confession ... very bad bad girl ... airing it out

so, it's been some time now since i've been on here and posted.  i'm guilty.  i'm a bad bad bad girl.  i've fallen off the wagon, but recently re-claimed my route.  it's confession time .... i have been so un-accountable for the things (quality, quantity) going into my mouth.  i have been so totally ignorant, that's just the best way to sum it up.  i've gotten comfortable, and let old, discusting bad habits slip back into my life.  like, eating whatever and whenever i want to ... grazing all day, eating past the point of feeling full, even drinking a little while eating.  not taking my vitamins.  why am i sabotaging myself? today, though,  i have woken up, realized that what i'm doing is stupid and ignorant, and won't bring me anywhere but back to the person i was pre-surgery.  i didn't go through all of this for nothing, i don't want to fail.  i have to be accountable for my actions.  it's time to get back onto the right path.  i'm one year and one month out tomorrow, and i started this journey at my heaviest, 285lbs.  i am now 157, about two weeks ago i weighed in at 152, but the before mentioned had a way of making the scale go up ... so i have not yet reached my goal (142, surgeon's was 159 ... i am 5'6) ... but it's coming.  i'm just being frank and honest here, i have to confess.  it makes me feel better.  so, scold me, scold away.  i probably need some repremanding, some shaking, or you could just be sweet and understanding.  like i said, the reason for this post is to some to confessional and relieve myself of all my guilty little secrets.  it's all out in the wash now yall.  anyway, i'm on the right road now, and my biggest enemy is myself ... my mind, my old habits.  if anyone has the time, i would greatly appreciate some sample meal plans, i have a couple from my surgeon, but i need some variety.  at a little over one year out, i feel as though i can eat much more ... on average about a cup of food, depending on what it is.  hopefully i have not stretched out my pouch, however i do find i am able to eat a lot more carbs quantity wise as opposed to protien.  guess that's why we gotta eat protien first.  thank you all, love yall!

It takes a really big person to air it all out there like you did.  I applaud you for that.  I also want to say that this is the first step to getting back on the right track, being in the right frame of mind.  No one said this WLS thing was easy.  Our minds have a way of sabotagging us.  Realizing that is so important.  Get back to basics.  Don't beat yourself up too much.  You have fallen down, now get back up.  Start with some good cookbooks, a support group, and start exercising (if you aren't already).

I bought some cookbooks that are pretty good that could offer you some variety.  One is called Weight Loss Surgery Cookbook for Dummies and the other is Eating Well After Weight Loss Surgery: Over 140 Delicious Low-Fat, High-Protein Recipes to Enjoy in the Weeks, Months and Years After Surgery. The one for Dummies is $15.99 and the other is $5.39 used on Borders.com.  Those should help offer you a bit of variety. They have high protein meals and know exactly what we need to eat post op.

Best of luck to you.  I will be here if you need someone to vent, cry or just talk to!  You can do this!!
 

At least you are aware of your mistakes and can now fix them=you have done awesome girlm-just get back on track and dont let this new awesome life slip away from you!!!  Keep upi the good work and keep rocking that tool!!! good luck to ya

thanks girls. i needed to hear that!!  i will most def check out those cookbooks, they sound great.  i already have the "weight loss surgery for dummies" book, so i think the cookbook will be a great addition.  blessings to ya both!

 i'm totally there! i keep making excuses for it though. i'm at home for the summer. i have one class, so i'm basically bored all of the day with nothing to do... so i eat. but once i go back to school, busy myself, i'll be better, right?

Orrrrrrr.. i'm at home. my parents/sister keep tons of junk food around. Of course i'm going to eat it... but once i get back at school, i won't let myself in sight of junk food.... riiiiight??

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plus i haven't worked out in ages. i can feel my portions slowly getting bigger. drinking alcohol is so easy and soooo caloric. (i just turned 21). 

my weight fluxuates between 159 and 161. I'm a little bit over 5'7". my lowest weight was 155. My goal is 145.

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