Warning Whine Ahead

I know people talk about having big pouch days and small pouch days but it seems that lately I am hardly able to each much at all.  I/

'??????????????????????????????????21503.have always been one of those "Your eyes are bigger then your stomach." people but now it seems to literally be true.  In the past I have been grateful for the restriction I have because I have always known that in addition to be addicted to refined carbs I am also addicted to large portions.  Too much has never been enough.  I was a charter member of the clean plate club.  I just could not stand leaving any food behind.  I had a large capacity, too, even though I supposedly had a sleeve that was supposed to reduce my stomach by 50%.  I could still pack the food away.  Honestly never felt any restriction or difference in the amount I could eat.

So being full and able to eat smaller amounts was a positive experience for me, especially since I figured that it wouldn't last forever.  I know that your capacity is supposed to grow as you get further out but it seems that I am still unable to eat much at all.  Lately it has been very frustrating to me.  And it seems to have gotten worse.  The other day I went to my favorite restaurant, a BBQ place I have been going to for over 30 years.  I always get the same thing, the chicken dinner, which is 1/2 a chicken with 2 sides.  I know I will be taking a lot home so I count on having another meal out of it but this time I could barely finish the drumstick.  I had a few bites of the baked potato and I was done, as in I couldn't take another bite if my life depended on it.  I usually was able to eat one piece and a few bites of a second piece but not this time.

For dinner I usually have 2 scrambled eggs with cheese and 1/2 a gluten free bagel with Greek cream cheese.  My dogs sit by my side because they know I will be sharing with them but lately I can hardly eat the eggs and maybe a bite of the bagel.  The dogs are happy but I feel sick, I am so full.  The same thing happened last night when I tried to eat a sugar free pudding cup.  I couldn't fini****  At work today I brought the leftover chicken and another gluten free bagel but again could barely eat a few bites of the chicken and hardly any of the bagel.  It wasn't a question of eating more later, I was so full I felt stuffed for hours and when I finally made dinner it was the same thing.  I don't really know if I am eating less or I am just more aware of it.  

I think it is finally hitting me that my body is permanently changed.  I know that is obvious but there was always a part of me that thought that over time I would become more normal and now I am realizing that this may be it.

I never have really felt the big pouch, small pouch thing, or at least not to the extreme that lots of folks seem to.  And like you, I was an excess consumer.  I didn't particularly eat the wrong things, but I ate a lot.  The only way I could manage that before WLS was lots of veggies and fiber.  I still probably eat more than most of you but it is protein and fiber (greens, green beans, broccalli, etc)  I do feel full on much less than I did before but still.......

I know you were happy (well, kind of in a way) with the little weight you had gained and I'm thinking this will change that.  Maybe it is the stress of the holiday? 

We all have our issues but I know yours are disturbing to you and I hope you come to some peace with them.  It's amazing to me that after years, we are still learning about our new bodies and how to eat.

Tazz,

I know I eat less now, and some days I do feel hungrier and probable eat more over the course of the day then at one sitting.

But if this continues and you start losing again, maybe you should get checked out, maybe an ulcer or irritation is making your pouch sensitive to eating.

But what lucky pups you have!

And no worries about whining away, thats what we are here for! Sometimes I feel like I forgot that I had surgery, like I make a plate and surprised when I cant fini**** or having that full feeling for hours, like I did last night after going out to dinner. I just ate too much then was miserable the rest of the evening. It's been over 3.5 years, you think I would learn, but I still have my moments!

Glad to know I am not alone. Thanks Tazz!

I'm not worried about losing any more weight because I am drinking a lot of calories. With the cold weather I am having a lot of hot drinks and I also love coconut oil and coconut cream, both of which are high in calories.  I have been getting compliments lately, people saying how much better I look so that is a good thing.  I just wish I could get more solid food in without feeling stuffed.  I don't mind being satisfied but it's hard to feel satisfied when such a small amount does me in.

Price, is that a sign of an ulcer?  I never knew that.  Since this is relatively new, at least in the frequency, I will keep an eye on it.

I think the ulcer came from Maria.  Are you still on a acid reducer?  When I go off them, I get a burning in my gut, really lower than I would think was stomach but I don't get full feeling.  Not sure that and ulcer are related, just trying to figure out what could be going on.

Tazz,

I am not sure what an ulcer feels like but I would be concerned if the amounts of solid foods you are able to take in keeps declining that something might be wrong. I am glad you are getting in enough calories from your liquids though.

Thanks.  Maybe whining helped because today was pretty much normal for me.  I went to my granddaughter's birthday party and ate most of a gluten free cheese burger and some cheese popcorn without feeling sick.  I don't know what is going on but hopefully I'll be back to they way it had been.  Strange to have several days of hardly being able to eat more then a few bites and then back to being able to eat a relatively normal amount of food.  Funny how the body works.

Price, I'm not on an acid reducer and I haven't had any problems with acid.  If I continue to have problems consistently I will contact my doctor.

I guess you must be having that tight pouch feeling. I know I feel it when I am good about sticking with dense proteins. I definitely can eat more slider foods than eggs or piece of chicken or meat.

glad you are doing well. hope you're granddaughter had a great birthday