Green eyed monster lives in me.....

I miss you guys so much!  I've been eating like crap A LOT lately, and realized on my drive home from work this morning that I eat the most horid things when I don't come to this board.  Even though I know better I still find I "forget" that just because I don't dump I really should NOT be eating 6 cookies a day and half a bag of pretzels while I'm sitting at work with nothing to do......Boredom eating has always been my worst downfall.  I've decided it's time to make some changes to the grocery list!  My oldest daughter Aura has put on 20lbs since the beginning of the school year because I was sick and tired of listening to her whine about my meal preperations.  I find I eat like crap more because I'm too tired to argue with my daughter about what is good and what is "disgusting" to eat.  Well I've decided too darn bad!  I've also noticed that my muffin top is back.......could I be experiencing some redistribution???  I'll be 2 years out in July......it just seems to soon for that......I really need to get my booty in gear and get back to exercising!  My goal for this month is to get my ENTIRE house cleaned up.....including the PILE of clothes washed that has been residing on the floor of my lower level so I can actually use my "gym" equipment I have down there!

Now for the green eyed monster that is living inside of me......

My BFF of 26 years is FINALLY having a TT on Monday!  She has a exorbanent amount of excess skin and hard fat deposits on her abdomen.  She had RNY 6 years ago and has been waiting for this moment!  She was told by her PS that she was the poster child for needing a TT.  I am so happy for her and can't wait to see a Tami I've NEVER seen!  Even as a teenager she had a panni and clothes have never fit her right.  We are guessing that ths surgery will take off ATLEAST 20 LBS!!!! from her abdomen!  That is such a huge number when you think about it!  So here is my dilema......I love her with all my heart and know that she needs this surgery more than anyone I know........but........I'm so worried when she has her nice little tight tummy I'm going to be jealous.......I don't want to be.......but I already feel it now.......I have to keep reminding myself that she deserves this surgery more than anyone..........me included!  I think I'm more jealous that I will probably never have the PS that I want........

Please swing critters for her on Monday.....She has 4 kids at home who need her to recover quickly and have an uneventful surgery!

We miss yout too.  Glad when you can drop by.

I'll swing for your friend for sure.  I understand being jealous.  I don't want PS but I hate this skin right now.  I would be happy for less fat deep and more fat near the skin which is really ugly at this point.  I'm hoping redistribution will help somewhere down the line.

Thanks Price!  I'm not feeling this whole redistribution thing........I was hoping it would go into my A$$ and not my love handles.......LOL

Hi Heather!

I had to revamp my grocery list too. I print it out every week and highlight what I need to buy. I only buy off the list...it mostly consists of products off the Hungry Girl grocery list. Have you tried making treats at home or buying protein chips? I incorporated them a few months ago and now I can have my treats and not feel guilty!

As far as the green eyed monster...we all have it as some time or another. Just human nature....but you are happy for your friend and will celebrate her new tightness I'm sure :) When I feel the jealousy creep in, I think about all the things I do have and how I can work toward the things I really want. I don't always get them, but the working towards a goal always benefits me in other areas at least.

You have done so great and I always enjoy your posts!!

Thanks for your insight Char!

I just bought the protein cfhips - very satisfying for the crunchies.  Here's to getting back on track!
Amy

I completely understand the green-eyed monster but I'm on the other end.  My DD has gained about 20 pounds since I've had surgery and she is so jealous of my weight loss and she can be so mean.  I'm sure you are envious of your friends upcoming surgery but I'm sure you are very happy for her too and would never make her feel bad about getting it done. 

I will definitely be thinking about her.  She's going to need a whole new wardrobe with that many pounds coming off...yeah for her!!

Our cupboards are bare at home so I've got to make a trip to the grocery store tonight.  I'm going to try really hard to think about the couple pounds I've gained and make really good choices.  Vegetables are top on my list because I eat when I'm bored too so I have healthy things to grab.

I hear you on the mean daughter thing......Aura refers to my boobs as skin flaps and continually points out that I have no butt ( she has the biggest ghetto booty you'll ever see on white girl......LOL)  I laugh but it hurts all the same.

I can't wait to go shopping with Tami.  She has a very tiny frame and could easily wear small tops if not for all the excess skin.  She's been wearing large tops and they hang on her.  She doesn't think it's possible but I told her yesterday she'll probably end up wearing a size 6 when all is said and done!  She just can't fathom it!

I'm so happy for your friend!! 

My DD#1 doesn't remark on how I look but she rolls her eyes if I even mention what I'm ordering at a resturant even if the remark isn't directed at her.  She thinks everything I say is a dig at her.  When she makes a comment about her weight I just keep my mouth shut because she will take anything I say wrong.

DD#2 is thin but she has a big butt too..I guess that's why she married a black man.  He loves her booty....LOL!!!!!

Welcome back Heather.  I know I need the accountability found on this board and the support I get here also.

If we have crap food in the house, that is what I'm going to eat.  I love junk food especially sweets and carbs.  I just have to not buy it and try not to let anyone bring it into the house.  I have found that my protein drinks help keep me from snacking as much.

Swinging for your friend's TT.  Hope everything goes great for her.  I'm jealous of anyone who has any boobs left!!  I have none and when I lay flat I could be a boy!!  I hate the skin on my legs, but plastics is not in my future either so I'm learning to live with it.  I can always cover my skin up, but I could never cover all the fat up!!

Linda