oooooh the things we do to ourselves-more ranting and raving

Well those who know me know I have been unemployed. I had a recent job offer that I had been workign on for 6 months. It was Federal with great pay andbenies. Some ******** denied me due to a reference from an employer 3 years ago. I have been working for over tweny years while my husband transfered in the navy. I have never been fired, disaplined or anything. My license is impecably clear. The guy even said there was nothing to indicate I was anything but a well qualified nurse. . I have contacted the offending hospital ( I thought I left on good terms, but I was on light duty on workers comp and they put an entry in that I listen to cd's on my personal laptop while working. It's not like anyone said I couldn't. It was a mind numbing job of matching hard copy to computer scaned copy so the hard copy could be distroyed. Anyway they say there is nothing wrong with my employment and they would rehire me. Ihad them write an email ,but the dick is saving the worldfrom the likes of me.
Why I am writing here...Although I have been under a lot of stress, I have not surcombed to the food to calm myself until just now....UUUUUHHHH infact I am getting sicker as I write. It did not taste good, and now I feel so sick why why do we do these things to ourselves. Am I punishing myself?
I hope you all are having a good day.

we all make mistakes, dont beat yourself  up to hard.  Stress makes us do things we normally would not do.  One day won't hurt you (well right now it will, sorry).  You just have to believe that God has something better planned for you.  We have all been there before and you will come out on the other side with an even better job than the one you lost and a better understanding of yourself too.  Go do something to relax,  maybe a hot bath or even a nap.  I will be praying for you..              Joan

Joan ur so right ive been unemployed since Feb and thats what i keep saying to myself when jobs surpass me God is wating for the best job to come along for me

I would insist the other hospital take that out of your records.  Then apply again when that federal facility has an opening.  They won't keep your other files or refer back to them.  Lin

Ugh!  How frustrating!  I'm really sorry.

Now that you recognize what went wrong with the food, you have the power to stop it.  Before, you probably wouldn't have even noticed.  The fact that you did (and posted here) is a really good sign that it won't get out of control.  

Good luck for everything that is ahead.  I do hope it all gets better really soon.

I listen to my Ipod for about half of my workday usually.  I'd be in a lot of trouble with that guy.  As long as there was no policy saying you couldn't do it, it's not fair.  Do what you can to get that off your record.

I'm so sorry that happened to you.  As others have said, get it the heck off your record.  I listen to NPR or my ipod all day and don't have a problem with my staff doing the same as long as they are getting their work done.  I figure a happy employee gets more work accomplished.

As far as the food, I'm sorry you did this to yourself.  The good news is that you don't have to do it again.  Lesson learned and I'm sure you're not the only one to head in that direction.  It's amazing how quickly old behaviours resurface.  Be kind to yourself please.

So sorry you are going through this. Glad you are posting.
I think it helps to get it out of your system.
As for the food, look at it as a lessoned learned.