Good Morning. Cranky

 Thanks, Lee. I think we notice for each other. I thought you looked fabulous in your casual, simple, chic outfit at lunch last week. Really ready for the world. You never have to qualify your weight on any dating site. You are already in normal range.

Sorry about the almonds. I used to fall into an eating trance. Hand to mouth is a good description. Then whatever was gone and my tongue was pickled. Even worse was when I then thought about what else I wanted. Never satisfied. So far, I can't eat past discomfort, but I know that risk is out there.

Wendy, the old behaviour is always out there waiting to pounce unless we work/play with the reasons we got there in the first place.  It's amazing how much more will fit into my Sleevie at 11 months and I think that now that I get hungrier, what I put in is even more important.

Thanks for saying nice things about how I look!

You're doing great!  I don't think people actually started noticing or saying anything until I'd lost 50 pounds, so hang tight.

--gina

 Thanks, Gina. I know I'm doing this for me, but a few WOW's are nice. I'll get them from the LW board.

ARG ARG ARG!  I'm cranky too because my eyese are puffy and droopy and I did this to myself!  I had my first binge yesterday.  Instead of eating my protein pudding for dinner I had 2-3 ounces of smokehouse almonds.  The sodium is killing me.  It was my first hand to mouth eating in 11 months and the behaviour scared me silly with a slap upside the head this morning.  I'm not sure why I was so hungry and why I chose those dang nuts (which will not grace my home again for a long time).  There was something so old/familiar about that hand to mouth action.  The only thing that I can figure is that I was disappointed (though it didn't feel like it at the time) that my date cancelled, or that I spent too much time home alone yesterday.   Whatever, I want to be way more mindful that I make a food plan and it's there to be honored because left to my own devices, I can easily get into trouble.  

I'm finishing two weeks of Atkins Low Carb today and I'm just grateful that I didn't reach for sugar or flour or popcorn but that doesn't make me feel good about my actions.

OK, I'm letting it go now and heading into a beautiful day filled with lots of activity and protein!

Thanks for listening.  I appreciate you all.

Lee, I've been eating jerky and the sodium is catching up with me. Another thing that I can't bring into the house.

Why are you using an old picture? It is great, but it doesn't show how slimmed down you are now.

Sorry about your cancelled date. Sounds like it was disappointing.

I'll change my pic back in a day or two.  I just wanted the reminder about "before".

Jerky gets to me too.  I had some Ostrim nuggets and they sent my scale up.

Funny you should mention this. I got down to 120 lbs with my first surgery and I looked terrible. I only stayed there for a few minutes so I never had a chance to fill out.
Now I have looked terrible for a while. I have been so sick and fatigued and I look it. I have dark circles under my eyes. I hate how I look. No matter how much I sleep I just look tired. For a long time I didn't even care, I felt so bad. I just didn't care about my looks. I stopped wearing make up or caring about my clothes.
Now I seem to be coming out of that. I have had a few better days where I feel almost normal. I am starting to care about what I wear and how I look. And it really bothers me that I look so bad.
Last night I was playing around on Facebook and I noticed that have something where you can take a picture for your profile. My laptop has a webcam so I decided to try it. I took several pictures and they all looked bad. I picked the best I could find because I thought my eyes looked nice and I wanted people to see what I looked like.
Well, this morning I got a message from an old friend, who I haven't seen in about 10 years, saying that I looked bad in my picture and didn't look like I felt well.
That really hurt. Of course I took the picture down and now I don't want to leave the house. Along with not looking good I have to worry about my face looking drawn, too.
It really takes the joy out of my weight loss. What is the point of losing weight if I still look awful? I am feeling better and I thought I was looking better, too.

You have been up and down to the extreme over the past few years. I think I would take a really good look at my labs and make some corrections on vitamins and protein. You will come back around and start looking good but give yourself a boost now by working on the vitamins and nutrition.

--g

I hope I get at least some of them back tomorrow.  I got the list from a document on Google.  Some of them weren't drawn because my pcp has to order them.  I sent him an email but I haven't heard back from him.  I go in soon so I'll ask then.
My protein is very good.  It really went up. 

TOTAL PROTEIN, PLASMA (LAB)	7.1	6.1 - 7.9	g/dL
ALBUMIN, PLASMA (LAB)	4.4	3.5 - 4.7	g/dL

This was last Oct.
My protein was 6.8 and my albumin was 3.8 in Dec.09
I get about 120 grams a day so I expect it should still be good.