I'm officially out of my funk and 8.5 lbs. lighter!
Hi Guys!
I have not been around here lately because I've been kind of down in the dumps. I didn't want to face you all. I felt rather like a fake or a phony follower of WLS. A fallen LW. I was feeling like a total failure in regard to being committed to the rules of post WLS. I was having trouble with snacking late at night mostly. I just couldn't stop, even if it was healthy choices. It's not like I was eating compulsively at night. But I did have a compulsion to eat something each and every night before going to bed. And I could not stop myself, no matter how much strength I tried to muster.
I came and visited with you guys, but never made my presence known. I felt like you all were so much more successful than I. And why would you all want to help someone who keeps failing at helping herself! That gets old really quickly. I even made an appt with the Emily Program, an eating disorders place here in MN, to start the process of joining one of their support groups. But then this morning i noticed that I felt a little lighter on my feet. All of the sudden my pajama bottoms felt much looser. I didn't think it could be from weight loss, but I went down to my scale to weigh myself anyway. I was 8.5 lbs lighter!
Wow! Where did that come from? I was totally shocked... and happy!
So Now I feel much better. I don't feel so much like a loser... Well, not the BAD kind anyway! And I am going to set a new goal for myself to be in Onederland by the New Year! Do you think I can do that? 30 + lbs? It sure would be nice! Whoever thinks I can do it, please give me a plan and I'll follow it. Especially you athletes out there. I know you all have your own goals and I don't want to make this all about me, but today I feel so reborn! Like I've been given another chance to get this right! Hurray! Thanks for listening!
I have not been around here lately because I've been kind of down in the dumps. I didn't want to face you all. I felt rather like a fake or a phony follower of WLS. A fallen LW. I was feeling like a total failure in regard to being committed to the rules of post WLS. I was having trouble with snacking late at night mostly. I just couldn't stop, even if it was healthy choices. It's not like I was eating compulsively at night. But I did have a compulsion to eat something each and every night before going to bed. And I could not stop myself, no matter how much strength I tried to muster.
I came and visited with you guys, but never made my presence known. I felt like you all were so much more successful than I. And why would you all want to help someone who keeps failing at helping herself! That gets old really quickly. I even made an appt with the Emily Program, an eating disorders place here in MN, to start the process of joining one of their support groups. But then this morning i noticed that I felt a little lighter on my feet. All of the sudden my pajama bottoms felt much looser. I didn't think it could be from weight loss, but I went down to my scale to weigh myself anyway. I was 8.5 lbs lighter!
Wow! Where did that come from? I was totally shocked... and happy!
So Now I feel much better. I don't feel so much like a loser... Well, not the BAD kind anyway! And I am going to set a new goal for myself to be in Onederland by the New Year! Do you think I can do that? 30 + lbs? It sure would be nice! Whoever thinks I can do it, please give me a plan and I'll follow it. Especially you athletes out there. I know you all have your own goals and I don't want to make this all about me, but today I feel so reborn! Like I've been given another chance to get this right! Hurray! Thanks for listening!
Awe Kathy....first let me say whoo hoo on the 8.5 down!!! Yay...
Second let me say that I seem to be where you are or were...in a funk and having the compulsion to eat something each night. I know exactly what you feel about being a fallen LW...I'm like that with the fitness area too. I am glad the funk is over but don't be silent in your trials...I know I could use a buddy when I'm feeling alone and sure enough, I am usually not alone. Like my muncie attack yesterday. I thought Ok, let me put out a random post and get a whoopin' if needed but look at all that were with me...I feel better about sharing for sure...
I know you can do this!!! Your goal is within reach. Track everything you are putting in your mouth and keep water and protein as your goal.
Do you wanna do this together?? I would like to shed the last few pounds and I'll walk the steps of food and fitness with ya!! You up for a partner??
Second let me say that I seem to be where you are or were...in a funk and having the compulsion to eat something each night. I know exactly what you feel about being a fallen LW...I'm like that with the fitness area too. I am glad the funk is over but don't be silent in your trials...I know I could use a buddy when I'm feeling alone and sure enough, I am usually not alone. Like my muncie attack yesterday. I thought Ok, let me put out a random post and get a whoopin' if needed but look at all that were with me...I feel better about sharing for sure...
I know you can do this!!! Your goal is within reach. Track everything you are putting in your mouth and keep water and protein as your goal.
Do you wanna do this together?? I would like to shed the last few pounds and I'll walk the steps of food and fitness with ya!! You up for a partner??
Aw shoot. Hi Diane. I just posted a long reply to your thoughtful and sweet response and like Gina, OH made it disappear! Shoot. I will have to post it again tomorrow. My original post was more about me...boring. Now onto you...........You're a dear and you must stay strong. You have come so far and you look incredibly beautiful in the photos you posted. You, my Dear, have everything going for you that anyone could possibly want. You are intelligent, gorgeous, motivated, kind, self-directed, altruistic... You are destined for great successes in your career and life in general... Don't let the success you've worked so hard for slip away. I couldn't find the muncie post to read what that was about, but you just keep your eye on the prize. Don't let a cookie or bag of Doritos take away that beautiful movie-star, 100 watt smile and your new, hard-won petite, svelte, toned body beneath it. You are going places, my Dear. And you are going to go there looking beautiful, sexy and strong. Believe it.
ooo,
kathy
ooo,
kathy
Kathy...you are so damned sweet! I had to re-read all the nice adjectives you posted and said to myself....me??? is she talkin' to me??? lol
Eh, the munchie monster lurks behind me and I know its stress invited so we're going to work on that.
So, did you want to partner up sunshine? Let's work together on this baby.
Eh, the munchie monster lurks behind me and I know its stress invited so we're going to work on that.
So, did you want to partner up sunshine? Let's work together on this baby.
I eat snacks at night...but I plan them ahead. It doesn't seem to matter what time of day I eat as long as I stay within my calorie range. I don't like eating in the morning, so I do protein coffees till lunch, then eat. If I'm not hungry in the afternoon, I save that snack till evening.
You are doing great by the way!
I averaged 14 pounds a month my entire losing period. I was so strict with my menus, planned ahead, and didn't eat it if it wasn't on the paper. I also worked out 6 days a week. I mean worked out pretty hard. You have to get your heart rate up and sweat. I have a love/hate relationship with Jillian Michaels, but I quote her in my head sometimes. "If you're not uncomfortable, nothing is going to change."
I also write myself little notes all over the place. Like on the alarm clock so I have to look at it before I hit snooze, or on the mirror or computer or treadmill. Sometimes encouraging notes, sometimes kick myself in the butt to get motivated notes.
Good Luck with things, and don't disappear, we are here for you when you're up or down!
You are doing great by the way!
I averaged 14 pounds a month my entire losing period. I was so strict with my menus, planned ahead, and didn't eat it if it wasn't on the paper. I also worked out 6 days a week. I mean worked out pretty hard. You have to get your heart rate up and sweat. I have a love/hate relationship with Jillian Michaels, but I quote her in my head sometimes. "If you're not uncomfortable, nothing is going to change."
I also write myself little notes all over the place. Like on the alarm clock so I have to look at it before I hit snooze, or on the mirror or computer or treadmill. Sometimes encouraging notes, sometimes kick myself in the butt to get motivated notes.
Good Luck with things, and don't disappear, we are here for you when you're up or down!
Thank you! As the pounds started coming off quickly, I got more and more motivated. And all of the sudden, bad snacks weren't as appealing. Don't get me wrong, they look good or sound good, but I would think about it like the bad snack would un-do all of the hard work I did on the treadmill or running miles outside at 4am, and suddenly they weren't worth it.