Do you ever have one of those "eat all day" days?
I am having one today. bleh.
I'm not eating junk but I am so tired and kinda down so I am eating. I had a pickle, 2 string cheese, banana, tangelo, refried beans with cheese. and quaker granola cereal for breakfast. Not ALL for breakfast but this is what I have eaten all day. And for dinner....coconut shrmip. At least I don't keep candy, cookies, cake, chips etc in the house or it would not be pretty.
I'm not eating junk but I am so tired and kinda down so I am eating. I had a pickle, 2 string cheese, banana, tangelo, refried beans with cheese. and quaker granola cereal for breakfast. Not ALL for breakfast but this is what I have eaten all day. And for dinner....coconut shrmip. At least I don't keep candy, cookies, cake, chips etc in the house or it would not be pretty.
HW 268/SW 255/CW 150/GW 160
Yep - I go there often....
That's when I get bored usually...
I have chips....
That's when I get bored usually...
I have chips....
HW-218/SW-208/CW-126/ Lowest Weight-121/Goal-125 - hit 8/23/09/Height-5'3"
Regain 30 lbs from 2012 to 2016 - got back on track and lost it. Took 8 months.
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on 8/26/10 9:17 pm, edited 8/26/10 9:20 pm
on 8/26/10 9:17 pm, edited 8/26/10 9:20 pm
Oh yeah.....thats the thing thats making me go to OA meetings every darn day now. See , its not NORMAL to have the urge to stuff yer face when Ure not hungry , when Ure STUFFED even ...to want to eat more and more .
Unfortunately , despite my eating all the RIGHT things and exercising , with the habit of using extra food as entertainment or emotional solace - I WILL NEVER BE AND STAY THIN!!!
And U know what .. Ill be darned if I DONT . I have wasted so many years in the darn food .getting and using and purging, then repeating the cycle over and over endlessly ... I dont want that to be the defining script for the REST of my life . Even now that I DONT binge ( thank God ) I still have the URGE to ... and the urge to GRAZE doesnt EVER stop . GRRRR
The GOOD thing is I know OA exists , that the meetings are readily available and that the steps , written out and taken seriously in my case , WORK to relieve the internal pressure to compulsively overeat , thank God .
I have writen steps one through three TWICE ( using workbooks , both OA and ACOA ) and shared each days writing with a sponsor and I was AMAZED at the strides I made eating wise ,and how that pressure relieved PERMANENTLY .
I came from a place where as a child I never did NOT have something in my mouth , then as a teenager and young adult where I was eating like a five hundred pound person ( probably more actually ) binging and throwing up five to seven times a day .
The fact that OA ratcheted such a SEVERE addiction down and ALMOST stopped the overeating altogether is a true testament to the power of ( Maimonides' ) wonderful twelve step program.
NO , the steps were not written by a drunk named Dr. Bill in the early twentieth century - they were plagiarized word for word from th great twelfth century sage Maimonides' Torah commentaries that Dr. Bill studied when he was at Harvard . No wonder the jerk died a drunk - he could never bring himself to admit what he did ! ( but im sure many people KNEW LOL ) . Incidentally Maimonides was the head court physician to the Sultan of the Arab world at the time he wrote the steps .
The reason I point this out is because there is a kind of cultlike aspect to some twelve step meetings that scares people away - where people get caught up in making meetings in order not to drink and use .., and fail to move past that and forge a productive life for many years if ever .
That was never Maimonides' intention. Within the framework of Torah study the steps read as a simple how to course how to stop addiction ...and then the Torah itself provides the blueprint to how to live your best , happiest and most productive life . The fact that it works is borne out by the obvious success of the Jewish people over thousands of years .
The SECOND I start the self examination and brutal honesty required by OA steps my eating urges escalate ....I want to HIDE emotionally . I also procrastinate more than usual work wise ....etc, and often even refuse to exercise ......this is the part that drives me CRAZY .
Unlike in years past ,I am determined to work WITH OA ( and even a therapist if necessary ) and get PAST these horrible self indulgent and self destructive habits darn it ..... Its time to LOVE MYSELF , its time to GROW UP and seriously try to achieve my dreams ..... its time to be the best and most productive Ava I can possibly be . I am doing my best on an everyday basis to get out of my own way , YAY !!
Unfortunately , despite my eating all the RIGHT things and exercising , with the habit of using extra food as entertainment or emotional solace - I WILL NEVER BE AND STAY THIN!!!
