Does anyone else feel this way?
I posted this on my blog, but i wanted to re-post here. of all the groups on OH, I think if anyone gets this it must be the LW's... please respond and let me know fi this is normal, if it will pass, if it's just part of the process? I dunno, I need something...
Does anyone else feel like they are in a borrowed body? Or what they see in the mirror isn't real, it's more like a dream? Or do you, for example, know you are a certain size, put on that size clothing and feel like you are lying to yourself, that it can't possibly fit or look good? Sure, you're in it and it seems to fit all right but you are worried about getting sent home for wearing clothes that are too tight? Too snug, too sexy?
I'm at work, wearing legging and a new tunic for the first time at my place of employment and I feel like I'm just waiting to get sent home. I am regretting the clothing choice. True, my jeans are just as snug, and I get to wear those on Friday, but it's Wednesday. Yes they are both size small but the tunic is actually a little big on me (don't hit me) to the point there it's kind of shapeless. I know I'm hiding my upper body in it, but the leggings, they are clingy and you can see my legs very clearly, the muscle and the jiggle when I walk (of course some might just be in my head). I just want to hide at my desk and hope the day passes me quickly. I shouldn't feel like this, should I? Does anyone else?
I have worked really freaking hard to get to this point, but do I really need to be showcasing my success? Am I being conceited? Are others seeing me as I do? Is this real? Or is it temporary.
Is this normal? Has seeing my mom just rocked my self-esteem that much?
As of yesterday I am 9 months out, I'm pretty much at goal (forgot to weigh~ okay to be fair I didn't want to weigh in front of my mom and that is where my Wii Fit is and then I didn't want to weigh in the evening because I drink soooo much all day long) DH will be taking pictures tonight to add to my progression collage.
I feel fake, this doesn't seem real, please tell me this is not only normal but that it will also go away?
Does anyone else feel like they are in a borrowed body? Or what they see in the mirror isn't real, it's more like a dream? Or do you, for example, know you are a certain size, put on that size clothing and feel like you are lying to yourself, that it can't possibly fit or look good? Sure, you're in it and it seems to fit all right but you are worried about getting sent home for wearing clothes that are too tight? Too snug, too sexy?
I'm at work, wearing legging and a new tunic for the first time at my place of employment and I feel like I'm just waiting to get sent home. I am regretting the clothing choice. True, my jeans are just as snug, and I get to wear those on Friday, but it's Wednesday. Yes they are both size small but the tunic is actually a little big on me (don't hit me) to the point there it's kind of shapeless. I know I'm hiding my upper body in it, but the leggings, they are clingy and you can see my legs very clearly, the muscle and the jiggle when I walk (of course some might just be in my head). I just want to hide at my desk and hope the day passes me quickly. I shouldn't feel like this, should I? Does anyone else?
I have worked really freaking hard to get to this point, but do I really need to be showcasing my success? Am I being conceited? Are others seeing me as I do? Is this real? Or is it temporary.
Is this normal? Has seeing my mom just rocked my self-esteem that much?
As of yesterday I am 9 months out, I'm pretty much at goal (forgot to weigh~ okay to be fair I didn't want to weigh in front of my mom and that is where my Wii Fit is and then I didn't want to weigh in the evening because I drink soooo much all day long) DH will be taking pictures tonight to add to my progression collage.
I feel fake, this doesn't seem real, please tell me this is not only normal but that it will also go away?
7/18/10: 211lbs, 10/16/10: 174 lbs, 1/21/11: 146 lbs, 4/20/11: 131 lbs. Insulin FREE since 7/2010, "normal" BMI since 12/2010. I'm 31, 5'5", happily married, with a fabulous 3 year old boy, and hope to add to our family in the near future 
maybe when it stops changing? sounds like it will just take time...
thank you for responding and making me feel less lost/isolated
thank you for responding and making me feel less lost/isolated
7/18/10: 211lbs, 10/16/10: 174 lbs, 1/21/11: 146 lbs, 4/20/11: 131 lbs. Insulin FREE since 7/2010, "normal" BMI since 12/2010. I'm 31, 5'5", happily married, with a fabulous 3 year old boy, and hope to add to our family in the near future
thank you i truly appreciate your re-asurances, they are exactly what i needed to hear.
still though...
i felt like i was being stared at when i went back to receiving to pick up my protein powder shipment... i just don't know if it was in a complimentary way or a "girl what do you think you are doing wearing that" kind of way!
still though...
i felt like i was being stared at when i went back to receiving to pick up my protein powder shipment... i just don't know if it was in a complimentary way or a "girl what do you think you are doing wearing that" kind of way!
7/18/10: 211lbs, 10/16/10: 174 lbs, 1/21/11: 146 lbs, 4/20/11: 131 lbs. Insulin FREE since 7/2010, "normal" BMI since 12/2010. I'm 31, 5'5", happily married, with a fabulous 3 year old boy, and hope to add to our family in the near future
Oooooh yes - there was the day I was brave and wore my grey jean leggings with pirate boots and a long black sweater. It was an inservice, and I KNOW I looked good, but I still worried if I was appropriate.
However, that broke the ice and now I have less problem with it.
It does take time. It's all part of that head-game that we're going to be in for a while after all the physical changes have occurred.
I do bet you look good!
However, that broke the ice and now I have less problem with it.
It does take time. It's all part of that head-game that we're going to be in for a while after all the physical changes have occurred.
I do bet you look good!
Rebecca
Circumferential LBL, anchor TT, BL/BR, brachioplasty 12-16-10 Drs. Howard and Gutowski
Thigh lift 3-24-11, Drs. Howard and Gutowski again!
Height 5' 5". Start point 254. DH's goal: 154. My guess: 144. Insurance goal: 134. Currently bouncing around 130-135.
