Good Morning. We can get tiny, can't we?
I've learned....
....That sometimes when the scale doesn't move, my clothes get looser.
...That strangers look me in the eye and chat with me since having a normal bmi. Men especially. I use to have the super power of being invisiable.
....That if I'm not very careful, I will overeat in social settings simply because I haven't weighed my food, or because I wasn't paying attention to how much I'd consumed (too busy gabbying).
....That plain water doesn't agree with me anymore.
....That my pcm was supportative of me going to Mexicali for sleeve surgery (I was shocked but glad that I discussed this with him before I went).
...That I don't really miss the food. I had hoped not to have to think about food post op, I do think about it, but it's different. I think about getting enough fluids, and protein. I don't think about wanting to stop in a drive thru.
...That this has changed my life in a more profound way than I can explain. I have free-ed myself from an all consuming obsession with food that would have eventually killed me. I can't take it lightly and a tiny part of me is scared that it will come back.
...I too see MO people and wonder if they know of options out there for them to take charge of their bodies. However, I know that we are the few brave ones who actually did something about it. For me it was life threatening surgery, paid for out of pocket, and most people are too scared to go through it with . Especially as a light weight.
Thanks for the topic.
K
HW 199, SW 190, CW 148, GW 140
....That sometimes when the scale doesn't move, my clothes get looser.
...That strangers look me in the eye and chat with me since having a normal bmi. Men especially. I use to have the super power of being invisiable.
....That if I'm not very careful, I will overeat in social settings simply because I haven't weighed my food, or because I wasn't paying attention to how much I'd consumed (too busy gabbying).
....That plain water doesn't agree with me anymore.
....That my pcm was supportative of me going to Mexicali for sleeve surgery (I was shocked but glad that I discussed this with him before I went).
...That I don't really miss the food. I had hoped not to have to think about food post op, I do think about it, but it's different. I think about getting enough fluids, and protein. I don't think about wanting to stop in a drive thru.
...That this has changed my life in a more profound way than I can explain. I have free-ed myself from an all consuming obsession with food that would have eventually killed me. I can't take it lightly and a tiny part of me is scared that it will come back.
...I too see MO people and wonder if they know of options out there for them to take charge of their bodies. However, I know that we are the few brave ones who actually did something about it. For me it was life threatening surgery, paid for out of pocket, and most people are too scared to go through it with . Especially as a light weight.
Thanks for the topic.
K
HW 199, SW 190, CW 148, GW 140
Okeydoke
on 6/11/11 10:47 am
on 6/11/11 10:47 am
Thank you for this topic! It's what I needed to hear / read 
. At almost 42, I have diabetes, hypertension, hyperlipidemia, sleep apnea, arthritis, and the beginnings of peripheral vascular disease. I have 3 young children between the ages of 17 months and 7. I want to be around to nurture and see them grow and to enjoy the role of being a grandmother one of these days. In addition, I want to grow old and enjoy life with my husband to keep him out of trouble 
. I am excited with the prospect of WLS but also anxious in regards to messing with God's design. So I am in prayer and supplication for wisdom and guidance.
Thanks to everyone for sharing their experiences, advice, and thoughts!
. At almost 42, I have diabetes, hypertension, hyperlipidemia, sleep apnea, arthritis, and the beginnings of peripheral vascular disease. I have 3 young children between the ages of 17 months and 7. I want to be around to nurture and see them grow and to enjoy the role of being a grandmother one of these days. In addition, I want to grow old and enjoy life with my husband to keep him out of trouble . I am excited with the prospect of WLS but also anxious in regards to messing with God's design. So I am in prayer and supplication for wisdom and guidance.Thanks to everyone for sharing their experiences, advice, and thoughts!
While I have always been sensitive to other MO people,I also have aoften been judgmental toward them because they were bigger than me.I don't like that about myself so I have started to make more of an effort to smile and make eye contact and really *see* them. I also say a prayer for their heling in whatever way God wants to bring it about.
I don't know whether people *saw* me when I was MO or not cause I was kinda in my own world then and actually still am now so I didn't really care if they *saw* me or not.
