - you can choose to do whatever's necessary for you to get back/stay on track and be think or you can choose to go not do what's necessary and go back to being obses.

you have no reason to be ashamed.  You are not "bad" you are human.  Humans aren't perfect, humans make mistakes, humans can correct their mistakes, humans can learn from their mistakes.

you have come to the right place.  We have all been where you are or we wouldn't be here.  You will find this group to be caring, understanding, accepting, supportive and positive if you will only allow us to be a part of your journey.

((()))))Marie

UCan do this !! big hug

thank you. you dont know how much i need that right now in my life. i am on the edge of a total hibernation period. i just want to stay in the bed and order pizza and breadsticks and wings and eat until its all better. but that is why i am in the mood i am in now because i have been eating whatever i thought would taste good.
i gained 11 pounds since august and i can see it and feel it.

i am trying to get back on track.

thanks again for the hug. when my phone showed a message from obesity help it totally shocked me because i havent been here in months. God knows when we need encouragement. bless you.

 Pizza is really not the answer  LOL .  But U know  if U really crave it  I can even teach U to make fat free  homemade pizza with  the yummiest crust ... using fat free  mozzarell homemade tomato sauce , vegan sausage  and  veggies  ...

its delicious ! 

(((((()))))) Ure going to be Ok ... its  baby steps every day  but whenU  succeed in lifting Ur  mood and  feeling optimistic (  and  even a small change like a walk can DO it  ) Ur tool WILL kick in and  Ull get the body U love  back fast  ;)   

11 lbs is  not that much !   hope U feel better tonight or at  least as fast as possible  

thanks again. i am going to start checking this every morning for inspiration. I will work on those 11 pounds and then try to conquer the next 17.
i will pass on that pizza until i get myself under control. LOL

I am so lost and ashamed of myself.  I couldn't even bring myself to put my real name on here.  I started stalking this website, without signing up, back in late 2000 after my mothers death from Colon Cancer.  I have RNY done in August of 2001.  After September 11th, my surgeon mysteriously left the practice (he was of middle eastern decent and we were in Louisiana!  I personally have no issues......just saying so I don't get slammed lol) The practice said that he went to Boston and it had nothing to do with 9/11.  But it was kind of shady the way it all happened!  PLUS he was fairly new at doing the procedure.  Hey what can I say, we do anything in times of desperation.  I weighed 280 at 5'3 when I had surgery, but I did NOT recieve proper follow up care and allowed myself to fail.  I lost 80lbs, but quickly learned I could eat sugar, fried foods and carbs.  I also learned about how alchohol affected my new plumbing.  By the following spring, I had lost 80lbs and was lighter than I had EVER been and felt damn good.  I also went through a horrible separation and loss of a best friend (now married to the ex......get it?!) in the summer of 02.  (Not to mention she had the surgery two years ago and is doing fine!) 

So basically I didn't follow the rules, had a kid and gained back up to 30lbs of that weight.  I am now pushing 230 and am so disgusted with myself.  Why would I go through all of this just to fail?  Like right now as I type this I AM STARVING.......hunger  pains, but I ate a lean cuisine for lunch.  I am so lazy and can never find it in me to get off my bum and exercise.  My boyfriend told me not to buy that eliptical two years ago that sits in the basement. 

I am here because I need help and support from people who understand and hopefully can lead me in the right direction.  I really honestly NEED to be retrained, as stupid as that sounds.  I do NOT want to die at the age of 54 like my mother.  I was only 24 and have needed her so much.

I've been popping in rarely, but decided to make a commitment today.  So what the heck do I eat tomorrow to be BOTT???

Lostk (who one day will be ok with herself and appear before your eyes!)