I wish I could fix my head! Thank goodness for my tool

Good morning LW's,

Really struggling with life lately and my addiction is rearing its ugly head.

For the past few months there has been alot going on, unruly teenager, husband that cant seem to quit buying and drinking more, flooding, trying to help my parents with their flooding, and work has been overwhelming.

I am finding myself shutting down. I havent been paying my bills, I havent been working out, may make it to yoga once or 2 a week. I dont leave the house unless I absolutely have to. And the worse, finding comfort in food. Thank goodness I cant eat that much. Making poor choices and craving fruit, white carbs or anything not protein.

I have been hovering around 147 to 149 which I hate, I would feel better in the 130's. I am calling today for my 3 year visit. I think I am also going to have to go back for some therapy. I think I may need to start taking something for this depression, unless its my thyroid being out of whack again.

I really worry about depression meds because I really dont want to start something that will cause more gain.

I know I really need to keep up with you guys here. I have not been to a support meeting in a long time. There is one tonight that I am going to go and start getting myself out there.

Plus, I started having hot flashes, so is this hormonal too? Feel like I am losing my marbles!

Maria

Sending ((HUGS)) your way.  You have a lot going on, therapy and support groups sound like a great plan. 

I hope you get answers about your thyroid, hormones and depression.  I was on depression meds prior to RNY, but have been weaned off them.  I have moments and days where all I want to do is eat.  The battle is definetly in the head.  If your craving fruit, I personally see nothing wrong with having some.  Unlike some, I eat fruit daily.  It is healthy to eat produce.   You are NOT losing your marbles. 

AWE Maria...I wish I could give you a real (((HUG)))!!!!!!! 

My DD had an eating disorder and was put on Prozac which helped her lose weight because it calmed her down and helped her quit obsessing over food.  I think it's best right now for you to get help with the depression and that might help with the eating and weight issue.

I have hot flashes when my liquids are low. 

Another BIG one (((((((((HUG)))))))))!!!!!

Maria - we are here for you!!!  You are so important to us.  Please don't resist taking meds that you might need to help you feel better.  There are kinds that might not cause the weight gain.  I took wellbutrin for a while and that actually helped me lose weight.

Please contact back with us here.  I think the support is one of the most important things after WLS.

If you are going through the change, you might really need some meds.  I have several friends who had to go on medicine during this time.  Sometimes I felt like I was losing it and would have to take something for a while just to cope.

Hang in there!!

Linda

Thanks!

It just been a slow decline then all of the sudden I feel like I am flying down hill on a banana peel.

I am always so amazed how at times I feel so healthy and happy, and have my stuff together and then times like now, where I feel everything is falling apart.

My husband just doesnt get it. I am so glad you guys are here. I just helps to vent and to bring my demons out in the light.

I guess this is life. Change is always constant, nothing is static.

Big hugs to all!

I did manage to sort through a mountain of mail and get my bills in order. Now trying to get a plan to get things back on track.

Eating, well feeling kind of awful, so thats not been a problem today. I think I will have a premiere chocolate shake now that I think about it.

~Maria

Maria...sending positive thoughts your way and I am glad you vented.  This does sound like depression so you may want to explore meds if this doesnt lift (as you know, depression can be situational and can lift as stressed end).  Glad you started in on the mail; try to break down the tasks and go from there.   We ARE rooting for you!!!!!

Much love...

Jennifer

Lots of hugs!! It does sound like depression. Wellbutrin or bupropion may be a good choice, since it doesn't cause weight gain. Sorry about your hubby. If you can manage it, exercise is very good for depression. Take care and sending positive thoughts your way.

Life is so hard and we are all trying to better our lives by getting healthy here. I feel your pain and i send you hugs along with all these wonderful people who have helped me so much through this process. Im gathering now that this is al life long process. We have started on a new path but it doesn't end. New trials will come up and we will need each other. Sorry to hear about your husband. Try to see that he may be turning to alcohol the way we turn to food. He is in pain too. Men don't share much my prayers are with you. I know depression is real. I also know that if i am not  spiritually connected when i  experience trials i get depressed. Find time to meditate a few min a day. I'm a latter day saint and I forget too many times, but when i get back to the basics with food and spiritual food it helps tremendously. God Bless you with his tender mercies. Hugs

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