Need Hugs

Ok, guess it's confession time...I secretly started smoking again a few months ago. I fell right back into it, and couldn't quit. I don't need the smoking lecture, I know it is a horrible habit, plus it is not easy to be a runner and a smoker, but I somehow do it.

Next, I couldn't quit on my own, so I got another prescription for Chantix (which is how I quit in the first place. It is affecting me so horribly this time! Last time I had the mood swings and mental side affects, this time I am throwing up, constipated, hungry all the time, gained two pounds, can't sleep, no energy, foggy brained, stiff and sore, I could go on and on.

So I have decided not to take that evil drug anymore. I'm going to fight to quit the cigs on my own (I am down from a pack a day to two a day right now). Bottom line, and I'm sure this is a horrible way of looking at things, but I would rather smoke, be thin, and be able to work out, than not smoke and feel like I'm on drugs and could fall on my face at any moment.

Like I said, I don't need the lecture, just the usual support I get here. I haven't been on in a few days, mostly because of the severe issues I am having, and wasn't ready to talk about it because I hate to admit when I mess up.

I'm off to cook dinner for the fam, and then to CPR class for my nursing school admission folder. (I hope I can stay awake until 10pm, then the hour drive home from the class-time for a protein coffee I think)

Hugs, girl.  Don't beat yourself up.  Now this is coming from someone who started smoking again too!!!  I feel your pain.  We will lick it when we can.  I agree, I don't want the "lecture".  I'm on Nicorette...but now addicted to it!!!  It will be alright.

Thanks. I am mostly freaking about the 2lb gain and being waaaay too tired to work out. I hate that. Working out makes me feel so good.

I'm sorry you're having to go through this, Shannon! Addictions are really really hard. You can do this, because you "can do hard things" (as they say on the RNY board) - in fact, you do all the time!

I don't think that we need to expect that we accomplish everything all at once. You've changed so much in this past several months. Just take it a day at a time and you will make it. Because you can do hard things!

Thank you! That is true, we do hard things all the time. I've done things recently I never knew I could do. I'm gonna have to do it on my own, because the "magic drug" sucks.

No lecture from me.  I have been quit (smoking) for 3 years now and still miss it!  I know that if I smoked now that the last ten pounds and maintenance would not be an issue, but I'm fighting not to give in.  My husband has been quit for about 6 months but is sneaking them and I can smell them  and want one!!!!

Good luck!

ETA  Much needed hugs!

See, you understand the struggle. Weight vs. smoking. It's horrible. Did you just quit on your own?

I certainly do understand the struggle.  I used Nicoderm inhalers and really found them to be a great help.

I'm quitting, too. I am on Chantix and I have cut down from 2 packs a day to 1/2 a pack. When these cigarettes are gone I am quitting. I'm trying not to worry about the weight. I just can't afford to buy them anymore. My income got cut and there is no choice. I don't enjoy them now but I am smoking because I can. My motivation isn't strong except for the money part. Good luck to you. I know you can do it.

Hey...just wanted to tell you I tried the Chantix too...and if the goal was too be so sick you couldnt smoke, it worked. I took it one day, and was so nauseated I couldnt hold my head up...The nicotine patches work really well for me, but nothing replaces that calming feeling of smoking....at least i havent found it. Chin up, i dont know anyone that quit the first time they said they would...its a terrible addiction because its tied to so many things....