I'm hating life right now.......

Well I want to say that I miss you guys........I've been missing for awhile because my life has taken a fantastic turn to CRAP!!  Much of my dismay comes from decisions I've made all on my own!  I have been feeling pretty down and out about some of these situations and just can't seem to get myself out of the dumps!  I think I need some sun for sure.....I'm so tired of this awful cold weather.  So here are some of the things that are on my mind.....

1.  I owe the IRS a crap load of $$$ and don't know where it's gonna come from!
2.  DD#1 literally HATES me.....yes she's 14 and what teenage girl doesn't hate her parents but I feel like I've failed her and sometimes I just wish I could wash my hands of her....which makes me feel like garbage!!  I love her but sometimes I just want her to go away......I know I'm bad for thinking this but I can't help it!  She is making some HORRIBLE choices in life and she WILL NOT accept that she can't do some of these things!
3.  I love my job but I hate working the shift that I do and don't see an end in sight.....Workin the hours I do keeps me from my kids more than I ever thought it would and perpetuates the problems at home with my oldest.
4.  I may have to put Halle on meds because she is so unfocused at school.  I don't like the idea of medicating childrens issues away but I also want her to get the best benefits from her school.
5.  I want to further my education and can't right now because there is literally NO time to do it!
6.  I'm turning 36 next Sunday and feel like I've screwed up my life beyond repair and stand here looking at it shaking my head!

I'm not looking for sympathy I just wanted to let you guys know where I'm at and know that if I disapear for awhile I'm just dealing with LIFE!

This quote helps me when I feel overwhelmed....

"In desperate times, much more than anything else, folks need perspective. For perspective brings calm. Calm leads to clear thinking. Clear thinking yields new ideas. And ideas produce the bloom...of an answer. Keep your head and heart clear. Perspective can just as easily be lost as it can be found."  - The Noticer

Hang in there---

--- that quote is a keeper and EXACTLY what I need today...printed it out!

Thanks!

Heather, I just want to say I don't think you should feel like garbage for your feelings. Just because we LOVE people doesn't mean we always LIKE them, and your feelings are perfectly normal! We know you LOVE your kids. It's apparent. And your DD#1 is being very difficult right now. You're dealing with a lot. Know we care about you here, and whenever you want to come *****vent/dump, we are here. *BIG HUGS*

Abby

Heather --  hang in there --- my husband works odd hours (in an e/r) and I feel you on that!  Focus on you and take care of yourself and your family.  Please stop by and check in when you find some time!

Sorry you are going thru a rough patch right now Heather.  We're here anytime you need to vent.  HUGS, Cindy

Hang in there Heather! You can make it through this. DH and I are taking Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University - and boy has it helped us out of some financial issues. You should look into it - it gives strategies for you and for how to teach your kids about finances. It is well worth going even if you don't have the time.

(((HUGS))) to you Heather.  I know life can throw curve balls when we least feel we can handle them.

 

Hang in there and we are here to support you when you need it.

Everyone hates their kids at one point or another and wishes they would disappear.  I have 2 staff with teenager issues and even I wish they would disappear.

The drugs for autism are so much better than they used to be.  Find a good Dr, go slow, and it may make a wonderful improvement in her life as well as yours.

36 is young babee.  You have more of your life left than you have spent.  Time is on your side.

Life is just a ****** sometimes. Shouldn't be that way. Hang in there, babe!