I give up.....

I am still in this terrible stall going on 1 1/2 months! I have no clue what to do so I am giving up. Eventually I will lose the weight, I guess. I will talk to my surgeon next week and see what he recommends and see if I can get a referral to see a NUT.
I HAVE to be doing something wrong and because of this blasted stall I have fallen into a depression again.
I find myself snacking again ( carrot sticks) and just wanting to do nothing more than eat, eat and eat more. Although when I chart everything, I am still not eating alot.

I am going to see if I can find a local support group and start attending and see if I can get in with a therapist,I feel I need help and only help that they can give me.
Anyway, I am very far behind in my school work because of the depression, so if I am not around, I am sorry but I HAVE to get caught up. I will be reading but nothing more.

Everyone have a great coming weekend.

Stacey

Hi Stacey,

First, sending hugs your way.  I totally get where you're coming from because I have had the same feeling so many times over the last year.  What really helps me when I start to get into the "i'm so freakin blue that my body isn't cooperating and showing my hard work" is to write a gratitude list.  They say it's hard to hate when we're feeling gratitude and appreciation so I figure that goes for self-hatred as well.  When I write all the things that I have to be grateful for, I get to see how far I've come and focus on that, rather than on how far I still have to go.  I have felt like a failure so many time this past year but that doesn't help me at all.  I get to choose how I view myself and my progress and I choose to use this as a time to learn unconditional love for myself.

Today is my 1 year surgiversary.  It NEVER occured to me that I would not be at goal by now.  Never never never!  But here I sit and I'm not at goal.  I have eaten well and exercised my body.  I have tracked every bite.  I have hydrated myself and tried never to miss a dose of vitamins.  I have attended support groups at least once a week since surgery.  All of those things did not get me to goal.  So I get to love myself anyways.  I get to feel great about the size 10 jeans I wore last night.  I get to revel in the fact that I was running on the treadmill for the first time in my life.

Stacey, please count your blessings.  Get your homework done.  Get caught up, but please do not stop posting about how you're doing.  We care about you and will worry about you.  Depression is not something to mess around with.  If you think that you're truly depressed, please seek professional help.   We all care about you!

hugs hugs and more hugs

Lee,
Happy Surgiversary!!!  I think you have done amazing and look incredible!!!
Congratulations...you are a huge success story!

Lee, Happy surgervercity.  What a sweet post to Stacey. 

You have been the Queen of doing everything right and still losing slowly.  Even when you must have been frustrated, you have been positive and supportive.  I love having you here and hate it when you have been gone for a while.  You are absolutely right, we have to do the best we can and take pleasure in the good things.  Wow, running on a treadmill is wonderful, I can see me landing on my face.  And most of the world would love to be in a size 10 jeans (including me). 

Thanks for hanging around and being an inspiration to us all. 

Lee, what an empathetic and compassionate reply to Stacey. You are indeed the Queen of  tenacity and persistence, in the face for frustration. You have always been my inspiration. When I first started lurking on this site, your weight loss was 49 lbs lost and 49 lbs to go. Now, look at where you are-13.5 lbs to your goal. The weight may have come off slowly, but slow and steady wins the race. Also, you have developed some major lifestyle changes that will serve you well in the future and will help you to maintain the weight loss. Weight loss is only part of the picture. The exercise and developing healthy habits go along with maintenance. I know that you will reach your goal.

Running on the treadmill is awesome. I have actually found myself running at times. I was shocked, when I started doing it. Might only be for a few minutes, but wow, we couldn't do that 90 lbs ago.

HAPPY SURGIVERSY!!! You have come a long way, baby.

Stacey --- hang in there!  I can only imagine how tough this stall must be... hope you get a good NUT and they give you something to shake it up a bit. 

Lee --- I must be full of the hormones today -- you brought tears to my eyes!  Congrats on your success this past year and what a lovely supportive post for Stacey.

Meg

Stacey...
I think checking with a therapist is a great idea. The only suggestion I have is to track every bite you eat (as Lee said she does) and see if you can find out if you intake is throwing you off. Or maybe showing your food intake to a NUT would provide some answers. Good luck.

Stacey, I am so sorry that you are having a difficult time. Seeing a therapist, and perhaps, starting an antidepressant will be very helpful. I know from your previous postings that eating has been a problem for you, and this could very well be a symptom of depressions, as well as the low energy and lack of interests in your usual activities. With all this going on, you need to eat, and you need to eat protein. Carrots have a place in one's diet, but at this point, you need to be eating something with protein. Can you munch on cheese, chicken, taco meat, or something else (another type of dense protein) that might be good for you? Protein drinks are probably necessary at this point in time for you, since you're not getting much nutrition anywhere else. If you don't have protein, you will feel like c*ap and your mind will not be able to operate efficiently so that you can concentrate enough to get through your schoolwork.. Also, if you do end up on an antidepressant, the medication needs the protein to work effectively, so that you're depression can be relieved. If you are not eating enough protein, the medication will not be effective.

Please keep posting. This is a very positive and accepting forum to express yourself. You have come a long ways. Please don't give up now. There is light at the end of the tunnel.

Oh Stacey, group hug 

Stalls are h*ll and so is depression.  Get help for both.  Support group does give me a boost.  My Dr's group is 1.5 hrs away so I have been going to one more local that accepts anyone.  A therapist may be able to help with both issues and that would be great. 

Stacey,
Hang in there.  Have you written down and calculated everything that you eat?  Maybe you are not getting enough food since you said you are still not eating alot.  Sometimes we wont' lose if we don't get enough fuel for our bodies.
I think checking with your surgeon/NUT is a good idea and maybe a therapist.  This is so emotional for us all that it never helps to get assistance from different people.
Try posting on Menus and Miles for a while and let us see if we might could help you out some.  Just asked for someone to look at your post and give you their opinions.
Good luck and keep us updated.
Linda