compliments

I had a realization about why recieving compliments make me so uncomfortable.
Whenever someone says "You're pretty" I am fully expecting that to be followed by "pretty ugly!"
That trick was pulled on me several times growing up.
I realize I am waiting for the other shoe to drop.

You'll never get over it. You'll always feel like people are just lying to make you feel better. It sucks.

It took a long time before I would truly accept compliments. It started by really looking at myself in a mirror one day. I realized I like that my stomach is smaller, collar bones are showing, and nails are sightly extended with polish on them. I started wearing make-up and defining my personal style. I now stand a little straighter and smile more often than I ever have before. I now know I am beautiful and that I am only going to look better as I continue to get closer to my goal. This is why I can accept compliments and know that it is no longer a horrible joke or prank. I plan on joining clubs on campus and trying to extend my interactions with others to eventually start dating.

Is my journey done? No, far from it. (Well maybe not all that far away, I have lost twice as much as I plan to lose to meet my goal.) What matters is that I am changing and I embrace myself now and as the numbers change.

Ugh, I feel the same way!  Whenever I receive a compliment, I have to fight the urge to make an excuse for it.  I can only hope this goes away as we adjust to new confidence!