Just Can't Get Past Feeling Ugly..... :(

So I guess I am doing ok so far weight loss wise even though I thought by 9 weeks it would have been more. I still struggle so bad with seeing myself as FAT!!! and I feel like onderland is totally out of reach (i'm 215 now from 248) I mean I take a bath and I see all my body "float" and it's UGLY!!!

Do you guys ever really deal with this? I mean sometimes I have good days others I am so down wondering if this will  really happen for me at 9 months or 12 months where I will be within 10lbs of goal or at it!!!

I don't know, just one of those days I suppose....

That is 33 lbs in 9 weeks, almost 4 lbs a week.  That is great! 

Some days, even after 85#, I feel fat and ugly.  Some days, I think I finally look ok.  It takes a good while for the mind to catch up to the body.

Follow you plan, journal your food, get your fluids and protein in, take your vitamins.  Enjoy the process because it isn't going to happen overnight but it will be quicker than you have ever done it before.  Use this time to learn to eat right and exercise.  You will get there.  I'm sure of it.

Oh - yes we have!  It will happen and you're doing great, just as Price said. 

You are still early out, so don't be beating yourself up too bad.  You've got a lot to look forward too and a lot of WOW moments yet to experience.

Now, remember, hormones are stored in your fat, and because you are losing your fat at a fast rate, hormones are being released quickly and you will feel out of sorts for awhile.  Don't let it get you down!

You're doing great! 

I want to ditto what Jody and Price have said, we all still have our fat days, in fact my DH kids with me and says I will always have the fat lady mentality.
You really are doing great with your weight loss and I bet your mind will catch up with it also.

Those hormones play tricks on us everyday, hang in there, you are doing wonderful, it will be ok!

I can relate! When I am in a funk, my negative thoughts tend to focus on my round belly and double chin. A wise OH person (who was it?) wrote something to the effect that the surgery was on your stomach, not your head. How true!

I am finding that affirmations help. I've come to realize how much I appreciate my body for keeping going after years of abuse. I praise my body for being able to talk, smell, hear, and move. I thank my belly for working with me through this radical change. These moments of gratitude help me gain perspective and replace the negative with the positive.

You are doing great, and will be squarely in the onederlands before you know it. I hope you celebrate your other achievements - building a new relationship with food, making positive changes in your behavior, and working through the demons. These victories are as important as, if not more important than, what it says on the scale.

Keep the faith!
Amy

Congrats on your weight loss so far.  That's 33 lbs, so you are right where I was last week!

just a week ahead of you, I deal with "it" too.
I ask the LW Goddesses for lots of feedback, just like you did, cause if I feel these feelings, I figure there are several lurkers out there feeling the same, just afraid to post and ask.

Did you take your measurements, did you take photos?  Get out the camera and tape measure.  Do that once a month. The LW Goddesses say measurements and photos are important.  I intend to do what the winners did, so I do photos and measurements.  

Ohhhhh yes! I would see myself in the mirror and be so upset by how I looked, then walk through the living room and catch sight of my reflection in the window and think "Why can't I look like that?" and it was me!

Our heads are still very disconnected from our reality, and focusing on the nit-picking details that still need time. You are doing fine - and will continue to do so!

You guys thank you so much for your encouragement....i guess i'm not the only one who has these thoughts....they suck  but  such is life i suppose.....I know one of these days I will come back and revisit my posts and probably end up laughing huh? I guess the one thing I never imagined was truly how difficult the head games are post op....wow