Menus and Miles Sunday October 3rd
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on 10/3/10 10:55 pm, edited 10/3/10 11:13 pm
on 10/3/10 10:55 pm, edited 10/3/10 11:13 pm
Ok ...U guys know to look at the source ..but in my opinion U CANT ask Ur body to run nine miles on no carbs lol . I know mine would rebel .... thats 4 sure ...even if i ran it that day I sure wouldnt be running it the NEXT without a replenishment of my glycogen stores i suspect .... but what do I know ..im learning new things all the time thank God.
For instance Im finally getting that i spoil my body rotten and probably my mind too...lol. Im actually PLAYING with the idea that as a form of discipline i wait 10 minutes to eat when i want to just to prove to myself that i CAN that i wont DIE if i dont stuff my face RIGHT NOW ....hmmm
In the past i have been SOO resistant to reigning the rampant inner child in ....im not sure why i want to do this except to maybe teach her gently that its OK to wait , that it wont kill her .
I suspect the ( significant ) discipline of waiting to eat Kosher food is one of the keys to why OA works so fast and so thoroughly in the religious Jewish community from what ive seen... maybe because people are already used to the idea that food or hunger doesnt rule YOU .
It sure FEELS frightening not to be taken care of ....but the issue with me and food always been that i ( over ) eat to get to the emotional happy place not to fuel my body ....
For me food is the hugs and kisses i never got as a child ...all the longing i had every night when i would dream of a warm soft pet next to me in my cold hard bed .... i dreamed of TOUCH and someone who LOVED me .
I guess I should be grateful there wasnt someone in my house who loved me Wrong ..U know ....there are LOTS of overeatig ladies ( and gents ) with that issue too ....
Anyway Im finding as OA helps me examine my motives for eating every bite of food that goes into my mouth ....that im gobbling less , chewing and tasting more .... and conversely enjoying more while eating less calories..... and generally ratcheting down my food intake, particularly of mindless carbs .
Frankly , i just dont crave or want them as much now that Im actually talking about the emotional issues that drive the cravings ....
Eating over them seems so pointless and self destructive ... much easier just to talk out the issue and extricate the poison don't U think ?
And isnt it about TIME i got on with my life and stopped dweiling in the painful past and allowing myself to be hampered and handicapped by it ? Acch the YEARS of
WASTED time !!
and on that note , yesterday i had a plateful of homemade apple crumble ..ok it was large ly sugar free , high protein , high fiber and i ate it SLOWWLY as snacks throughout a LOOONG day .... but i still see the problem with " good "carbs and excellent desserts ....
they basically make U want more a few hours later . Its got to be the insulin release
and this morning i was afraid to get back on the scale ...thats NOT a good feeling ,.....
2 protein teas
sf fatfree apple crumble from night before ( basically i ended up eating the whole enormous pot alone )
indian food from whole food for dinner ( just a few bites )
innards of a chicken ceasar sadwich for lunch ( long workday )
popcorn late at night
actually that not that dreadful .. except it was a LOT of crumble .... basically a whole BATCH Of oatmeal cookies and a bag of gala apples .....
Lets NOT do that again ;(
ON the POSITIVE note ....I weighed 125 TWICE in a week and a half !!! and i rode that darn scale ALL around the room like a possessed WITCH the second time to make sure i wasnt just seeing wishful thinking happy numbers .
Now i know to many of U spolied rotten losing-weight like gangbusters chix lol ....5 lbs in as many months would never count as a victory but trust me GRRLFRIENDS .. for this resistant loser who was infinitely grateful just not to REGAIN for a while .... it feel s MIRACULOUS .
And BTW ....im fitting ( OK theyre TIGHT ) into size 0 runway skirts , buttoned and zipped!!!! YAY !! ( lets not talk about the considerable flubber on the top though .... lol ) For me getting to and maintaining 125 comfortably through the stress of dealing with Asbury Park , not being able to exercise , healing from surgery , And doing steps in OA .... OH YEAH ... that s a MIRACLE .....
the last time i was 125 without BARFING everything i ate was in the 6th grade i think .....
For instance Im finally getting that i spoil my body rotten and probably my mind too...lol. Im actually PLAYING with the idea that as a form of discipline i wait 10 minutes to eat when i want to just to prove to myself that i CAN that i wont DIE if i dont stuff my face RIGHT NOW ....hmmm
In the past i have been SOO resistant to reigning the rampant inner child in ....im not sure why i want to do this except to maybe teach her gently that its OK to wait , that it wont kill her .
I suspect the ( significant ) discipline of waiting to eat Kosher food is one of the keys to why OA works so fast and so thoroughly in the religious Jewish community from what ive seen... maybe because people are already used to the idea that food or hunger doesnt rule YOU .
It sure FEELS frightening not to be taken care of ....but the issue with me and food always been that i ( over ) eat to get to the emotional happy place not to fuel my body ....
For me food is the hugs and kisses i never got as a child ...all the longing i had every night when i would dream of a warm soft pet next to me in my cold hard bed .... i dreamed of TOUCH and someone who LOVED me .
I guess I should be grateful there wasnt someone in my house who loved me Wrong ..U know ....there are LOTS of overeatig ladies ( and gents ) with that issue too ....
Anyway Im finding as OA helps me examine my motives for eating every bite of food that goes into my mouth ....that im gobbling less , chewing and tasting more .... and conversely enjoying more while eating less calories..... and generally ratcheting down my food intake, particularly of mindless carbs .
Frankly , i just dont crave or want them as much now that Im actually talking about the emotional issues that drive the cravings ....
Eating over them seems so pointless and self destructive ... much easier just to talk out the issue and extricate the poison don't U think ?
And isnt it about TIME i got on with my life and stopped dweiling in the painful past and allowing myself to be hampered and handicapped by it ? Acch the YEARS of
WASTED time !! and on that note , yesterday i had a plateful of homemade apple crumble ..ok it was large ly sugar free , high protein , high fiber and i ate it SLOWWLY as snacks throughout a LOOONG day .... but i still see the problem with " good "carbs and excellent desserts ....
they basically make U want more a few hours later . Its got to be the insulin release
and this morning i was afraid to get back on the scale ...thats NOT a good feeling ,.....
2 protein teas
sf fatfree apple crumble from night before ( basically i ended up eating the whole enormous pot alone )
indian food from whole food for dinner ( just a few bites )
innards of a chicken ceasar sadwich for lunch ( long workday )
popcorn late at night
actually that not that dreadful .. except it was a LOT of crumble .... basically a whole BATCH Of oatmeal cookies and a bag of gala apples .....
Lets NOT do that again ;(
ON the POSITIVE note ....I weighed 125 TWICE in a week and a half !!! and i rode that darn scale ALL around the room like a possessed WITCH the second time to make sure i wasnt just seeing wishful thinking happy numbers .
Now i know to many of U spolied rotten losing-weight like gangbusters chix lol ....5 lbs in as many months would never count as a victory but trust me GRRLFRIENDS .. for this resistant loser who was infinitely grateful just not to REGAIN for a while .... it feel s MIRACULOUS .
And BTW ....im fitting ( OK theyre TIGHT ) into size 0 runway skirts , buttoned and zipped!!!! YAY !! ( lets not talk about the considerable flubber on the top though .... lol ) For me getting to and maintaining 125 comfortably through the stress of dealing with Asbury Park , not being able to exercise , healing from surgery , And doing steps in OA .... OH YEAH ... that s a MIRACLE .....
the last time i was 125 without BARFING everything i ate was in the 6th grade i think .....
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