Circumferential LBL, anchor TT, BL/BR, brachioplasty 12-16-10 Drs. Howard and Gutowski
Thigh lift 3-24-11, Drs. Howard and Gutowski again!
Height 5' 5". Start point 254. DH's goal: 154. My guess: 144. Insurance goal: 134. Currently bouncing around 130-135. you are my idol! i wish i had pirate boots!! my boss wears some pretty fascinating footwear, so I'm never worried about crossing the line on those :P
i think this all just happened too fast after years of trying with no results and now bam, here they are! while it was a long time coming, it all really just happened within 6 months and I was just wondering if it's going to take another 6 or longer for my brain to understand that this is real and no one can take it away from me (well, except for me)
I will post a picture when I get home :)
i think this all just happened too fast after years of trying with no results and now bam, here they are! while it was a long time coming, it all really just happened within 6 months and I was just wondering if it's going to take another 6 or longer for my brain to understand that this is real and no one can take it away from me (well, except for me)
I will post a picture when I get home :)
7/18/10: 211lbs, 10/16/10: 174 lbs, 1/21/11: 146 lbs, 4/20/11: 131 lbs. Insulin FREE since 7/2010, "normal" BMI since 12/2010. I'm 31, 5'5", happily married, with a fabulous 3 year old boy, and hope to add to our family in the near future
Absolutely! I too had issues wearing leggins or jeggins to work.... and I pretty much wear blue jeans every day... and like you, my jeans are fitted, but that seems to be ok... just like the capris I wore last summer, fitted - and that was ok. go figure.
It takes time... I've put some weight back on and am now going "OMG - is that still going to fit?"...
I tried some pencil skirts on I've had a long time. Yes, they all fit at one time... 2 casualties, but I was pleasantly surprised that the other 2 still fit - snug, but still looked good.... I of course, focus on my "problem spots"... basically my thighs... but that's something we all do!
You'll be ok - and its good that you're wearing cloths that previously were out of your comfort zone - and I betcha you're rockin' them girl!
It takes time... I've put some weight back on and am now going "OMG - is that still going to fit?"...
I tried some pencil skirts on I've had a long time. Yes, they all fit at one time... 2 casualties, but I was pleasantly surprised that the other 2 still fit - snug, but still looked good.... I of course, focus on my "problem spots"... basically my thighs... but that's something we all do!
You'll be ok - and its good that you're wearing cloths that previously were out of your comfort zone - and I betcha you're rockin' them girl!
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look at you! you look fabulous :)
capri's?! dear god! only on casual friday! and only as of this last one (denim capri's to boot!) and I was self conscious in them as well. a lot like today come to think of it, but because it was Friday I was less paranoid, even though they did feel WAY to sexy for work.
congratulations on still fitting in most of your pencil skirts, and i bet even with the couple pounds make them hug your bod in a very very hot way, don't they, admit you, you know you want to...
i used to be VERY comfortable in snug clothing, at least snug tops in my pre-pregnancy size (13) but I was also rocking a very large bust which distracted from my trouble spot, my belly. now that my boobs and belly are both smaller, i have to learn to understand its okay that the spatial relations are still the same between them (from looking down) and even though it looks the same, i am really not fat any more, proportions are the same just a much (much) smaller scale
hugs and thanks
capri's?! dear god! only on casual friday! and only as of this last one (denim capri's to boot!) and I was self conscious in them as well. a lot like today come to think of it, but because it was Friday I was less paranoid, even though they did feel WAY to sexy for work.
congratulations on still fitting in most of your pencil skirts, and i bet even with the couple pounds make them hug your bod in a very very hot way, don't they, admit you, you know you want to...
i used to be VERY comfortable in snug clothing, at least snug tops in my pre-pregnancy size (13) but I was also rocking a very large bust which distracted from my trouble spot, my belly. now that my boobs and belly are both smaller, i have to learn to understand its okay that the spatial relations are still the same between them (from looking down) and even though it looks the same, i am really not fat any more, proportions are the same just a much (much) smaller scale
hugs and thanks
7/18/10: 211lbs, 10/16/10: 174 lbs, 1/21/11: 146 lbs, 4/20/11: 131 lbs. Insulin FREE since 7/2010, "normal" BMI since 12/2010. I'm 31, 5'5", happily married, with a fabulous 3 year old boy, and hope to add to our family in the near future
I have and still feel the same way as you mentioned in your post. In December, I had bought some size 4 leggings and didn't wear them until January. When I put them on, I thought that I still looked fat, but then, said to myself, "There is no way that a size 4 is fat." I wore them to a luncheon and people said that I looked really good. That helped, but the first time that I wore them to work, with boots, I felt very self conscious, but again, people were very complementary.
Sometimes, when I look in a mirror, I think that the mirror is distorted and that slim person looking back at me, isn't really me. It really catches me my surprise sometimes. I am now a size 0, which seems very surreal to me. I hold up a pair of pants and wonder, how am I ever going to fit into these? But I do. Amazing.
At the support group that I attend, the facilitator said that it can up to 3 years for our minds to catch up with our new bodies.
I know exactly what you are talking about. A year ago at this time, I was 100 lbs heavier than I am at the present time. It is totally unreal at times.
Gail
Sometimes, when I look in a mirror, I think that the mirror is distorted and that slim person looking back at me, isn't really me. It really catches me my surprise sometimes. I am now a size 0, which seems very surreal to me. I hold up a pair of pants and wonder, how am I ever going to fit into these? But I do. Amazing.
At the support group that I attend, the facilitator said that it can up to 3 years for our minds to catch up with our new bodies.
I know exactly what you are talking about. A year ago at this time, I was 100 lbs heavier than I am at the present time. It is totally unreal at times.
Gail
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