And U know what .. Ill be darned if I DONT . I have wasted so many years in the darn food .getting and using and purging, then repeating the cycle over and over endlessly ... I dont want that to be the defining script for the REST of my life . Even now that I DONT binge ( thank God ) I still have the URGE to ... and the urge to GRAZE doesnt EVER stop . GRRRR
The GOOD thing is I know OA exists , that the meetings are readily available and that the steps , written out and taken seriously in my case , WORK to relieve the internal pressure to compulsively overeat , thank God .
I have writen steps one through three TWICE ( using workbooks , both OA and ACOA ) and shared each days writing with a sponsor and I was AMAZED at the strides I made eating wise ,and how that pressure relieved PERMANENTLY .
I came from a place where as a child I never did NOT have something in my mouth , then as a teenager and young adult where I was eating like a five hundred pound person ( probably more actually ) binging and throwing up five to seven times a day .
The fact that OA ratcheted such a SEVERE addiction down and ALMOST stopped the overeating altogether is a true testament to the power of ( Maimonides' ) wonderful twelve step program.
NO , the steps were not written by a drunk named Dr. Bill in the early twentieth century - they were plagiarized word for word from th great twelfth century sage Maimonides' Torah commentaries that Dr. Bill studied when he was at Harvard . No wonder the jerk died a drunk - he could never bring himself to admit what he did ! ( but im sure many people KNEW LOL ) . Incidentally Maimonides was the head court physician to the Sultan of the Arab world at the time he wrote the steps .
The reason I point this out is because there is a kind of cultlike aspect to some twelve step meetings that scares people away - where people get caught up in making meetings in order not to drink and use .., and fail to move past that and forge a productive life for many years if ever .
That was never Maimonides' intention. Within the framework of Torah study the steps read as a simple how to course how to stop addiction ...and then the Torah itself provides the blueprint to how to live your best , happiest and most productive life . The fact that it works is borne out by the obvious success of the Jewish people over thousands of years .
The SECOND I start the self examination and brutal honesty required by OA steps my eating urges escalate ....I want to HIDE emotionally . I also procrastinate more than usual work wise ....etc, and often even refuse to exercise ......this is the part that drives me CRAZY .
Unlike in years past ,I am determined to work WITH OA ( and even a therapist if necessary ) and get PAST these horrible self indulgent and self destructive habits darn it ..... Its time to LOVE MYSELF , its time to GROW UP and seriously try to achieve my dreams ..... its time to be the best and most productive Ava I can possibly be . I am doing my best on an everyday basis to get out of my own way , YAY !!
Yeah I have them as well. I dont eat junk, but graze all day on healthy/protein rich foods. But then I also have days where I feel like Im right out of surgery and cant finish a normal serving. So I would like to think those days balance themselves out. Cindy
Surgery March 2, 2010 - 5' 9" - HW 278 / SW 260 / CW 139 / GW 150
I have them sometimes too! Unfortunately, I do have some junk food ocassionally when DH buys it. Chips are my downfall. I have found these Rice Snacks that are kind of like chips with different flavors the count is not too bad on them and I feel safer with them because they will fill me up quickly.
I am usually bored also when I do this kind of stuff. Night time is the worse for me.
I am usually bored also when I do this kind of stuff. Night time is the worse for me.
14.5 lost pre-surgery 5'1 1/2"
Yes. Can't scratch the itch,whatever it is.
Salty thing? No, that's not it. Sweet? Yuck. Crunchy? No, not quite so yogurt? Not right.
Other days, don't want anything. Nothing appeals. s/f popsicle, nutritional value 0, but it fit what I needed right then. I get protein vites in every day, no matter my mood
Salty thing? No, that's not it. Sweet? Yuck. Crunchy? No, not quite so yogurt? Not right.
Other days, don't want anything. Nothing appeals. s/f popsicle, nutritional value 0, but it fit what I needed right then. I get protein vites in every day, no matter my mood
Michelle
RNY, distal, 10/5/94
P.S. My year + long absence has NOTHING to do with my WLS, or my type of WLS. See my profile.
I had a bored day today and ate in a way that I don't generally.
Regular breakfast and then I had a very small lunch while I was out. I should have eaten more than a little bit of roasted eggplant. When i got home I had 94% fat free popcorn at around 4 and that was dinner. The popcorn was definitely bored eating while I watched a movie. I know that if I'd had dense protein for lunch I wouldn't have gotten the munchies.
Regular breakfast and then I had a very small lunch while I was out. I should have eaten more than a little bit of roasted eggplant. When i got home I had 94% fat free popcorn at around 4 and that was dinner. The popcorn was definitely bored eating while I watched a movie. I know that if I'd had dense protein for lunch I wouldn't have gotten the munchies.
HW: 249 SW: 229 GW: 149 Age: 63 - Body by Sauceda - 12/2011
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