wow moment ANYWAY
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on 8/11/10 10:04 pm
on 8/11/10 10:04 pm
U know ..the body is such a WEIRD thing .... because sometimes I think I havent really made profound enough changes since WLS to MATTER ....and then i get reminded by a wow moment that I really DID ( though nowhere near ENOUGH regrettably ) .
Im exercising today in an outfit i could only dream of wearing and looking good in a few years ago ... those little juniors hip hugger jean shorts that emphasize every muffin top and core-roll and an athletic bra .
A year ago I would have had to ( somewhat ) disguise the core fluffiness with artfully baggy shorts - now standing up I look almost acceptable . Siting down... well thats another matter altogether lol .
Isnt it funny that though Ive lost 100 lbs I still feel like I look the SAME ?! seriously strange .... and i swear to U people ( men in particular ) dont treat me all that differently either . I guess I was a decent looking plus size chick lol.... with an EXCELLENT wardrobe .
The big difference now is I can put on a five dollar top and nine dollar juniors bottom and still look great .... whereas before it was designer designer designer .... hmmm. I would also try on 5 outfits to find one that made me look smaller .... whereas now im looking decent in just about everything ... like a model needs to .
Anyway ....this show tomorrow is gonna be interesting . Ill see if I even LIKE walking shows now and the workouts necessary to get ready for them..... ( not that this is a REAL show ... but its a decent little -pressure dress rehearsal ) . So far Im managing to integrate the workouts into my otherwise pretty stressful and busy working and personal life YAY !!
I really really enjoy looking good and show - worthy for its OWN sake actually .. I guess I just love having dancers lines and grace .... the FEW and far between times i can actually remember ever getting there in my whole entire life lol .
The truth is ive struggled daily with my weight since literally as long as I can remember ( one of my first memories is how can I get my Grandma to give me MORE milk.... ) . I wish i could just wake up and eat like a normal person and not worry about gaining a pound a day ;lol- which my body is clearly still quite capable of .
I wish i didnt have to torture myself with endless half- day long workouts .... and I tell myself this is truly only TEMPORARY ..that I WILL get to a point where I can exercise less to maintain a great body ..... i sure hope it will be TRUE because its darn hard to work a twelve hour day on a set , look perfect , then run 10 miles the next morning and work a twelve hour day again .
Thats what I used to have to do when i modeled n acted before .....and one of the main reasons I could only work fora few months before getting exhausted and stopping . Hopefully liposuction ( when i can afford it ) will help in this regard .. something has to .... .
Im gonna keep praying for the money and the surgeon to finally make it happen and for God to give me a chance to really excel ... at long last
Im exercising today in an outfit i could only dream of wearing and looking good in a few years ago ... those little juniors hip hugger jean shorts that emphasize every muffin top and core-roll and an athletic bra .
A year ago I would have had to ( somewhat ) disguise the core fluffiness with artfully baggy shorts - now standing up I look almost acceptable . Siting down... well thats another matter altogether lol .
Isnt it funny that though Ive lost 100 lbs I still feel like I look the SAME ?! seriously strange .... and i swear to U people ( men in particular ) dont treat me all that differently either . I guess I was a decent looking plus size chick lol.... with an EXCELLENT wardrobe .
The big difference now is I can put on a five dollar top and nine dollar juniors bottom and still look great .... whereas before it was designer designer designer .... hmmm. I would also try on 5 outfits to find one that made me look smaller .... whereas now im looking decent in just about everything ... like a model needs to .
Anyway ....this show tomorrow is gonna be interesting . Ill see if I even LIKE walking shows now and the workouts necessary to get ready for them..... ( not that this is a REAL show ... but its a decent little -pressure dress rehearsal ) . So far Im managing to integrate the workouts into my otherwise pretty stressful and busy working and personal life YAY !!
I really really enjoy looking good and show - worthy for its OWN sake actually .. I guess I just love having dancers lines and grace .... the FEW and far between times i can actually remember ever getting there in my whole entire life lol .
The truth is ive struggled daily with my weight since literally as long as I can remember ( one of my first memories is how can I get my Grandma to give me MORE milk.... ) . I wish i could just wake up and eat like a normal person and not worry about gaining a pound a day ;lol- which my body is clearly still quite capable of .
I wish i didnt have to torture myself with endless half- day long workouts .... and I tell myself this is truly only TEMPORARY ..that I WILL get to a point where I can exercise less to maintain a great body ..... i sure hope it will be TRUE because its darn hard to work a twelve hour day on a set , look perfect , then run 10 miles the next morning and work a twelve hour day again .
Thats what I used to have to do when i modeled n acted before .....and one of the main reasons I could only work fora few months before getting exhausted and stopping . Hopefully liposuction ( when i can afford it ) will help in this regard .. something has to .... .
Im gonna keep praying for the money and the surgeon to finally make it happen and for God to give me a chance to really excel ... at long last
Ava - what did you decided to do regarding modeling for your surgeon's office? Is this the one you're doing now?
HW-218/SW-208/CW-126/ Lowest Weight-121/Goal-125 - hit 8/23/09/Height-5'3"
Regain 30 lbs from 2012 to 2016 - got back on track and lost it. Took 8 months.
90+/- pounds lost BMI - 24 or so
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I feel bad that you struggle everyday. Most of us don't have the pressure of having to be a certain size or weight in order to fulfill our dreams. I hope you can get to that point so you can start enjoying life.
Even though I weigh myself every morning...If I lose a pound or gain a pound I really don't think much about it anymore. Now, if I went over my 3 pound limit, I would probably panic, but I know what to do now to get if off so it would be just a little panic.
(((HUGS)))
!!!!I feel bad that you struggle everyday. Most of us don't have the pressure of having to be a certain size or weight in order to fulfill our dreams. I hope you can get to that point so you can start enjoying life.
Even though I weigh myself every morning...If I lose a pound or gain a pound I really don't think much about it anymore. Now, if I went over my 3 pound limit, I would probably panic, but I know what to do now to get if off so it would be just a little panic.
(((HUGS)))
Roz
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RNY 10/15/2008 9+ Years!!! Height: 4' 11" HW: 203 SW: 197 CW: 119 on Maintenance
Ava, First I want to say I really enjoy your posts and look to see if your around everyday, I don't always respond but I do follow your posts and feel like I am getting to know you a bit. There are many here that I feel that way about! I just want to say I hope you are thinking long term about health issues and in losing weight or even too much. The pressure you must feel .....I worry that you might be hurt by someones idea of how you should look. I don't know you so I am just saying I hope your careful with that. You look great and have a fantastic personality so if I am outa line I'm sorry I said this , I just worry about people sometimes.
Jeff 
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