Preying on my mind
In the 2 1/2 months since surgery, I really didn't have anything in the house that wasn't on my plan. Sunday, I cooked for the first time for guests, and made bariatric friendly recipes that I could have. One recipe I made was for a cheese ball (it really turned out too soupy and became a cheese dip). When shopping, I grabbed the Splenda, and only later discovered it was half splenda, half sugar. Well the cheese dip turned out great anyway. I had some on Sunday with apple slices and also some of those dried apple chips. Yummy. Way too yummy ( I don't think I dump).
There was about 2 cups of this yummy dip left and some leftover apple slices and dried apple chips. Darn if that stuff didn't keep calling me. I saw the dip every time I opened the frig. The leftover dried apple chips were in the cupboard in a clear plastic bag; the cupboard with the trash bin. Every time I opened the cupboard the chips sang to me. I resisted all of yesterday, but today.... as I was reading this board, a post from Ava about beer and pretzels, I heard the apples and dip yelling loud and obnoxious. Well I've had enough. The dip met the disposal, the chips went into the trash and the trash to the dumpster.
What is this behavior that simple stuff like forbidden food can prey on my mind so consumingly? I can't avoid this stuff forever. I thought relative lack of appetite would help me avoid these cravings. I'm discovering that willpower and ability to throw away offending food will have to be new habits that I need to acquire in abundance. For me, it's all about maintaining control.
There was about 2 cups of this yummy dip left and some leftover apple slices and dried apple chips. Darn if that stuff didn't keep calling me. I saw the dip every time I opened the frig. The leftover dried apple chips were in the cupboard in a clear plastic bag; the cupboard with the trash bin. Every time I opened the cupboard the chips sang to me. I resisted all of yesterday, but today.... as I was reading this board, a post from Ava about beer and pretzels, I heard the apples and dip yelling loud and obnoxious. Well I've had enough. The dip met the disposal, the chips went into the trash and the trash to the dumpster.
What is this behavior that simple stuff like forbidden food can prey on my mind so consumingly? I can't avoid this stuff forever. I thought relative lack of appetite would help me avoid these cravings. I'm discovering that willpower and ability to throw away offending food will have to be new habits that I need to acquire in abundance. For me, it's all about maintaining control.
Maybe for you, like me, the strategy of relying on willpower is trumped by the strategy of keeping things "with a siren voice" out of the house. Well.... almost out of the house. Husband has a cabinet. It's like Pandora's box. I NEVER open it. We started this when I went gluten free....
RaggetyAnn (I'm just a RaggetyAnn in a Barbie Doll world.)
hw: 216 sw: 200 cw: 156 dgw: 134 mgw: 124
I agree with not having it in the house.
My other tactic when it isn't forbidden, just not for now, is to plan when I can eat it. So if there are leftovers from dinner out, I may plan on having them for lunch the next day. If it is something I really want, I may have it for several meals in a row, just wait until time and count them. It somehow helps to know I will get it, just not now.
My other tactic when it isn't forbidden, just not for now, is to plan when I can eat it. So if there are leftovers from dinner out, I may plan on having them for lunch the next day. If it is something I really want, I may have it for several meals in a row, just wait until time and count them. It somehow helps to know I will get it, just not now.
66 yrs young, 4'11" hw 220, goal 120 met at 12 months, cw 129 learning Maintainance
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