This has been some summer Prayers please...

My grandmother had a bad fall last week. She has been in the hospital since. My mom and I are taking turns staying with her. My grandmother is 94. We have always been really close. I am struggling to keep it all together. I am recovering from shoulder surgery myself. Pulling under grandma more than I need to be but I can not stand for her to have to wait on lazy hospital people to get around to it. My fibromyalgia is FLARING!~ She is in alot of pain. She hasn't broke anything but in pain now her breathing is really labored and she is really weak. My mom and I got into it tonight. I still don't know what I said that set her off. I had stayed with her all day yesterday and last night. I was telling the nurse how close Grandma and I were and that I used to spend every summer with her. My mother said NO you didn't  she said well why didn't you just STAY there. I said what are you talking about you are being mean. She said no you are being mean. I told my MIL that it was time to go I was DONE~. Mama didn't even care that she hurt my feelings. My brother hasn't even come to see my grandmother.  My mom said earlier this evening that she had to go to work this week. I told her that was fine I would come and stay. I am doing all I can and feel so unappreciated. I know the nurse thinks I am insane!~ Last night I lost it on the nurse because she said she was going to be right back with Grandmas pain meds and an hour and 45 minutes later she shows up. In the meantime I had called several times for help. Grandma was panicing and very uncomfortable. A little mousey CNA came in scared to touch her. I had basically pulled on Grandma until I couldn't pull on her any more. When the nurse came in last night I gave her a piece of my mind. I told them that I couldn't tug on her I have had shoulder surgery and I have done all I can. I told her I didn't care where she had to write it but everyone needed to be aware of the fact that she needed two people to tend to her to keep her pain as minimal as possible. So between my fit last night and my Mom and I getting into it tonight I am sure she thinks I've lost it. My NERVES are SHOT! I know I am not eating like I need to and definately haven't been getting enough fluids or enough sleep. I just want to SCREAM! The doctors talked about moving Grandma to a nursing facility. This is extremely hard we have always looked after her. She is not going to like the idea one bit. It is terrible to say but I wish the Lord would just show her mercy and take her. She doesn't deserve to be in this amount of pain. She can not see and she is very hard of hearing. Her breathing is labored and she is truly struggling. My mom and I never fight I am at a loss.. hopefully all things will look a little brighter after a nights sleep. Prayers and hugs. Danielle

I know others will have warm and thoughtful things to say for you, right now I just want to send cyber hugs and prayers. It can be extremely tough. Hang in there sweetie, we are here for you! 

Sending up prayers, Danielle. Hang tough and don't try to do too much.

--gina

Here is swinging and prayers for you and your family. 

 my thoughts and prayers are with you and your beloved grandma.  i went thru this several years ago, not to this extreme, but i vigiled with my special "mom" for 2 weeks.  it was a very difficult time, but i also treasure my alone time with her.

hugs!

I really don't have any words that could make you feel better....I have no idea how hard your week must have been! 

I DO believe that God doesn't give us more than we can handle and those challenges have purposes behind them.  I realize that doesn't give you much comfort when you are going through it!  Hang in there!!

You continue to be in my prayer journal....venting in this forum is a GREAT way to let your feelings out!  Vent away!!!

Thinking of you and praying things improve!!!

 Danielle  ((())))) my heart goes out to U and Ur beloved  Grandmom  and Ur  whole family  .  Sounds like   a very trying time  for all of  you .  

U are  being  a heroine and being  an angel for everyone else  and Im SURE Grandmom thoroughly  appreciates  all Ur support and love  through this vigil .  Dont  forget to  take careof Urself , Doll .   

huge hugs  

Prayers and (((HUGS)))

Big hugs, Danielle! I'm sorry about your grandma. Take care of you. Go into that hospital and ask for a nurse mgr tomorrow.

Meg