Tired of everything

 Are you sometimes tired of watching your food and weighing yourself and eating the right thing and worrying about having eaten the wrong thing....it's exhausting...it feels like before surgery except I am at my goal weight now...still going up a bit and down a bit and stressing about food and all...it's not like this all the time but I have had a cold this week and feel miserable and that and having a bit of this and that crap and then feeling guilty and bad..it's old behavior and it's really bumming me out...also I can't excercise because of this crappy cold...I even have "fat"days and I'm two pounds over goal but I feel fat all day....it's in my head but that's just the probleml "it's in my head"...
I have been almost two years out from surgery. April is my two year ...Just having a bad spell this week or maybe just today I don't know...when I'm in it I don't remember not feeling this way....
I guess it's that I am feeling out of control this week because of the cold and feel like I am feeling old feelings again....just letting you guys know where I'm at ...looking forward to some feedback my 
dearest lightweights...SEAVIEW

Awwww, Sweetie. (((seaview)))  It is a tough journey sometimes. I hope you see the light at the end of this low period soon. Are you doing ok with all your vitamins too? Sometimes low B12 or D3 can put you in a little slump. I hope you're feeling better soon.

--gina

I know for me I can really obsess about things. When I feel out of control then I really obsess. It helps me to talk to my colleagues who are NOT WLS people as it helps me put things in perspective sometimes. Two times I have talked about feeling out on control with my intake and they helped me see that I was obsessing and not so much in reality. I think we become hyper focused on doing this "right" instead of remembering moderation is okay and it is OKAY to occasionally have some bad days. NOT sure if that helps or not. YOU have done amazing so remember THAT!

~~Jennifer
p.s. the exercise probably really helps with you managing stress...you will feel better soon and be back at it. Blessings...

I absolutely agree.  I sometimes feel the exact same way.  I know I have been up in weight this week, and feel like what the he**.  Why bother to eat right, exercise, etc.  I know mine is related to my knee and the stress from that.  I bet yours is due to your cold and feeling bad.  Give us a week or so and I bet we will both be back on track and feeling better.  Mean while, I hope you haven't had as much chocolate as I have.  And it isn't even making me feel better.

 you guys are great!
Yes I will take an extra D vitamin... I also think I have not been outside at all this week in the sun.
Going to the mountains next week for a week so I will be in the great outdoors with my kids ...that will
be wonderful. I just had a banana muffin today and felt bad about it because it was Costco and gigantic....and really just cake...couldn't eat it all but ate enough to feel bad about mysefl because I ate it at all...the cold is just a drag...lack of excercise also....this too shall pass but I have to reach for fruit instead of these nasty carbs when I want to indulge...It's all or nothing for me unfortunately when I feel down...but no chocolate today...LOL...thanks for the encouragement...SEAVIEW

((HUGS)). I hope you feel better when your cold is gone. Sometimes, when we don't feel well, everything seems worse. The old behavior is just under the surface and I constantly have to be aware and make different choices. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. We all have bad days, but hopefully, not as many as we had previously to WLS.

Sometimes it is exhausting with the exercise, food logging, weighing and measuring my food, and everything else that we do, but the alternative is worse to me. I do those things so that I can maintain my loss. Some days it does seem like a lot of work, but mostly it is habit. Even thin people work at it. I must say, it is easier to manage 2-3 lbs than the 20, 30, 50, or 100 lbs.

Lots of ((HUGS))).

When you're feeling down, remember all your progress and how much better you feel most of the time.

Gail

 Seaview,  I totally get you.  I'll be two years out on friday and I've been on a diet since the first month.  My slow losing insisted that I track  and be accountable for everything.  Someone said it taught me good habits for maintenance.  Grrrrrr, I really wanted to be " normal",  but I'm reminded that thin women watch what they eat and exercise too.

Even at two years, I'm still in the losing phase of my journey.  I think I'm going to call and end to trying to shed more as my body doesn't want to go lower.  I'm the lowest I've been since 1973 and where my body wanted to be, even then.  Now on to maintaining. I will continue to track food, exercise, weigh daily, go to Weigh****chers once a week, go to support groups and walk with my WLS friends to stay in the game.

Is it worth doing all this to keep this body?  You BET!  Do I get tired of it?  Yeah.

I'm so sorry you're under the weather.  Feel better soon!

I am not out as far as you are (just 7 1/2 months), but I, too, feel guilty when I fall back into old habits. I have reached my goal (at Weigh****chers), and am currently on week two of their maintenance. Well, last week was my first week of maintenance, and I easily fell into old habits. It was a great learning experience. I'm back on track now (after I GAINED 1.2#, the first time I have gained since surgery). After I am at lifetime I am going to try and lost another 10-15#. If I don't lose anymore and stay where I am I will be totally thrilled, but the key is to "stay here and not gain".





I realize this whole experience is a life long journey, and to be successful, I need to be honest with myself and track, protein first, and carbs minimal.





(((hugs))) hope you feel better!





Lynn

 thank you all so much.. I am going to take sudafed and hot tea and just rest....bless you all my lightweight buddies...tomorrow is a new day...SEAVIEW

I understand 100%.  I get tired of worrying about it, too.  It's funny because I never cared when I was eating everything in sight and gaining ungodly amounts of weight on an almost daily basis.
I am starting to gain weight, which has been my goal but it still freaks me out.  I hate being so thin but I hate watching the scale go up.  I have gained about 6 lbs from my lowest, about 2 months ago.  It just feels like it's going the wrong way even though I know it isn't.  There is just that fear that if I don't control it tightly it will get out of hand like it did before.
There is also a feeling that I don't want to get attatched to my weight because my history has always been to regain.  Every single time.  I have no confidence that it won't happen again this time, too.  I feel like I am a thin fraud, that I really am just bidding my time until I am morbidly obese again and everyone will know that I really am not a thin person.
I wi**** was all just second nature to me, that I didn't have to give it a thought.  There was a few times in my past where I lost weight, was thin and stayed that way for a while, maybe a year or so.  I don't remember being stressed about it or obsessed with it.  It just was.  Then every time I decided that it wouldn't hurt to have just one...whatever, usually bread.  And before I knew it I was indulging every day, several times a day.  Then the scale was put away and I knew I was gaining rapidly because my clothes were getting tighter and tighter but I felt helpless to stop once I started.  That is my fear, that I will start again and never be able to stop.
Jeez, it would be nice to be normal, wouldn't it?