NSV - so why am I depressed

Seems pretty stupid and selfish.  I went to buy a couple of pairs of jeans since mine were falling off.  I looked in the plus side of the store, until I realized I was a 16 and could buy over on the other side.  It was like foreign territory.  I now have two pair of cute jeans that fit real nice.  So, why the hell am I feeling so down?  I'm not sure if its the fact that the incredible fast weight loss has slowed down a lot, or what.  I think I probably need a reality check.  Also, I ate too much sugar free chocolate candy last night and felt like crap.  I don't think I dump, I haven't purposely tested it, and don't plan on testing it, but I do know I won't be eating anymore sugar free candy.  I've come to realize that my chicken corn chowder must be a trigger food, because I want it even when I'm not hungry, so I won't be buying that anymore.  Maybe the hormone thing has finally caught up with me, but I just feel like laying my head down and crying.  Then I feel guilty because what a profound opportunity I have been given. 

Yes, the sugar free candy is probably futzing with your body chemistry, yes the hormones are probably getting to you, you realize truths about yourself and your corn chowder love that is a bit of a bummer and and know what?  You might just be a little weary because you have had some intense focus on all of this.

So!  There is no shame in needing a little offgassing and crying a bit.  I prefer to do it sitting in the bottom of the shower and somehow I do not end up all froggy eyed and whatnot and then maybe going to bed early.

Guilt does you no good, its not a long term motivator.  Surgery for some of us, shoots us into this weird puberty like thing where not all emotions can be, or honestly need to be explained, we just need to know they are not going to kill us if we feel them.  And we do not just have to suck it up all the time, we can cry or be irritable, the biggest thing is just to not do damage to ourselves or our relationships in the middle of our surgically pubertized anxt.

Be sweet to yourself.  You deserve a break, or even to get snuggled up in the crook of somebody's arm who would tell you it IS going to be okay!  How it is today is not how it will always be, and sometimes, a person just needs to cry for a minute.

Be sweet to you.

*squeeze*

Lucy, your hormones are catching up with you and the corn chowder didn't help matters, LOL.

Pity parties are allowed, just pick yourself up and dust yourself off afterward. A good cry in the shower is always good for the soul. I did that the day I found out I was diabetic. It was like I had to say "goodbye" to the old me first before picking myself up and moving forward.

But it's not stupid or selfish. Minor depression, esp this time of year is really understandable. We've been stuck in the house, out of the sun...what we ALL need is SPRING!!!

Liz

Oh thank you, I really needed that.  I am weary.  You words were very wise and I'm saving them. 

Thank you Liz.  It has been gray for a very long time and I am truly sick of that. 

Completely normal to feel this way. Have a cry, treat yourself to a pedicure or massage. In my house it is putting the kids to bed early and sitting with my Dr Scholls water bath my feet love it.
It will be ok!

Thank you Stacey.  Geez, in the past when I've felt this way I would have a big bowl of ice cream.  I think I need to hold a baby.  I wonder if the hospital has any openings for volunteers in their pediatric wing?  That would make me feel better. Hummmm

Sue, find a baby .I know they are the best picker uppers for bad moods and depression. In fact thats what I miss most about my old job. I worked for an OB-Gyn dr and I loved to hold the babies.
Sometimes, this journey gets weary...we find new things that we like alot(smaller clothes) but still have those heavy burdens or feelings that we think only food can heal...I'm like you we need spring soon.........Take care
Brenda

Thank you Brenda.

First, congratulations on your pair of size 16 jeans! Sorry that you are feeling down. The weight loss does slow down, but you have been doing great. There are a lot of hormonal things going on, as well as saying good-bye to a former life style. Maybe, there is some grieving going on. Even when we are making positive changes, there is still loss, and sometimes we can feel blue about it. Hopefully, this is just a blip in the recovery process, but if it continues, please let your doctor know. It is common for WLS folks to get the blues and feel depressed.

When I went shopping for some new pants in December, I also felt like I was in foreign territory and asked a sales associate for some assistance. She was very helpful and put together some things that I wouldn't have thought of wearing. I wasn't even sure what size to try on!

I hope you feel better soon!!