OT It is a cruel, cruel world (Letting off steam)

Food no longer brings me comfort. Everywhere I look people talk about comfort food. I try to eat comfort food and all I get is a stomach ache, bad gas and fear I will gain weight.
I am still unemployed after 12 months. I had a conditional job offer from a Federal Agency and was denied employment due to something from one of my previous employers. They didn't even send me a letter, a HR person called and said the HR manager and department manager had a meeting and decided they could not hire me. She would not elaborate. I passed credentialing and physical and everything. She said I had no recourse.  I am in shock, I have no idea what it can be. I have never had any problems before. I have written a formal request for information, but heaven knows when I will hear something. I am looking at my last 4 weeks of unemployment benefits.
Today I received an email from another application I put out to an insurance company the end of July. They were requesting I fill in an additional on-line information, which I did. I received a call at 5pm from 'Chad', who asked if I had been contacted and then nothing. I asked him if this was leading to an interview and he said it was just the office (in my local city) "reaching out to you" and that was all he would say.
It is a cruel cruel world and I just can't take this kind of high anxiety any more. I made an appointment with a psyc. councilor for the 18Th of the month. I have never abused medication before, but I am considering it. I have xanax and I feel I need a really really big pill. -Just kidding, but really I am overwhelmed and just spouting off. Please do not feel you need to reply, I just need to unload.

Vent all you need to, that's why we are here. 

Sorry to hear you are going through such a difficult time.  Hope something comes your way.  Get it off your chest, don't keep it in.

Vent away.  I'm sorry you are going through this. Vent as much as you want.  

I'm really sorry, and really grateful you're reaching out for the help you need.

I pray that things turn around for you very soon.

so sorry ur going thru this last few weeks left of unemployment is extremely stressful. but i dont understand your previous employer has no right to say anything negative about you its ilegal im pretty sure all they are allowed to do is tell dates from when to when thats it how dare them say anything . and it would be really great if u can try and find out why cuz if it happened to this job it may happen again in the next jobs to come id try and put a stop to it. grrrrrrrr ****** me off

Just sending out some support!
Vent away, dont hold it in.

Thank you all that posted for your support. I am touched you took the time.

Here's a virtual hug {{{hug}}}} and sending prayers for you.

Blessings,
Kat70

 Comfort food my big butt !!  

All the comfort food bought me was not being able to fit into my clothes .... being embarassed  and feeling  unattractive  socially  ..... DEFINITELY feeling uncomfortable  on my doctor's  scale ...and being lectured about my failing health ...

BUY  a CASHMERE THROW  if U want a comforter ... or a loving Persian kitten to greet  U at the door and dance in delight as if U were the second coming ... 

And by the way ..all those  " comfort foods "for fall  ...squash  ... pumpkin ..theyre healthful... U CAN make  the same exact tatstes healthfully   with  splenda , fatfree  evaporated milk or  powdered fatfree milk  and butter buds ( andfat free  promise margarine as a substitute  real fat ) ..... 

just give me the recipe  ... ill be happy to send it back to U modified lol ... 

its not about deprivation ..its about  balance , loving and EATING ur healthful food  but then also LIVING  and  LOVING LIFE  in between meals !!!