**Roz and others **

that might remember me.

I am in trouble.  I am 18 pounds over my goal.  I have gained this in the last 7 months.  I rarely come here to the board. But I realized I needed to get back to the beginning.  I think my pouch is still there, I know it is.  I'm doing two things that I know is causing my weight gain.  I am drinking, nearly every night.  And I'm eating lots of bread.  When I logged on I went directly to your Menu and Miles post Roz.  When I saw your WARNING in RED....it was just like God Himself was speaking to me.  I am making a promise to myself.  I will come here every day and be HONEST about what I'm eating and right every thing down.  Maybe only then, will I put a stop to this distructive behavior.  I should seek professional help, I am also on Lexapro since the first of the year and my Dr says it is not the reason for my weight gain.  But I wonder.  I probably should be on HRT instead of the Lexapro but maybe that's for a different thread later.

Anway, thanks Roz for being here, every day for these years.  You must certainly understand or you wouldn't have posted your WARNING!  Thank you for being here.

Mari

Hi Mari,

I remember you!  I'm sorry you're having troubles and that some pounds have come back on.  You can get it back down, but you probably have to make some changes.  Have you considered going to an AA meeting to get support for your drinking?  I used to go to OA and found the support to be terrific and non judgemental.    While I've never been a drinker, I can really relate to loving bread!  Unfortunately it's not something that I can have in my food plan because once I get going on carbs, it's like a huge party in my mouth and I just don't want to stop. 

Just know Mari, that this is a place that you can be honest.  The only thing that we want for each other is success.  You can do this.  Take it one day at a time and be kind to yourself.

Sending hugs your way....

Hi Lee,

You look great!!! 

I have barely considered going to AA, only because I keep thinking I can change my habits which I honestly believe it is.  I quit smoking cold turkey 18 years ago because I was convinced that it was killing me.  Now I'm beginning to conclude that drinking and weight gain is going to kill me too. 

hi mari,

i remember you and am sorry to hear that youre struggling. i think being honest about what is going on is the first step in the right direction. as lee said, maybe AA could be helpful. please be careful mixing alcohol with antidepressants. i know others will chime in with good advice. i wish you the best.

Hi Christina,

thanks, and I do need some sort of support group.  I got so much support and knowledge from OH, I know I need to come here every day. 

Mari

Welcome back, Mari. Let us know how we can help.

--gina

Mara...I wish I could give you a real (((HUG))) right now!!!!!!   You are right I do understand and so do a lot of others!!!    You can fight this and get back on track!!!!  I've never drunk but I know it is another addiction that sometimes surfaces after WLS.  If you can't stop then..I say this with love...please get some help. 

We all gained weight because of foods we couldn't control.  A lot of people have the false belief that because they are still losing during the honeymoon period they can eat carbs and sugars but they don't realize that it is slowing down their losing but worse than that they are continuing the bad habits that they had previously.

I didn't start including carbs until I was at goal for awhile but when they scales kept maintaining within my "happy" range but then all of a sudden I was up a pound and then 2. I just recently updated my weight and fessed up to gaining.  I used to bounce between 112-115 but now I bounce between 116-119.  I'm still within my normal range but the thoughts of going even higher had me freaking out for awhile and I had to decarb fast!!!  

I selfishly start Menus and Miles everyday because it forces me to be accountable.  I recently asked Gina if she felt I should pass it on to someone else because I feel like I don't have as much time to put into it as I used too and because I fear if I say something negative someone will quit posting (everyone thinks differently).  She assured me as is well.

I would love seeing you post everyday!!!  I'll be watching for you!!!!!!

Hi Roz!

I hope my post has you convinced that you post Menu's and Miles every day for when the day comes, someone comes looking and YES, you are still here.  I never dreamed I'd let my weight creap up on me this much.  I too was picture perfect durning my weight loss phase.  After reaching goal I started adding the carbs and pre dinner coctails.  I was adding in the carbs and doing well still, figuring it was the malaborption and the small quantities.  But sunddenly I was able to eat more, and add the wine and martini and I guess it was just to much because 5 pounds turned into 15 +.   I KNOW my pouch is still there.  I also need to try to get back to the protein drinks, but that's hard to do now.   But I'l try. 

regards and thanks,
Mari

I remember you Mari.  Please come back here and post.  I think it really helps all of us to stay on track or get back on track.  In the past I tend to stop making myself accountable when I start slipping so I know I need to post as much as I can on the Menus and Miles and be as truthful - even when it looks bad.

I have let sweets/carbs back into my life and of course can't just have one.  I am really trying to get back out of the habit and get rid of all of it in my house - can't even have the stuff around.

Alcholism runs in my family(grandfathers & brother) and I know that I have the compulsive tendencies so I know I can't touch this.  Please get some professional help.  It is hard to handle this by yourself when you haven't had WLS, but from what I read on some of the other boards, it is extremely tough after WLS.

I look forward to see your post in the future and watching you be successful.  Good luck.

Linda

Thanks Linda,

Tonight I met DH at a local pub that we frequent often, like once a week is what I call often.  It is my habit to get a beverage.  I did cave in and ordered a drink.  I had one.  So why can't I just not have any?  I really think its habit, just a habit to order, a habit to share in a beverage with DH, a habit to lift the pretty glass.  I'm going to give it some more time.  The first two years after WLS I didn't drink.  So what's with the drinking now?  I'll write more about this.

M