Help with the Wishy-washy's?

Is it just me or does having each step that takes you closer to the date make you feel less wishy-washy about the whole thing? Since my first consult with my surgeon where I was able to convince him that the DS was really really the right surgery for me, it seems things have been happening to re-inforce my decision to have this life-altering procedure. My psych evaluation went swimmingly and I will have a glowing recommendation from the psychiatrist attached to her professional evaluation of my test results. I read a few more things about the DS that make me even more sure that I am doing the right thing with this and although I get a little twinge at the thought of going under the knife again I don't have any real fears or nervousnes****ting me bout surviving the procedure or the life after.
Did anyone else have this happen to them the closer they got? Will I revert to being wishy-washy about this as I get closer to the actual date?

i was pretty convinced from the beginning of the actual process.  I had looked into surgery years before but my insurance didn't cover it then.  As soon as I found out I was covered, I started the process.  I was ready and never looked back.  But at 61 when I had surgery, I didn't have a lot of time to spend being wishy-washy.

My surgery is currently scheduled for sometime in December at this point so I don't have a lot of time for wishy-washy-ness either but I definitely don't want to be headed for the OR thinking OMG what am I doing??? lol. Right now I am supremely confident I am doing the right thing.  I feel that I have to stay that way to get through this and also for my mom who is also considering wls and watching my progress like a hawk. I don't want to let either her or myself down at this point by chickening out.

I was so dang scared one year ago, jumping through hoops and also gaining as much knowledge as I possibly could! I lost 15# before surgery, and would just love to LIE and say it was because I tried to. But the truth is, I was a knotted ball of nerves and had diarrhea straight through the whole summer/autumn right up to and including the day of surgery (Tmi I know)!

I have  been a text book example ever since, and have literally hit the pavement running. I am more than 5 pounds BELOW my target weight goal, and not fretting it. I am in a size 4, which astounds me, and my mama is also currently jumping her hoops to hopefully have surgery this fall.

I also don't want to let people down, or myself for that matter. I really want to be a good example of what WLS can do for you.

And also, the day my surgeon's office called me to confirm my insurance accepted to pay for this, I was in traffic, at a light on my way for my pre-op bloodwork, wasn't even aware they submitted! I remember a big "calm" coming over me. Even though the darn urgent bathroom visits continued, I was so ready to be done with that chapter!

Good luck!!!

Yep, some get to a point where they feel confident and determined about their surgery choice. They are powerful feelings and will serve you well.

--gina

Your thoughts sound like mine.  Each day just reinforced my decision.  I tell people I was glad that the whole process from my first inquiries to surgery was 9 months. Having that much time to digest and analyze everything made me very calm about my decision.

Other people I've talked with didn't feel that way and were frustrated with the amount of time it took.  I think I am the type of person that really analyzes, so the duration served me well.

I'm 8 months out, and occassionally I'll have a spasm of "oh my gosh, that was nuts," but then I think about all that I've gained, and I'm at peace again.  You won't go back to being wishy washy--you've done your research, and you know what you're doing.

The truth be told - I'm feeling somewhat wishy-washy.  I always though I was pretty healthy, except for being obese.  Unlike many others on this site, for many years, I didn't let my obesity get in the way of what I wanted to do.  I hiked in the wilderness (you don't see many morbidly obese ladies over 55 out there!!!), I skied, and I am very successful at work.  This last year, I couldn't ski or hike and my health really started to deteriorate (prediabetes, cholesterol heading out of control etc), so I started to look into surgery.

As part of the pre-surgery evaluation, my surgeon has corrected vitamin deficiencies, gotten my sleep apnea diagnosed, and I've worked hard to follow the nutrionists directions on diet and exercise.  The result is that I already feel much better, and pictures of me in January look nothing like pictures of me now.. My personality profile is that I think that I should be able to do this on my own - so of course there are second thoughts about the surgery.

But in the end, I cannot do this on my own.  I was an obese child, lost weight and kept it off for 20 years but after I had 3 kids I kept adding weight, so I became a morbidly obese adult.