food addict HELP!

HELP!

Omg *crys*

I dont know what to do any I dont have anybody to help me!

I am an addict.....of all sorts......it USED to be drugs and alch........then when i got clean it was FOOD. I now am a lil over a yr out since my gastric pypass and am struggling soooooooooo bad! I never changed my eating habbits! I am always sick because I eat the wrong foods or i over eat and my body rejects it......or i feel so sick i make myself vomit! I started drinking again too! I keep tryin to stop my addiction......im trying to eat healthy but i fail i fail i fail everyday i fail...........when your an addict your supposed to stay clear of what your addicted toooooooo but when your addiction is food what do u do? I have to eat to live.....but over eating or eating crap is gonna kill me to im just gonna end up gaining my weight back and i caaaaaaaaant do that id rather die! Or ima hurt my pouch  I am scared and upset and I dont know what to do. I am beyond depressed and dont even know why anymore. I have no energy to do anything even my son dosnt interest me! HOW HORRIBLE AND SAD IS THAT! I dont know what to do or where to turn to anymore! I need somone like holding my hand and telling me ok eat this eat that no no dont eat this dont eat that im to weak to do it alone!  I have come soooo far! I cant fail now I just cant! Sorry this is just one huge vent!

I really think that you should see a therapist. It is really important that you learn that no food or alcohol is worth your health. I am so proud of you for your weight loss and I'm sure that it took a lot of work. Don't let yourself unravel, you are too important to your family and friends. Find someone that you can talk too, please.

 I agree, see a therapist.  You can be helped, it has helped me greatly.  I still struggle with this each and every day but there are ways to cope.  Please make the appointment...do it for yourself.  

Because of what you said about nothing interesting you, even your son, it makes me think that food is not the only issue you are dealing with.  Food may be a symptom to a deeper problem.  Therapy can help you uncover the source and help you deal with it.  

~Emily~ 

o ya food is not the issue it is waaaaaaaaay deeper.........i just dont know what to do. ive been to therapy nothing helps :(

 Just like WLS, there's no magic, quick-fix to mental problems either.  My binge eating is something I'm going to have to deal with forever...just like an alcoholic is always an alcoholic even if they are sober.  Sad and frustrating?  Totally.   This is why my mantra is live day by day...or even minute by minute if need be.  We will never be 100% perfect but if we recognize our problems and try to help ourselves than we are doing the best we can.  We only fail when we give up on ourselves.  Please don't do that, life is too short and precious to waste.  

((HUGS))

~Emily~ 

I agree with the others about therapy... I go every week.  Sometimes I feel like it is pointless and I don't accomplish anything, but I go anyway and then have a major epiphany (like yesterday-see blog post).

Outside of that I think you are great by getting on the baord and asking for help.  My advise is to go back to the begining.  Try to get yourself eating like you did a month or two post op. Don't buy crap to temp you from the kitchen.  When you eat eat protien first, minimize the carbs-they trigger me to want more.

If you recognise yourself in binge mode while it's happening, my therapist reccomended that I find an alternative way to nurture myself.  I posted about it asking for ideas on the VSG board and have gotten some pretty good feedback-The point it you use substances to soothe yourself whether it be drugs alcohol or food and you need to find another way to do it.  Be patient you have probably spent a lifetime learning to do what you do now it will take time and persistance, but you can do it you remain concious about what you are doing.

thnx everyone <3

I am in the process of getting the gastric bypass surgery and I struggle with food addiction I would highly recommend OA as you have dealt with other addictions in the past you may be familiar with 12 step programs I can only speak from personal experience but when I work a program I find myself struggling less.

thnx ya ima look into that