IVF cancelled

 Hi All,

The IVF cycle was cancelled today because the egg donor made hardly any eggs. I am pretty sad and frustrated. I just feel like I have been through so much in my life that it is so unfair that this had to be so difficult too. This egg donor is their best donor and this would have been her 5th cycle. All her egg donations have resulted in viable pregnancies. I just got my hopes up too high, and I really thought at least this part of the donor IVF steps would be relatively easy and straight forward. I guess I thought if it was going to fail it would be that the embryos would not implant in my uterus.

To make things worse I have a bad cold that I think will soon be a sinus infection/ear infection. I just didn't have the intestinal fortitude to go to urgent care today and was hoping that sudafed would work and it would just go away. Maybe I'll wake up tomorrow and feel much better! Please!!!

Anyway thanks for listening. I have to just pick up the pieces again and move forward. Save up some more money and I guess try again. Nobody said life was going to be easy but does it really have to be this difficult. Even my psychologist thinks I have been more crap than most people go through in two lifetimes. I am just so tired of struggling and fighting for everything.

Oh Amy, I am so sorry that things did not work out today. I know so much is at stake and your emotions have to be on overload. I don't know if this is helpful but my friend had to try several frustrating and expensive times, and she now is the mother of the most wonderful son. In fact, he is my youngest friend at 3 yo!

Please be good to yourself. And please go to urgent care tomorrow if you need to get drugs. Things will get better.

I am sending a big virtual hug!
Amy

I big hug coming from here.  I am so sorry and being sick on top of it isn't fair. 

I am sorry it didn't work out.  One of my friends went through fertility treatments.  I know how crushing it was for them.  Those extra horemones don't make it any easier.

Hope you are feeling physically better soon.

I'm so sorry you have been let down........I can't imagine being in your shoes.  Please call me so we can talk!

 ((hug))

Oh Amy, I'm so sorry you're going through this.  I hope you're feeling better soon - I've had that crud 2 weeks ago. 

Keep trying - I know its easier sand than done, but in the end it will all be worth it. 

Im so sorry, keep your head held high it will work out in the end.

Aspan, what an AMAZING avatar.  Made my smile stretch BEYOND my ears!

Hi Amy,

wow, (((hug hug))) [pat][pat][pat] (((hug))).
You've worked so hard to get where you are.  You're going through a truly emotional AND physical rollercoaster.  You have plenty of reasons to be sad and frustrated.  

Why don't you sent the mental alarm clock for say, a couple more days, and allow yourself to feel the feelings you have and also to treat yourself with gentleness and kindness??  Then when the mental alarm sounds after those couple days, begin to focus on moving forward.  

I get sinus infections when I'm overstressed and worn down, or when I'm stiffling sadness. A dear friend told me my sinus infections were my body's way of telling me I needed to cry.  Don't know if that resonates for you or not. 

Swinging geckos and labradoodles for you.