My New Life 14 months out and 100 lbs down
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on 10/14/10 4:12 am
on 10/14/10 4:12 am
Im getting REALLY Frustrated sitting around doing NOTHING !!! For the record , the second i even lie horizontally or walk a block my nose turns blue and swollen and smarts and feels like "this is NOT a good thing " so Im staying " off" of it a bit longer .
Im also remembering vividly that the LAST nose operation I had scarred up unattractively precisely because i didnt do this ...
and this is a much more difficult and dicey one where tissue is ADDED rather than SUBTRACTED from the nose . Any funky healing will result in a year or a lifetime of mutilated looking face .
so the stakes are HIGH to say the least .
But im getting ANTSY . I started sorting four seasons of fat clothes and now they are all over the house . Who knew a single person could hoard so many clothes ? I have to say .... is this a form of mental illness too ? or chronic insecurity ? or just artistic insanity ?
I mean .. realistically....the parts of this i actually needed for work were so small and honestly .. half the time i ended up finding what i needed to send off at the thrift store anyway .... lol
Ive been making a lot of OA meetings and writing my steps again. One of the things thats coming home to me is that though i may have made big mistakes in the past i DONT have to ruin TODAY or the FUTURE mindlessly repeating destructive old patterns - that I have a CHOICE .
OF Course that also means I have a RESPONSIBILITY to live my best life .
I am getting married in five short weeks . The mortgage on our new home went through and we will be closing on it less than four weeks after our wedding date . I have a lot of bad old habits to break before then and good positive new ones to institute .
Its SO not only about food LOL.
Im also remembering vividly that the LAST nose operation I had scarred up unattractively precisely because i didnt do this ...
and this is a much more difficult and dicey one where tissue is ADDED rather than SUBTRACTED from the nose . Any funky healing will result in a year or a lifetime of mutilated looking face .
so the stakes are HIGH to say the least .
But im getting ANTSY . I started sorting four seasons of fat clothes and now they are all over the house . Who knew a single person could hoard so many clothes ? I have to say .... is this a form of mental illness too ? or chronic insecurity ? or just artistic insanity ?
I mean .. realistically....the parts of this i actually needed for work were so small and honestly .. half the time i ended up finding what i needed to send off at the thrift store anyway .... lol
Ive been making a lot of OA meetings and writing my steps again. One of the things thats coming home to me is that though i may have made big mistakes in the past i DONT have to ruin TODAY or the FUTURE mindlessly repeating destructive old patterns - that I have a CHOICE .
OF Course that also means I have a RESPONSIBILITY to live my best life .
I am getting married in five short weeks . The mortgage on our new home went through and we will be closing on it less than four weeks after our wedding date . I have a lot of bad old habits to break before then and good positive new ones to institute .
Its SO not only about food LOL.
Congratulations on the engagement...I didn't even know! Take the time to heal, then back to working out! And don't feel like you have to change yourself for marriage, if you want to change for yourself, that's one thing, but changing for another person is totally wrong.
5'0" HW-214 SW-186 GW-115 CW-96-99
Ava,
Hope your nose gets better. Is this just part of the normal recovery?
I had two closets full of clothes, but I actually went through mine regularly and now don't have hardly any clothes. My closet looks pretty sad. I got rid of everything that didn't fit except one pair of blue jeans to keep for comparisons.
It sounds like you are doing really good right now with your weight and OA meetings.
Five weeks until your wedding!! Congratulations.
Linda
Hope your nose gets better. Is this just part of the normal recovery?
I had two closets full of clothes, but I actually went through mine regularly and now don't have hardly any clothes. My closet looks pretty sad. I got rid of everything that didn't fit except one pair of blue jeans to keep for comparisons.
It sounds like you are doing really good right now with your weight and OA meetings.
Five weeks until your wedding!! Congratulations.
Linda
14.5 lost pre-surgery 5'1 1/2"
Congratulations on your upcoming wedding! How exciting! Take care of your nose too... let it heal properly.
