UGHHH

SO here I am...10 days after my surgery and I guess Im realizing what true addiction is. I always said Id never be one of those people that got "addicted" to something. The first couple of days, head hunger was no problem...now I find it is starting to eat away at me. I feel so weak saying that - so weak when I wanted to be so strong. Im noticing that the head hunger is totally just a fun word to talk about our ADDICTION. Here I am, not hungry at all - but seeing comercials, thinking of old loves, (Sonny's RIBS, Steak with corn/mashed potatoes, Pizza, Salami Sandwhiches, salad bars, cheese melts, veggie subs, Chicken Parm subs, Salt and Vinegar Chips, chocolate, french fries,etc) or driving down the road and seeing all those restaraunts...and thinking I want that food. In reality I hardly ate bad...I ate a lot of chicken (grilled) and veggies with the occasional junk. I was constantly on a low carb diet. But towards the end of my "fat people" eating I admit I ate a lot more of the bad then I did the good! My idea for writting tonight is that I understand that this is truly an addiciton. I hate that so much. When Im not hungry in my stomache at all - my head thinks of all these great tastes it would love to induldge in! My head wants my mouth to taste the foods - but my belly doesnt need them. My belly is content - so why is my head playing these games? Its the Addicition -and I wi**** would go away! But mark my words - I am stronger then it!

Hi Gina, I can TOTALLY sympathize with you. In the beginning I had it BAD, BAD, BAD. It has gotten better but the whole commercial thing was so me a few months ago. It definitely will get better and you will come to feel empowered that you DON'T eat that stuff. Of course that is not to say that at a safe distance from your surg you cannot have some in moderation... of course you can.... keep your chin up it gets better!!!! Good luck to you in your journey!Hugs, Stef