Facing My Fears

Okay so now that all the initial excitement has settled down from getting a surgery date, now all the nervous/anxiety/scared/holycrapitsonly34daysaway has set in lol.. sooo I'm dealing with my biggest fear of dying on the table. I trust my surgeon 110% It's just my underlying anxiety order giving me crap! Any tips for me to ease this or get over this fear? I know statistics-wise I should do just fine, my hypochondria and anxiety however say "you're gonna be the one unlucky" out of the 1000 that ends up a baaaad statistic. Grrrr stupid anxiety!

Kara... I was the SAME EXACT WAY...and even told my surgeon "please don't let me die" before they took me into the room.

I cannot tell you anything other than this: you already said you trust your surgeon so that's #1.

#2, take any anxiety meds you have (if approved by anesthesiologist) the morning of surgery (I did...and boy did it help!).

#3, just BELIEVE in yourself that you WILL make it through! Your dad did.. everyone here on OH did... so you will too!!!!!

XOXO

I am also REALLY terrified of the actual operation. Well the only thing that scares me is going under and what they are doing to me while I am unaware. Also the thought of Anesthetic Consciousness really creeps me out. I am a huge control freak and the thought of me being incapacitated and not being able to dictate what goes on to me or my body makes me unbelievably insane! I had my son via C-Section and many of my friends and family that did it naturally were super scared because they don't actually knock you out fully. But I actually LOVED the idea that I was awake and aware during the whole thing. I guess I have this crazy fighter attitude and that I can control my destiny if I have the ability to. Just look at it like a small price to pay for a new beginning. That's how I am going to think of it...they just better give me some good sleepy stuff LOL