About God's perfect design,it was perfect until some of us messed it up. Whether from binging/urging/compulsively overeating,insatiable hunger,from fear,anxiety,abuse and yo yo dieting,we broke it.
I am grateful that because He was going to give us free will, and the likelyhood was there that we WOULD mess up he also has provided a safety net,in the way of researchers who have a thirst to know why and to find a fix and his healers on earth who take the job of making that fix happen upon themselves. I think we would be foolish not to use that safety net if at all possible.
I hold up my size 10 jeans and think they look so small! I go to put them on and every time I am amazed all over again that they ft! Every time I put them on,I also have an unreasonable fear that this is the time they WON'T fit,a flashback to the times when every spring nothing from last summer fit and every fall same thing. I marvel at my tiny panties and tiny xs t shirts then put them on and look in the mirror and smile.
I smile until I get down to my shar pei thighs. The extra skin bothers me more than I thought it would but it doesn't bother me enough to mke me regret having surgery. There is nothing that will ever make me regret having surgery and the last 16 months of being a nearly normal sized person.
I am more than willing to commit to dietary changes and taking the supplements. A a matter of fact,right here and now,I make a new vow that I will get all my supplements in EVERY day. I can do it and it isn't a burden I just get disracted and don't get them all in. I even take a pill box full of vitamins in my snack bag everywhere I go so I will be prepared. so,tomorrow I Will get them all in every day.
Blessings to all,
Holly
I don't know whether people *saw* me when I was MO or not cause I was kinda in my own world then and actually still am now so I didn't really care if they *saw* me or not.
About God's perfect design,it was perfect until some of us messed it up. Whether from binging/urging/compulsively overeating,insatiable hunger,from fear,anxiety,abuse and yo yo dieting,we broke it.
I am grateful that because He was going to give us free will, and the likelyhood was there that we WOULD mess up he also has provided a safety net,in the way of researchers who have a thirst to know why and to find a fix and his healers on earth who take the job of making that fix happen upon themselves. I think we would be foolish not to use that safety net if at all possible.
I hold up my size 10 jeans and think they look so small! I go to put them on and every time I am amazed all over again that they ft! Every time I put them on,I also have an unreasonable fear that this is the time they WON'T fit,a flashback to the times when every spring nothing from last summer fit and every fall same thing. I marvel at my tiny panties and tiny xs t shirts then put them on and look in the mirror and smile.
I smile until I get down to my shar pei thighs. The extra skin bothers me more than I thought it would but it doesn't bother me enough to mke me regret having surgery. There is nothing that will ever make me regret having surgery and the last 16 months of being a nearly normal sized person.
I am more than willing to commit to dietary changes and taking the supplements. A a matter of fact,right here and now,I make a new vow that I will get all my supplements in EVERY day. I can do it and it isn't a burden I just get disracted and don't get them all in. I even take a pill box full of vitamins in my snack bag everywhere I go so I will be prepared. so,tomorrow I Will get them all in every day.
Blessings to all,
Holly
People are starting to use the small terms to describe me.... I got an email that said "Such a big personality coming from such a tiny frame." I thought "Oh, they must have just cc:d me on an email describing someone else." Nope, only person she sent it to was me.
Then my small friend came over last night, saw one of my new thrift store dresses, and said "Ooooh, can I wear that to the wedding I have to go to in August?" And I looked at her small figure, thinking "my clothes are TOO BIG for you!!!"
And I've discovered no matter WHAT people say, I still see a fat person in the mirror and I fixate on the fact that my pants are still double digit sizes. And my fat wiggles when I walk.
Although my DH did say that my derrierre was getting, in his words, "firmer."
Then my small friend came over last night, saw one of my new thrift store dresses, and said "Ooooh, can I wear that to the wedding I have to go to in August?" And I looked at her small figure, thinking "my clothes are TOO BIG for you!!!"
And I've discovered no matter WHAT people say, I still see a fat person in the mirror and I fixate on the fact that my pants are still double digit sizes. And my fat wiggles when I walk.
Although my DH did say that my derrierre was getting, in his words, "firmer."
RaggetyAnn (I'm just a RaggetyAnn in a Barbie Doll world.)
hw: 216 sw: 200 cw: 156 dgw: 134 mgw: 124
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