Oh wow a New Year's MIRACLE !

 Ive been feeling GREAT .... and kind of useless too... using a LOT less energy for the usual negative stuff ( making and eating and working off excess calories  takes a LOT of time !!  ) .

Suddenly ... i started to draw .  Ive been so totally BLOCKED for so long artistically I just cant believe it ....im as  happy as a monkey with  its tail like they say in Hungarian...

Happy , Grateful , Joyful.... tears come to my eyes because Ive missed MYSELF so much  all these years ... oh I cant tell U how much I regret all these years ive allowed to pass without making art ..and how i cry for the work i could have and should have made and fulfillment and self esteem ( and income !) i could and should have had....

but its OK ....im here today , im putting pen to paper , letting go of the results ,  maybe, just maybe, ENJOYING a tiny bit ...... 

Excellent! Rock on, babeee!

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 I'm happy for you. Creativity is one thing I have lost behind my excess pounds. Sounds like you have broken through.

Here's to a new year and a new you!
Enjoy!
Maria

What a great stress outlet -- I've often considered taking an art class. Enjoy yourself and be creative!

 Happy New YOU Ava!  You're almost one year out from surgery and look at how much you've learned and grown.  I'm so proud of you!

I too have been very challenged to open up with artwork.  I'm planning to go back to ceramics next spring when I have more time.  Sometimes I take out art supplies and just look at them.  One of these days I'll actually pick them up and start using them.  

Yay for being happy as a monkey!  It sounds like your OA sponsor is helping you in many ways.  :)

 yeah OA  REALLY  is helping ..more  than I ever imagined it could in the past .  

Maybe because the surgery finally has let me focus on something else other than just losing weight ....?  

Maybe because I can finally SEE  the reward of eating abstinently even after a couple of days ....Im not sure but im suddenly handling business stuff and financial stuff a lot better .. eating well... doing it with grace .... even considering  cleaning out my closets , getting professional hanging racks and moving my entire  design business across the street to my ( essentially ) empty apartment . 

NOw thats a no- brainer right ?  so why didnt I think of it BEFORE  ?!!    I think if this place were  less cluttered  I DEFINITELY would produce art....

 So thrilled for you Ava! I'm really glad you are able to enjoy your art again. 

Hugs, 

Congrats Ava!  I'm glad to hear you are coming to terms with your eating, yourself, and finding positive ways to funnel your energy.  Its not an easy thing to do!

That's awesome! I really feel so connected to my inner soul when I allow myself time to be creative. It is part of who we are. It is like reconnecting to an old friend. I am so happy for you. Enjoy your ME time. Let JOY fill your heart!