It's official, Im depressed...
It has been a long time since I felt this sheetay. I have been battling depression since I was in middle school and it really sucks.
My new job is not what I thought it was going to be at all and I think I need to go back to psych nursing. My anxiety is so bad that my stomach hurts. It is paralyzing. The night before last I was up crying at 3am. I have no motivation to do anything, not even shower. I dont care that I lost over 60 pounds...all I want to do is sleep.
I am very prone to being overwhelmed by life and working full time night shift is just not helping. I have to work night shift because I dont want to put my kids in daycare and I have to wrok enough to qualify for benefits. I have to carry the insurance as my husbands available insurance sucks really bad and its really expensive.
My psychiatrist has changed my meds so we will se what that does. I saw her this week. Im looking for a new job back in psych part time but enough to get benefits...the hospital that I am at doe not have a psych unit.
I will be getting blood work next month so we wills see how that is.
The good new is I have great support.
My new job is not what I thought it was going to be at all and I think I need to go back to psych nursing. My anxiety is so bad that my stomach hurts. It is paralyzing. The night before last I was up crying at 3am. I have no motivation to do anything, not even shower. I dont care that I lost over 60 pounds...all I want to do is sleep.
I am very prone to being overwhelmed by life and working full time night shift is just not helping. I have to work night shift because I dont want to put my kids in daycare and I have to wrok enough to qualify for benefits. I have to carry the insurance as my husbands available insurance sucks really bad and its really expensive.
My psychiatrist has changed my meds so we will se what that does. I saw her this week. Im looking for a new job back in psych part time but enough to get benefits...the hospital that I am at doe not have a psych unit.
I will be getting blood work next month so we wills see how that is.
The good new is I have great support.
DS with Toon Sonneville 3/19/12
Aw, I'm sorry you are down. Depression is so hard and there is no easy way out. Sounds like you have a good Dr and are on meds so hopefully that will help. Working at night would be so hard for me, I have great appreciation for anyone who can do it. Nursing seems to be pretty fluid so hopefully you will find another position that fits your needs soon, and the new med will be a good one.
In the mean while, you have support here. You have done great and will continue to, I know. surgery is hard even with no history of depression. We are here for you if you need us.
In the mean while, you have support here. You have done great and will continue to, I know. surgery is hard even with no history of depression. We are here for you if you need us.
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Aw Bugirl, I'm sorry to hear that. You seem to be on the right path with what you're doing though. Sending you positive vibes and ((hugs))
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(((HUGS))). Depression can be so debilitating and painful. It just makes everything worse, and working night shift doesn't help anything. I hope the medication changes help to improve your mood. If you can get any walking or other type of exercise into your busy schedule, it would also help your mood. Is it possible for you to cut back a shift per week and still keep your benefits? You are fortunate to have great support.
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