Taking Forever....

Hi All, I am not really new, but I hardly ever post. I keep trying to find people who are in my situation. I am in the "process", I have gotten my Upper GI, Pysch consult, and I will be on my third of six required supervised weight loss visits. But I am having a ton of emotions. I feel eager, like I want it right now and the days can't go bye fast enough, also that I am eating "lately" worse than ever. In my head I think well I am borderline to getting the surgery so if I gain a couple pounds it will just look better (5'9, 269)? Does that make since? I feel like it is a very personal situation and family members are saying I don't need the surgery. (Thanks Mom -for telling everyone, when I wanted to keep it quiet until I felt ready to let people know). Anyway My husband is a help and a henderance, he says I should work with weights as to try to avoid any sagging skin (30yr) and then he brings me Ben & Jerry Chubby Hubby ice cream and its like in the moment I want it, then I think why did I eat that, I know I am suppose to be training myself to excersie and eat better. I did give up Diet Pepsi (which I drank like it was air) and coffee, I was working out 35 min every other day until I came down with a cold and I have slacked to just about 15 to 20 min but if feel like I know I have to give up the sweets and so I think mentally I am consuming more because I know that once I have the surgery that will all have to change. But I realize I have to train myself now in order to truly be successful and keep the weight off. Anyway summer is here and I am going up, up, up in my weight, I'm out growing my already fat clothes, it just sucks, I guess I'm in a funk, all I do is read the post but I would like to hear more from pre op people that aren't looking at surgery (if approved****il Oct. Nov. Oh, buy the way me and my sister are doing this together, we have helped each other and it is really nice to go through this process together. Anyway thanks for letting me vent, any advice is appreciated. Sorry for the LLLLLLLong post

My date is July 19.....Sorry no advice as of what to see or feel with it.My husband is the same way though. I am 30 very soon to be 31....two boys and yes I gained about 10 ponds since I got my date....Same reason as you as well. Shame on your mom.........Ok had to put that in there. I feel for you and do understand what you are feeling I to felt the same way as you. I am still up and down on a daily basis. email me anytime [email protected] great you have your sister. Is she going though the same type of emotions? Melissa

Thanks all for responding and sharing, I really grateful! Thanks for the lift.

Erica; Don't you just love moms? Mine did the same thing with my surgery. I'm 7 months post-op. I know it's hard right now, but keep plugging along, because being on the other side is waaaay better than I even dreamed it could be. Congrats on going through the process with your sister. It's great to have someone going through exactly the same experiences to keep you up when you're down. Blessings, Jennifer 253 / 166 / 137

Hi Erica, I am not new to OH, but I am fairly new to this board....and you have found a person that is/was in your situation. I started my WLS journey about 2 years ago, got scared and quit the process, and restarted the process last year after gaining 60lbs within the year. My mother was the same, telling everybody that I am seeking to have this surgery and would not do a thing for me if I mentioned WLS. She had gotten so bad, that she turned my children against me and WLS. I have finally managed to get them on the right page with me as to why I am having WLS. After all my testing was done,Psych eval., sleep study, consults, nutritionist,...etc....I was so ready to have this surgery. Got approved in 2 days, and the gate opened to start the race. But, I just seemed to just sit there. I could not get any of my clearance letters in. My surgeon decided to schedule a date for 8/24, which was my 32nd birthday, thinking that would hurry along the clearances. But to no avail, that did not work. Rescheduled WLS for 12/19, and my daughter and brother were in a accident, clearances were still not in, and WLS did not happen. I gained 15lbs, when I was supposed to lose 15lbs, and my surgeon did not want to schedule me until I lost the weight. I got mad, and I ate foods that I knew were bad, and I said the same thing,"Why did I eat that". I had gotten to the point where I knew it was bad, and that I should not eat it, but I still ate it, and beat myself down for it. Then I got motivated, because until I lost the 15lbs, I was not going to be scheduled for WLS. Jan. 2006, I took a new attitude. I did not fall for all the stuff that people were dishing out. I got my mind pre-occupied with things that were healthy for me, Foods, exercise,....etc....and To this date I have lost 47lbs...taking me from 360lbs to 313lbs all pre-op. I am scheduled for WLS on July 17th and it is fastly approaching and I am happy. I am tired of being the fat woman in the bunch. Just by changing my frame of mind and not let people unconsiciously put me down, and hand me food, I lost the weight. My weight loss has recently slowed down and I found that I am steadily accumalating more co-morbidities, even after losing 47lbs, due to my obesity and I am ready for this to end. I know you love your hubby, and he loves you, but tell him to eat the ice cream, and you will finish what he leaves. If you do that, then most likely he will either eat it all or most of it. Are you feeling me? Or just tell him I am not going to eat that. I am sure that your mother and hubby wants what is best for you and that they are scared of losing you to this surgery, but only ERICA knows what's best for ERICA. I know when you are sick, we all tend to slow down on our normal to do things, because we feel like crap, but sometimes when you feel like crap is when you can get something done. I pray that you are approved and scheduled for surgery in the very near future. You deserve it and it will happen for you. Nissah 360/313/???/180 24 days and counting down.....