guilt. a year and 5 months out.

hi ya'll!

i know i havent been around lately, lifes been so busy! ! much much love to you girls and boys!

anyways,
so lately ive been feeling guilty for eating. ive started considering going back to the wls specifiac therapist.

its not like im snacking or anything, just eating real meals. like protein filled yumminess.
i do admit and we all go astray, if i eat something "special" its all in moderation, proportioned yadda yadda, i know we cant deny ourselves, we are only human.

i just hate this, why do i feel guilty? like i work out all the time, i try to follow what im suppose to, maybe i feel guilty cause i think im going to end up over 300 pounds again?

has anybody else ever felt this way?

thanks <3 ami

I haven't had WLS yet but I can realte.  What you are talking about is something I've been thinking about running into in the future.  It's like you've worked so hard to get to where you are and you don't want to mess it up.  I know I don't have an eating disorder by any means but I think I would like to find a specialist in my area that helps people after WLS.  You might even be suprised that if you go to the counselor they might tell you that what your feeling is completly normal.  I am going to school to be a counselor right know so I'm all for talking to somone, especially when it's a feeling that begins to interefere with your daily routine, such as eating.   I'm sure that they can give you some "tools" to help you through what your feeling right now.  

Angel

I think we all feel this way at some point and it is all psychological.  Because of this surgery and probably before sugery, we look at food as some sort of enemy so even when we are using food the way it was meant to be (to nurish us) we still feel guilty.  The feeling gets even worse when we eat something we know we shouldn't...even though everyone does and it's ok...we're human. 

It's normal around this time (after a year-18months) to gain a little weight back and it's scary.  I've gain a few pounds back and I feel like I failed...but realistically it's not a big deal because I do exercise every day and I know I'm healthy and fit.   I'm finally to a place where I'm not going to compare myself to others and I'm striving to just be happy.  I refuse to play this weight game the rest of my life...am I going to be stressed out about this when I'm 80 or just remembering back on how much I enjoyed my life regardless of my size? 

Kinda strayed there but I guess my point is, we have to just try to be happy and what we eat shouldn't determine that or make us feel bad.  We know what we are suppose to do and if you are doing it, be proud!  :-) 

~Emily~ 

 I know what ur talking about! is an awful feeling! just remember  now we have to eat in order to stay healthy! and you are doing great job! very impresive! so keep it up! i think is great you are taking care of this matter cuz is important to let ourself enjoy food again. is a long way but i think we can get there! :D
HUGS!

 I'm almost 2 years out and though I have lost almost 180 lbs I feel guilty for eating.  Actually I am really having such problems with it lately that my husband is concerned.  I don't really have any advice for you but I can empathize and if you ever want to talk I'm here to listen 

same here girl, im here for you :) my email is [email protected] :)

xoxo

thank you all for you responses!

i had a hernia this past weekend and had to see my dr asap, and i think it helped put some of what i was feeling into perspective.

ive been exercising and scaring myself that if i dont hardcore its all going to come back and just ruin it all,
but as long as i stay in the right mindset of that i got this surgery to be healthy, and not to make myself unhealthy in other ways like mentally, its all going to be ok.

theres just days and weeks where things get blurry and this all just seems like a dream sometimes.

idk im babbling now, but thanks again!! 

try journaling your intake...it will help keep you honest and on track