Re-evaluating life
Hi all,
I hade my RNY on 9/21/10 and have come to some major conclusions as I have gone through the emotional ups and downs of my weight loss journey. I am just not happy with my life. I always thougth that being a smaller size would make me feel better about myself, but I am now discovering that although I feel better physically I'm still not very happy on the inside. And my unhappiness shows up in every area of my life. Don't get me wrong I know weight loss suregery is not the magic pill for all that ails us, but I trully did abribute my unhappiness and my low self esteem to my size. Now I come to find out that I need to take a look at all aspects of my life and re-evaluate what works and what doesn't. Even though external factors can play a part in contributing to how I feel I know that happiness is an inside job. I lived for so long trapped and hiding in my fat body and now I need to learn how to see myself as a "normal" sized person. I have started seeing a therapist to help me work through whatever is preventing me from feeling joy and trully embracing this wonderful gift of a healthy life.
Christine
I hade my RNY on 9/21/10 and have come to some major conclusions as I have gone through the emotional ups and downs of my weight loss journey. I am just not happy with my life. I always thougth that being a smaller size would make me feel better about myself, but I am now discovering that although I feel better physically I'm still not very happy on the inside. And my unhappiness shows up in every area of my life. Don't get me wrong I know weight loss suregery is not the magic pill for all that ails us, but I trully did abribute my unhappiness and my low self esteem to my size. Now I come to find out that I need to take a look at all aspects of my life and re-evaluate what works and what doesn't. Even though external factors can play a part in contributing to how I feel I know that happiness is an inside job. I lived for so long trapped and hiding in my fat body and now I need to learn how to see myself as a "normal" sized person. I have started seeing a therapist to help me work through whatever is preventing me from feeling joy and trully embracing this wonderful gift of a healthy life.
Christine
SW 257 CW 153.8 GW 160
good luck 
I read your post earlier and did not respond because it is such a touchy subject.
I believe these little bumps in the road are the reasons we have to go through the psychiatric evaluations. With the majority of overweight people, there are underlying issues that need to be dealt with. Tending to eat our way through the issue is what makes it managable and now that there is an inability to eat and self "medicate" makes you realize that there are more issues.
It is wonderful that you have relized there is something else wrong and there is nothing wrong with seeking guidance, remember too, hormones are stored in body fat, as you start to lose that fat you will have added hormones released. This could be an issue but you are the only one to know exactly what is bothering you. Good Luck and keep us posted on how you are feeling. PM me if you would like, sometimes just getting it all out is the best medicine.
Stacey
I believe these little bumps in the road are the reasons we have to go through the psychiatric evaluations. With the majority of overweight people, there are underlying issues that need to be dealt with. Tending to eat our way through the issue is what makes it managable and now that there is an inability to eat and self "medicate" makes you realize that there are more issues.
It is wonderful that you have relized there is something else wrong and there is nothing wrong with seeking guidance, remember too, hormones are stored in body fat, as you start to lose that fat you will have added hormones released. This could be an issue but you are the only one to know exactly what is bothering you. Good Luck and keep us posted on how you are feeling. PM me if you would like, sometimes just getting it all out is the best medicine.
Stacey
HW-220 SW 205 4'11"
Christine,
Kudos on taking care of yourself and big congrats on your fab weight release. I never thought WLS would be the magic bullet, but I was sure hoping. I had some blues this fall after my son left and seriously considered seeking some help. I haven't been in therapy for 2 decades but loved it when I was. There's nothing like having someone to make it all about us! :)
I've read a lot about hormones being released as we shed the fat. What an overwhelming process WLS can be. I cried a couple of times that I couldn't self medicate with food, but as time goes on, it's become much easier.
I think you're doing great. Keep taking care of your brain, heart, stomach connection. You're a big winner!! :)
Kudos on taking care of yourself and big congrats on your fab weight release. I never thought WLS would be the magic bullet, but I was sure hoping. I had some blues this fall after my son left and seriously considered seeking some help. I haven't been in therapy for 2 decades but loved it when I was. There's nothing like having someone to make it all about us! :)
I've read a lot about hormones being released as we shed the fat. What an overwhelming process WLS can be. I cried a couple of times that I couldn't self medicate with food, but as time goes on, it's become much easier.
I think you're doing great. Keep taking care of your brain, heart, stomach connection. You're a big winner!! :)
HW: 249 SW: 229 GW: 149 Age: 63 - Body by Sauceda - 12/2011
Hi Christine,
Congratulations on your success with your WLS. Also for knowing that you need some outside help with som eof the emotional part of the journey.
My insurance required 6 months of therapy or 6 months of support meetings. I opted for the therapy because I really thought it would help me the most to get ready for the major changes coming after WLS. I have had a few times since surgery that I thought about going back to the therapists and talking with him. It is hard to adjust after eating all of your emotions away in the past and now you can't do that. I have found walking is a great thing for me to release the tension that builds up when I can't eat all the food that I want to eat.
Good luck to you and I'm so glad you are seeking out the help you need. Please stay in touch with us and let us help anyway that we can.
Linda
Congratulations on your success with your WLS. Also for knowing that you need some outside help with som eof the emotional part of the journey.
My insurance required 6 months of therapy or 6 months of support meetings. I opted for the therapy because I really thought it would help me the most to get ready for the major changes coming after WLS. I have had a few times since surgery that I thought about going back to the therapists and talking with him. It is hard to adjust after eating all of your emotions away in the past and now you can't do that. I have found walking is a great thing for me to release the tension that builds up when I can't eat all the food that I want to eat.
Good luck to you and I'm so glad you are seeking out the help you need. Please stay in touch with us and let us help anyway that we can.
Linda
14.5 lost pre-surgery 5'1 1/2" 
Most Active
Recent Topics
