Its Friday!!!!! a "Just for fun" post

 AMEN!

1. Going from 10 strands of hair on my head to 2 strands of hair on my head.
2. People constantly asking me how much I weigh (umm still a good 40 lbs overweight, so bug off!)
3.. Overall just a major lifestyle change was difficult getting used to (water, vits, exercise, protein, vegetables, etc.)

But of course, all of these things are worth it with getting my health back and I would pick my new healthy and active lifestyle over my old one in a heartbeat even though it was hard making the change! My small con's of being post-op don't even compare to all of the pro's. Who would have thought my biggest fit about having my mess of a surgery yesterday would be that I can't workout for a while?? Not me! :)

Well I would have to say it has been a couple of things. The first is getting over the shame I felt in failing my first surgery and feeling like I was the only person that ever failed that kind of surgery, feeling all alone, like a failure and being insulted and ridiculed by some here (on OH, not the lightweights board) because of my choice to have a different kind of WLS. I am getting over that but it still hurts.
I also struggle to get in exercise. That is a more long term problem that I deal with every day.

 Biggest challenge ?   not grazing and getting i n enough liquids  and exercise  .

that said ...I LOVE  my new life .    Im CRAZY about my new life    .  

Did I tell ya'll i got approved ( finally  !  after the third try )  to TRY  to get insurance approval  for  a n abdominoplasty  ( not a full body lift  but so what )   

YAY  !!   and i looks like our jumbo mortgage is definitely locked in at 4.875 %  !!     I'm a happy lady this weekend  even as I  got my pink slip from one of my best jobs  ..... 

ach we're  definitely in a DEPRESSION .   

I've debated in my head about what to say here because I don't want folks to get the idea that my experience is every DSr's experience because it's not. For the most part I think I've overcome my challenges pretty well. Gas issues have been the most challenging but I deal with it well by keeping carbs low, food variety minimized and by taking a maintenance dose of antibiotics every other day. I know there are risks involved with taking antibiotics but I've tried various probiotics time and again and they don't work for me...I will likely try them again every now and then just to make sure they still don't work.    

Everything has been pretty smooth sailing for me - a few hiccups on the puking lately, but that's it. I'm still not getting enough protein. I struggle with that daily. Other than that - pretty darn happy with the results.

I'm one the lucky ones who have had no problems with my surgery. Getting enough fluids, doing well with protein getting at least my 60g for only a month out, and no major clear a room gas!! My only challenge is not drinking while I eat or 30 min after. Since a wekk and ahalf out I have just put my drink in the fridge until it is time I can drink again. I have avoided eating on schedule just so I dont have to stop drinking. But, I have almost overcome that challenge with lots of determination and practice!!

Keeping my balance mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually.  That is, remembering that while i'm expending tons of energy on wieght loss and physical changes, my physical being is NOT who I am, but only a part of me. 

I've had my ups and downs!  I'm in maintenance mode now.  I go by the way my clothes fit as opposed to what the scale says.  I'll never agree with the scale, it will never say what I want it to say!!  If I notice my clothes fitting a bit more snug, I cut out the Crap that I'm eating!  I've started to get back on track with my Vits, I fell of the board with them BIG time......need to get my act together (Gina would hunt me down and kill me if she knew the extent of my lapse)! 

But my biggest hurdle....my husband!!  He as become so Not Trusting of me!  I feel it is because of my surgery.  He says I've changed.  Others I've talked to said I haven't.  I have become more outspoken, so now I voice my opinions instead of suppress them!  We are on our Final go of things here.....see how it goes!  I've read about many other people having these problems, never thought it would be a problem of mine....but it is!  We'll see what happens in the next 6 months.  We seem to run in 6 month cycles!  But they are getting shorter lately!