Good Morning. I had the strangest dream
Ever have a crazy dream like that?
--gina
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DS on Aug 9, 2007 with Dr. Hazem Elariny
on 8/12/10 8:32 pm
but the truth ( coming from someone who has caretaken people her virtually her whole life ) is that what we can do from the outside rarely affects the path people choose except very temporarily .
The Chinese would call it fate .
To them, you only interfere in someones fate ( ie save their life if you can ) if youre willing to take them on as a burden for the rest of their life .... which can also mean a significant energy and time investment for the rest of YOURS .
Theres a lot of truth in these age old theories Ive found as a person who used to compulsively "rescue" and " help " everyone I could regardless of the consequences for myself.
I was always utterly surprised how fast their lives returned to their pre- Ava chaos the second i stopped focusing on them too .
Now i focus on ME ..and invest my precious irreplacable time and energy on improving MY life rather than helping others in some vain wait for someone else to turn around and care about me or help me after Ive helped them .
I realize I wasn't put on this earth to solve other peoples chronic problems ... but rather to make great art and to make a contribution to society as a whole rather than improving the day to day life of unappreciative , messed up individuals who are incapable of caring about me since they care so little ( usually ) about themselves .
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Like others posted, you still have a strong remembrance of Dee and added to the cold medication, those subconcious presence of her came abreast in a vivid dream.
The cool part is that you got to hug her. You are cool and caring even in your dreams babeeeeeee.
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