I have 2 closets full of clothes. And these are my current skinny clothes... I SWORE I wouldn't go overboard again... but I did... and that's not counting the dresser drawers either....
One closet contains the pants and short sleeve shirts. The other closet contains the dresses, sweaters and long sleeved shirts.
Of course the bottom of the closets are littered with shoes....
I don't think I could ever marry again because I just don't have room for anyone elses' stuff in my closet!! LOL
I have 2 closets full of clothes. And these are my current skinny clothes... I SWORE I wouldn't go overboard again... but I did... and that's not counting the dresser drawers either....
One closet contains the pants and short sleeve shirts. The other closet contains the dresses, sweaters and long sleeved shirts.
Of course the bottom of the closets are littered with shoes....
I don't think I could ever marry again because I just don't have room for anyone elses' stuff in my closet!! LOL
HW-218/SW-208/CW-126/ Lowest Weight-121/Goal-125 - hit 8/23/09/Height-5'3"
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okkk girlssss, i can top you allk with how much clothes i own lolol when my son moved to manhatten his 9x12 room became a closet for me i have an h-track one like tj maxx has or marshalls has clothes filled plus over 100 pairs of shoes and 3 crates of all diff length boots including silver and gold lololol i even have a hat rack then i have a walk in closet tripe hung
i have all my clothes by color code light to dark lolol sleeve lengths etc im nutssssss im also a virgoooo lolool
i have all my clothes by color code light to dark lolol sleeve lengths etc im nutssssss im also a virgoooo lolool
see ya lighter,
Toni
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on 10/14/10 7:37 am, edited 10/14/10 7:39 am
on 10/14/10 7:37 am, edited 10/14/10 7:39 am
Wow !!! sound s like U even might have ME beat Toni and THATS Remarkable LOL !!!!
I could literally stock a small department store with what i have here in my CURRENT size alone !!! WOW !!
well i guess ill never have to go shopping again , LOL .....
I still cant quite figure out what i was thinking .... well probably something along the lines of really nice clothes make me look ATTRACTIVE and DESIREABLE despite being buxom ..... and other ones dont .
And Im not skinny enough to mismatch .......and look cute and young doing it ...
of course now all that has totally changed for all of us
....
I could literally stock a small department store with what i have here in my CURRENT size alone !!! WOW !!
well i guess ill never have to go shopping again , LOL .....
I still cant quite figure out what i was thinking .... well probably something along the lines of really nice clothes make me look ATTRACTIVE and DESIREABLE despite being buxom ..... and other ones dont .
And Im not skinny enough to mismatch .......and look cute and young doing it ...
of course now all that has totally changed for all of us
.... 
Wait! I'm trying to keep up! lol Congratulations on your upcoming wedding! Of course we will want PICTURES!!!
Take care of that healing nose and rest a little bit, babeee.
--gina
Take care of that healing nose and rest a little bit, babeee.
--gina
5'1" -- HW 195/SW 187/GW 115 July 08/CW 121 Dec 2012
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Yes Ava, PICTURES. I need to see pics of what you'll be wearing at the wedding and pics of the lucky man and pics of those newly cleaned out spaces and pics of your recovering nose too!
Now Toni, I think I hate you over all that closet space! I have bags around my bedroom that need to be given away, sold, donated, dumped. Living in a small condo definitely doesn't afford the luxury of multiple size clothing.
Now Toni, I think I hate you over all that closet space! I have bags around my bedroom that need to be given away, sold, donated, dumped. Living in a small condo definitely doesn't afford the luxury of multiple size clothing.
HW: 249 SW: 229 GW: 149 Age: 63 - Body by Sauceda - 12/2011
Don't think I am being negative, Ava, but is he your Beshert? I know you were having doubts not long ago.
If he is, then I am thrilled for you. You are an inspiration to me the way you have tackled all your issues head-on.
Many blessings,
Katrina
If he is, then I am thrilled for you. You are an inspiration to me the way you have tackled all your issues head-on.
Many blessings,
Katrina
I am 4" 11" HW: 207 SW: 190 CW: 163 Surgery date: 9/23/10
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